ima be so real, i probably look like such a loner right now, and i don’t meant this in a self deprecating way. honestly, yah i could be viewed as a loner. i’m by myself very often. i don’t really talk to people often (kinda mostly by choice, i could try to if i wanted to)
but, being for real again, i’m kinda fine with that. like honestly, im chillin in my own company. like yes, i may be on my phone most of the time and doomscrolling the majority of it, but no, i don’t really feel bad about it. yes, doomscrolling 24/7 may not be the healthiest thing to do, but honestly it’s better than bed rotting and spiraling with negative thoughts. for me, i like my alone time. i kinda need it lately. and i’m not looking at things that make me feel worse (this, i used to do), i’m looking at posts that inspire me. i’m watching stuff about my current favorite show. i’m doing what makes me happy. and that’s chill to me.
i’m allowed to wanna chill by myself often. i’m allowed to wanna be on my phone. i’m allowed to giggle and laugh at the funny posts i see. i’m also allowed to ignore the things online that i don’t like or agree with or that make me feel bad. i’m allowed to consume what i wanna consume. i don’t have to feel bad about it. and it’s not a negative thing, at least not to me.
yes, it is possible that i can be perceived as a loner, but i know what i am. thats what matters to me. and what i am is chill. i am content. i am a-okay with myself. i’m able to enjoy my own presence. that doesn’t mean i’m a loner.
if you ever feel like a loner, but you know you enjoy your own presence, don’t let the negative thoughts of it consume you. remind yourself that you are going to be your own best friend throughout your entire life. nobody else in the world will be with you as long as you are and have been with yourself. make sure you’re someone you like hanging out with, it makes life a little more comfortable. <33