Practice Makes Perfect

The daily practice sideblog of crystals-and-witchtrials.

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I’m still around just less active. We found out yesterday that Fionn is still measuring 28 weeks when he should be measuring 32. If he continues not to grow properly, I will deliver and he will spend time in the NICU. It’s been an emotional 24 hours.

I did this sigil for growth along with a ritual bath involving salt, tangerine, lavender, chamomile and a fuck ton of crystals.

I don’t know if I necessarily believe in rebogging to charge, but I’m willing to try

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Two different spreads I did tonight. The one on the left was the first reading I've done with the linestrider tarot. I reduced the deck down to just major and minor arcana because it felt right. I asked it how I would do at the new job I start tomorrow, but it sort of just gave me an all over reading. Fun fact; first card I always draw with a new deck/after awhile is the moon. Cause I'm a big ball of insecurity. The second spread was what my current emotions are and how to deal with them. I seriously love the Halloween oracle. It just gets me.

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1/14/18 Calming sigil. Homemade rosemary, chamomile, lavender candle. Rose quartz. Lavender and chamomile tea. Vampire blood bubble bath.

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SIGIL ~ HEALTH

This Sigil is very personal. I’ve been suffering from a chronic back pain for 6 years now and, long story short, I recently learned there was a way to ease my pain! Which is absolutely good news! It’ll be a long process, but I’m really motivated because I’ll be able to dance again after that, and to do a lot of stuff I thought I would never be able to do ever again! So this is a sigil to motivate me  and give me the strength to go through all the process and don’t give up!  I really hope this sigil will help more than just me in the process of recovery and retrieving good health!  Sending all of you lots of love and support in everything you want to accomplish ♥ 

Please don’t repost!

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Don’t usually reblog over here, but figure this could come in handy and would like to be able to find it easily.

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1/11/18 Halloween Oracle Deck

Question: How can I be happy with this current situation? 

Jack O’ Lantern: Protection, healing. The universe will help you create a reality that makes you happy.

De Los Muertos: Acceptance that things change, the death of a situation, balance and equality above everything else.

Graveyard: Unnecessary fear, things are not necessarily as they seem, you can overcome obstacles.

Thoughts:

This deck is definitely growing on me. This whole situation is messed up, but this spread makes me feel a bit better. I know that I’m scared of how things will turn out. I’ve never been good at making decisions I think have permanent consequences. I hate feeling stuck. I hate feeling trapped. 

I have to accept that this situation is going to change everything, no matter what I choose. Things can’t just go back to how they were. It’s a terrifying thought. I deserve to be happy, but I’m unsure of what it is that will make me happy.

I should probably just take some time and figure that out.

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Pages from herbal grimoire.

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1/11/18 Meditation grid to promote positive feelings.

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Energy bath 1/10/18

Water additives: Chamomile and sea salt

Cleansed most used stones (amethyst, rose quartz, clear quartz)

Burned energy sigil.

Note: probably obvious, but don’t get salt candle holders wet.

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Today’s sigil is for energy. I’m always feeling so run down about this time of the week.

Bath ritual with chamomile and sea salt also helped.

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Tarot reading for 1/10/18

Question: Is there a future with _____? Can we really be happy given the circumstances?

Deck used: Halloween Oracle

Spread: Originally, a basic 3 card spread. Drew a follow up card for extra clarity.

Past: Werewolf: Hiding one’s wild side, unable to find the balance between things, repressing my feelings

Present: Trick or Treat: Mischief, letting loose. Allowing myself to enjoy life and just do what I’d like. But careful that mischief doesn’t turn into manipulation.

Future: Cauldron: Synergy and healing, realizing that pressure changes things and life will be different afterwards. Not forcing myself to settle and choose the first solution, but allowing myself to mix things so that it’s right for me.

Follow up: The Mummy:  Change is inevitable. I will not be the same person after everything is said and done. I can choose to keep repeating the same pattern, or I can break it. Ultimately, the choice is mine.

Thoughts:

I guess this reading is pretty spot on, like usual. In the past, when A and I’s relationship began, it was mostly out of loneliness. N wasn’t giving me attention, he didn’t like my kinks, and I always felt like I had to be something different to make him happy. I hadn’t really been myself in a long time, and my life was definitely out of balance.

A and I’s relationship was always supposed to be just sex. Then, I caught feelings. I should have known better. I always catch feelings. But it was fun, and exciting, and it felt like he just got me. We were in sync. I was myself. It was natural. Then we found out I was pregnant. And N got on medication.

Now everything just feels like a mess. I feel like A and I could be happy, but I’m unsure if I’d ever love him as much as N. We spent 8 years together. Despite the manipulation and the gaslighting and the neglect, he was still my best friend. 

This reading makes me kind of worried that maybe I’m settling for a relationship with A because it’s what’s available and I feel like since I’m pregnant I don’t really have any other options. N or A. I may just be locking myself into another situation that I will need to fight my way out of years down the road. My pattern has always been I give myself entirely to a person if they want me. A is the first person to ever give himself entirely to me first. 

Bleh. This really just made everything more confusing, if that’s possible at all.

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Hello, Everyone!

So this is the sideblog of @crystals-and-witchtrials

It’s where I will put custom material, daily divination, sigils, spells, etc.

I will most likely not be reblogging stuff to this blog, unless it’s from my main and should have been here in the first place.