It feels like my entire life has been begging the people that tell me they love me to actually take care of me and stop hurting me
My boyfriend doesnāt know how to care for anything and I just keep begging for idk what anymore
Right now, I can feel the start of someone detaching themselves from me
Heās realizing how much he misses his party lifestyle and that perhaps Iām just not worth the sacrificing of a popular social life
Maybe Iām not, I try so hard to be fun but Iām just a fucking idiot who cries constantly now
I donāt think he likes me even as a human these days
He doesnāt trust in my perspective of my experiences
How do ppl even come back from that
My depression keeps teetering worse than usual these days the lows are just the lowest
