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'Ciel' Phantomhive from Kuroshitsuji / Black Butler Roleplay blog. Independent and selective, multiverse and crossover friendly, open to plotting. Using the name 'Astre' for him where needed until his canon name is given. Sidebar image © Nick Leerie

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The fur babies, including our sweet old man Sox who we lost in October, feat. his lil box and Blaze’s lil box who we lost in 2018.

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And did some fun stuff in 2023

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2023’s tattoos cause I love them

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Happy New Year from the future in Australia

Let’s hope 2024 will be even slightly less shitty than 2023

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Goodbye my sweetest, sweetest old man. Take some kisses to your sisters for me.

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turned 30 yesterday

officially old lady

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I still exist

Somehow

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halfway to seeing my lil sister for the first time in four months and now gotta sit in the airport waiting for my connecting flight for the next 2 hours and forty minutes :)))) why did I not look closer when booking this trip

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Sydney World Pride March 2023

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my little sister’s moving three states away/12 hour drive away next week and today was the last time I’ll get to see her for months until I can organise time off and re-save money for plane tickets

so my mood is absolutely in the gutter and I think I’ll finally get around to re-booting this blog as a twst verse blog like I said I would months ago for the distraction over the weekend.

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Finished piece

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Did a thing

This photo was from when it was almost finished up

Forgot how much the wrist area hurts

It hurts like a bitch

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sweet old man Sox gave us two days of stress over his health and had a $750 vet stay and tests only to find out he was so severely constipated because he’d felt a little crook one day and avoided popping long enough to completely block himself up. after two blood tests it turns out he’s got hyperthyroidism making him feel crook and not something worse and untreatable.

he’s home and happy and going to be less happy when he discovers he needs to have a pill every day for the next month before we can sort out easier treatment options.

this boy continues to be our million dollar cat

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am 29 today

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𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒

mentions of panic attacks , vomiting , trauma , self harm , and distressing situations . Feel free to adjust as needed ! ♡ 

( 𝐑𝐔𝐁 ) ; one muse rubs the other’s back to comfort them while in a moment of distress.

( 𝐁𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐓 ) ; one muse grabs a bucket for the other who’s about to throw up. 

( 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐄 ) ; our muses share a bed so the other doesn’t have to be alone. 

( 𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐑 ) ; one muse calls the other a term of endearment to comfort them. 

( 𝐇𝐔𝐆 ) ; one muse holds the other close while they open up / cry.

( 𝐀𝐈𝐃 ) ; one muse runs to the others aid after they were violently hurt. 

( 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 ) ; one muse calls sender late at night in tears and the other comes over to comfort them. 

( 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇 ) ; one muse reaches out to the other after they’ve withdrawn from everyone. 

( 𝐏𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂 ) ; one muse discovers the other during a panic attack. 

( 𝐍𝐔𝐑𝐒𝐄 ) ; one muse takes care of the other while they’re sick.

( 𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse holds the other’s hand while they’re in pain or panicking. 

( 𝐂𝐔𝐃𝐃𝐋𝐄 ) ; one muse offers to cuddle with the other to help them sleep.

( 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐅𝐈𝐃𝐄 ) ; one muse opens up to the other about a traumatic experience. 

( 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄 ) ; one muse guides the other through a breathing technique.

( 𝐖𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse comes to the other with an injury they’ve been trying to hide that’s beginning to worry them.

( 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒 ) ; one muse gently kisses the other while they’re crying.

( 𝐁𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄 ) ; one muse helps the other into a bath/shower after a traumatic event. or they bathe together.

( 𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐁 ) ; our muses instinctively grab each other while they’re scared.

( 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐄 ) ; one muse gives the other a shoulder rub.

( 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 ) ; one muse wipes blood off of the other.

( 𝐕𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐓 ) ; one muse shows up at the other’s doorstep in tears.

( 𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse has been missing and finally shows up, dirty and traumatized. the other helps clean them up and tries to get them to talk.

( 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐄 ) ; one muse wakes up the other after having a horrific nightmare.

( 𝐌𝐄𝐀𝐋 ) ; one muse makes the other a warm meal to make them feel better.

( 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐄 ) ; one muse has been slowly deteriorating mentally/physically, the other takes it upon themselves to make sure they’re taken care of.

( 𝐅𝐀𝐂𝐄 ) ; one muse takes the other’s face ( cheeks , chin ) when trying to comfort them. 

( 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 ) ; one muse lets the other stay over when their house gets too stressful.

( 𝐃𝐎𝐎𝐑 ) ; one muse sits outside the door to comfort the other who won’t let them in.

( 𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇 ) ; one muse stays over to make sure the other doesn’t hurt themselves.

( 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐊𝐄 ) ; one muse strokes the others hair.

( 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐔𝐌𝐀 ) ; our muses sit together after a traumatic experience. 

( 𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 ) ; one muse helps ground the other ( bonus if you specify how ) 

( 𝐈𝐂𝐄 ) ; one muse holds an ice pack to the other’s injury.

( 𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐏 ) ; our muses cry and hold each other after a traumatic experience. 

( 𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 ) ; one muse strides up to the other and suddenly embraces them tightly after experiencing something distressing. 

( 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑 ) ; one muse calms the terrified other.

( 𝐒𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐓𝐘 ) ; one muse takes the other to a calm area where they feel more comfortable opening up.

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An Extremely Self-Indulgent Meme

Physical prompts based around some of my favorite tropes / physical actions in threads. Send this   + reverse   to change which muse does which action.

tw for implied violence in some

❰❰ PIN ❱❱ sender pins receiver during a fight/training

❰❰ HURT ❱❱ sender is hurt protecting receiver

❰❰ CARRY ❱❱ sender carries receiver bridal style

❰❰ LIFT ❱❱ sender carries receiver over their shoulder

❰❰ MEDIC ❱❱ sender bandages receiver’s wounds

❰❰ SUPPORT ❱❱ sender comforts receiver after a loss / traumatic event

❰❰ THREAT ❱❱ sender holds a weapon up to receiver as a threat

❰❰ SAVE ❱❱ sender saves receiver’s life

❰❰ CRY ❱❱ sender cries in front of receiver

❰❰ DANCE ❱❱ sender invites receiver to slow dance

❰❰ HAND KISS ❱❱ sender kisses receiver on the hand or wrist

❰❰ CHEEK KISS ❱❱ sender kisses receiver on the cheek

❰❰ HEAD KISS ❱❱ sender kisses receiver on the forehead

❰❰ EMBRACE ❱❱ sender embraces receiver

❰❰ HANDS ❱❱ sender’s fingers graze the receiver’s fingers

❰❰ CUDDLE ❱❱ our muses cuddle

❰❰ BED ❱❱ our muses share a bed

❰❰ BRUSH ❱❱ sender plays with / brushes receiver’s hair

❰❰ GAZE ❱❱ our muses make extended eye contact

❰❰ ALMOST ❱❱ our muses almost kiss but don’t or are interrupted before they do

❰❰ ARGUE ❱❱ sender ends an argument with receiver with a kiss

❰❰ ARM ❱❱ sender puts their arm around receiver

❰❰ PULL ❱❱ sender pulls receiver close to them

❰❰ BACK ❱❱ sender touches receiver on the back

❰❰ SHOULDER ❱❱ sender touches receiver on the shoulder

❰❰ LEAN ❱❱ sender leans against receiver

❰❰ CARESS ❱❱ sender caresses the receiver’s cheek

❰❰ HAIR ❱❱ sender pushes receiver’s hair away from their face

❰❰ TILT ❱❱ sender tilts the receiver’s chin with their hand

❰❰ CHIN ❱❱ sender tilts the receiver’s chin with their weapon

❰❰ LEG ❱❱ sender’s leg touches the receiver’s leg under the table

❰❰ FOOD ❱❱ sender feeds the receiver

❰❰ WALL ❱❱ sender pushes the receiver against a wall

❰❰ FREE ❱❱ sender frees the receiver from restraints

❰❰ TACKLE ❱❱ sender hugs the receiver so hard they almost fall over / do fall over

❰❰ DYING ❱❱ sender finds the receiver near death

❰❰ PANIC ❱❱ sender comforts the receiver as they have a panic attack or get overstimulated

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*       𝑖  .      —      𝐎𝐍𝐄 - 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃  𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒        ›      not accepting  .

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ⁿᶦᵍʰᵗᵐᵃʳᵉ :   ᵐʸ  ᵐᵘˢᵉ  ᶜᵒᵐᶦⁿᵍ  ᵗᵒ  ʸᵒᵘʳ  ᵐᵘˢᵉˢ  ᵃᶦᵈ  ʷʰᵉⁿ  ᵗʰᵉʸ  ᵃʷᵃᵏᵉ  ᶠʳᵒᵐ  ᵃ  ⁿᶦᵍʰᵗᵐᵃʳᵉ.

               slumber never came easy for the countess.    a consequence she chalked up to a childhood of late nights by candlelight had persisted long afterwards;   and,   with time,   she forgets which came first                                           the insomnia or her late night perusal.     little has changed in this regard:   a novel three-quarters through found permanence upon her lap,   within arms reach was a little notebook of casual penmanship     ❪  featuring both carefully curated prose and notes spurred by a moment of stirring  ❫,   and finally,   an enduring moonlight to illuminate where candlelight wanes and flickers.

                  she was mid-reach for the water-filled teacup when a hollow creak reverberates with similar likeness of a snapped branch in blackened dusk,   shrill and horror-inducing.    the sound of shattering porcelain followed a teary croak for  mama.               “    goodness   —   stay still,   my love.    ”               novel is thence set aside without further regard and she tip-toes across the ceramic ruins.          “     oh sweetheart,  what’s the matter?     ”         he spoke in tongues of stifled,  wet sobs.    words jumbled and nigh incomprehensible if not for an innate maternal understanding.

                                                         a mother simply knows.

                  “     a nightmare?     ”        a thumb tenderly wipes at his apple-red,  tear-streaked cheeks.   “     what can I do to make you feel better?     ”   and all her little star did was bury his head into her,   his fingers curled tightly on her nightgown    ❪   with all the might he could muster   ❫.    rachel reciprocates the gesture in kind,   gingerly picking him up and swaying about the room   —   reminiscent of a languid waltz,   a soft hum for his ears only.

                              “.                            it’s alright,  my dove.  mama’s here now.     ”