🍭 Cyannide Lolypop 🍭

🌟 Nebula Basket Party Member 🌟 vey/ven/vims + neos/they

[cyannidelolypop]

Coyotes are quite prominent in the therian community, it seems, so I see many yotes on my dash. Thing is, no offense to yotes at all, but seeing them always kinda made me, like, primally uncomfortable. Like, mildly off-put. Like a bad gut feeling.

So, I recently learned coyotes are known to kill foxes

[kali-vega-deactivated20250612]

lesboy lore explained !

it's that simple ! stop hating on queers for no reason and start focusing on stopping anti-lgbt legislation ! :D

[radiomogai]

[PT: lesboy lore explained! end PT]

[cyannidelolypop]

I've seen entities on here discussing species transition goals, and I realized it's not something I've dedicated much deep though to up to this point because much of it has seemed entirely unachievable, and some of it is intrinsically tied to my transition to genderlessness. So, I'd like to reflect on steps I've already taken and consider potential future steps.

Let's start by reflecting on steps already taken:

- name change

- usage of neopronouns

- acquire prosthetic elf ears

- acquire prosthetic horns

- come out to trusted loved ones

- unmask and grow to be more comfortable acting like myself

- learn affirming makeup styles

- aquire light, bright, shiny, sparkly, and glowing clothes and accessories

- change language used for self

- improve upon vocalization

- bird watch

- grow out nails

- hang posters of space images in room

Some of these things are ongoing.

Now for potential future goals:

- build more permanent den ‼️

- aquire means to burrow without grass allergy problem

- aquire/make fox ears, tail(s), and potentially some form of paws

- maybe also for cat?

- build muscle and agility

- top surgery ‼️

- nullification surgery ‼️

- tattoos maybe (still deliberating on specifics)

- aquire/make wings/wing-adjacent accessories

That's all I can think of off the top of my head. This really is just a brainstorming exercise, though. I may think of other things later. Unfortunately, I can't think of much of anything at all for my eldrich-esque form or specter-like glitchy form short of neopronouns.

[foxeseveryhour]

Source

[lovely-mogai]

Fizzslushie

a slush gender which feels like its a fizzy flavoured slushie, connected to both fizzieness and slushies, etc.

On the list tonight~ @accessmogai & [tagging]

[fae-born]

I don't mean to get too personal but I've been dehumanised since I was a child. Consequently, I've always been in tune with the non-human beings around me, and it was only a matter of time before I unearthed the nonhuman part of myself.

It's not that being dehumanised my whole life made me want to reclaim that dehumanisation, but when the people around me exclude me from humanity it's much easier to see my inherent nonhumanity.

In fact, my nonhumanity is not the absence of humanity (because bodily I am human and I embrace that) but rather the presence of a nonhuman aspect of my being.

[apolladay]

There's a stereotype that USAmericans tolerate very long car rides.

USAmericans, can you easily tolerate driving in a car for an hour?

No, usually I cannot tolerate driving at all

No, usually I can only tolerate 5-15 minutes

No, usually I can only tolerate 15-30 minutes

No, usually I can only tolerate 30-45 minutes

No, usually I can only tolerate 45-55 minutes

Yes, but usually around 1 hour it stops being tolerable

Yes, but usually around 1.5 hours it stops being tolerable

Yes, and it usually takes 2 hours or more to stop being tolerable

Nuance

Not USAmerican

Voting ended onOct 4, 2024

[mollyjames]

op I think you may have wildly underestimated american's car tolerance

[cyannidelolypop]

The body: constantly and inexplicably fatigued and in pain

My mind: Arguing over whether I am dying a slow, horrible death or I'm faking it for attention and actively harming the chronic pain community and being extremely ableist.

[cyannidelolypop]

At what point does someone become a furry? Like, is there a specific threshold that must be crossed? Like, I have a passing appreciation for furry art (including fursuits under "art"); just about as much as any other kind of art. Protogens in particular seem pretty cool. I might be mildly inclined to investigate them further if I stumble across anything particularly intriguing. But it's not like I go out of my way to engage with furry content or communities or anything; I just appreciation them in passing if I happen to stumble across them.

I don't have a fursona or anything. I suppose it may technically be possible for me to take the form of an anthro fox on occasion through my alterkitsune kintype, but it's not really something I ever think about or go out of my way to do, and I'm not really sure if that would qualify as a fursona. I have, though, accidentally created an entire war-torn nation of anthro cat people that is now part of my paracosm and the people of which I occasionally roleplay. Like, does that alone make me a furry? Or do I need to be more actively invested?

Like, it quite frankly doesn't matter to me whether or not I would be considered a furry; it wouldn't really change anything, but I don't know what to tell people when they ask lol. I seem to perplex the furries I've had the pleasure of meeting.

[cyannidelolypop]

Shout out to Kaden from Fire Emblem Fates for helping me figure out I'm something similar to a kitsune. Kaden and Selkie always made me feel super shifty. I remember telling my sister something like "Screw all this. I want to run away with Kaden and Selkie and Kana and just live out the rest of my days as a kitsune dragon" and basically had my player character in fox gear the whole game. Looking at Kaden and Selkie always felt kind of looking at a reflection of myself in a way, and I had realized I felt similarly about other kitsune character in the past. Had to sit down and do a good think on all that.

[sneakyscreecher]

i don't understand sexual attraction like nothing wrong with it but every time I think about it im just so confused

[nebulabasket]

I mapped out my alterhuman identities.

(The sliders are in arbitrary positions as it's meant to show how my kintypes fluctuate; which I imagine kind of like a soundboard. The grey box next to "doll trapped" is a checkbox.)

I learned a lot of new terms and concepts at Othercon and have done a lot of reflecting and introspecting. I've finally officially decided to be a catlinker and I've reconsider my stance that the term "therian" doesn't apply to me. I've decided that it does.I've also come to the realization that it feels kind of like my light kintype has its own kintypes due to a panelist mentioning a nesting doll kintype situation. I don't believe my alterhumanity has anything to do with past lives personally (the octoling kardiatype is due to basically what I would describe as a parallel life that's been manifested into CyanTide (previself party member)), but I'm sure there could be other causes. Maybe more parallel lives. I'm pretty sure that's the case with my aliedragon (MoonLighter) kintype, as manifested in Glow Bright (previme party member).

Also, I don't have a good term for when I'm trapped in a doll. It's not a kintype or a paratype or a hearttype or a hearthome or anything. My anymic glitchy kintype is kind of like a spirit and a specter, but it's not a ghost. Even still, it's like sometimes it's bound to this old doll and gets trapped inside against its will. Not always, though. Sometimes I fel like this feeling bleeds through to my altereldritch form.

Shout out to u/GhostOrchidGynoid on Reddit for coining the term alterfae (https://www.reddit.com/r/alterhuman/s/uRxk7tnKpE) and the alie- prefix; I am expanding their definitions past just fae for my altereldritch, alterkitsune, and aliedragon kintypes.

Feel free to ask me about any unfamiliar terms.

~ 🍭 Cyannide Lolypop 🍭

[cyannidelolypop]

So it's on my blog.