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Heart problems are coming back again because I stopped eating, wish I could stop doing that to me

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Just wanna đįē

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I have a feeling that my life is on the urge of change, the change into better a complete 180° turn from bad to good, finally good but I have to work on it and someday, only some lovely beautiful day it will stay like that

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How to handle it, Handling life how can one person possibly do that

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Sometimes even I ask myself why I try so hard for nothing, absolutely nothing in this world, and yet people have the courage to tell you to keep your head up high and go on and live?? As if it’s that easy to do and handle it 

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No matter how much energy I put into a person it’s never enough or I’m not interesting enough to keep something long term, I don’t even get half of the energy I give back to the people... or to the world

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I sometimes find myself looking back into my past and wish I would have hold some friends closer by my side, believing I would do better now, be a better me... idk

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There are those moments I have for years now that I have in which I may think about being in love, to be loved to be more precise. A few beautiful moments later there is this bright flash that reminds i will never experience any of that ever in my whole entire life, it is like a pushover shock that first of all completely surrounds me and then in the next moment rushes back into my heart. As if the darkness manifests itself slowly but surely into me, being me

[deadpoetwilde]

i think as a society we should bring back fancy dinner parties where you listen to classical music and discuss the shakespearean sonnets and the romantics & philosophical debates held by literary societies full of dedicated students who are passionate about critical theory and aestheticism & poetry readings in jazz cafés that last well into the night and leave you with a sense of having shared an intimate experience with strangers because all of you have felt the same words echo in your soul

[cursedpast]

Ohh how bitter sweet it is to be reminded of the one person who hurt you the most

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I knew it I knew it that I shouldn’t have have any kind of hope towards me but I still do, I still give myself the chance to dream of a better life

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Imagine living in a family, too poor for “free education” but having just enough money to buy themselves a pack of cigarettes each day 😹😹

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Imagine looking online for book streaming sides because your own family is too fucking poor to buy you books... literally books is all I’m asking for

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I have lost it all in the moment I was too busy collecting stones while I should have waited for a diamond

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Ich sollte mir einfach eine Überdosis geben

Denn ich bin sowieso derjenige der alles zerstört

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Ich würde mir einfach wünschen mich nicht wie ein behinderter zu verhalten in der nähe von Menschen die ich mag

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Die traurige Wahrheit wenn du realisierst das du keine Chance hast bei jemandem zu landen, doch du dir davor Hoffnungen gemacht hast dass am Ende es für DICH ein Happy End gibt.. welch ein unglaublicher Narr ich doch bin