CYD ST VINCENT

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I'm sorry I just found your blog but WOW!!! As a ftm gay, thank you so so much. Also, I'm wondering what specific type of top surgery or aftercare you did because you had because you have ZERO scarring and oh my God you're living the dream :')

I’m so glad you like it!!!  I got keyhole with Doctor Beverly Fisher in 2010.  I was lucky enough to have tits that went down to an A cup through a pretty intensive work out regiment that I followed pre-surgery.  There was a tiny bit of scarring but 7 years and scar cream pretty much took it away.  Mostly I was lucky though!  I would say that really trying to build up the muscle in your chest pre-surgery worked well for me and I would recommend it though

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Hey, I saw in a previous ask you mentioning that you used to distrust why people would want to hook up with you and that you were maybe selling yourself short, I'm certainly experiencing this at the moment so it's good to know I'm not alone. How has this progressed for you? Was it a big realisation/event, or did time just give you more confidence in yourself?

At this point in my life I feel more confident in my body than ever and it reflects on my relationships.  I’m less paranoid of people and I feel able to ascertain peoples intentions better.  I think that took both just a lot of time and getting comfortable in myself and getting to understand peoples response to me in a deeper way.  Also, I had some good relationships which helped me build trust in myself as a worthy sexual and romantic partner as well as in other peoples interest in me being genuine.  Being trans - for most people the first 1-5 years of dating post transition kind of blows, there is a lot to deal with and not a lot of guidance on how to deal with it but as time goes on I feel like many people get a sense for how to navigate it all better.  

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Hi, I got contacted on a dating app by a cis-guy who seems to have a fettish to tranguys. I'm not sure how to feel about that. What do you think? And should I meet him? He hasn't been with transman before. I seem to be a bit baffeled by all this because he makes sex videos and is out of my league so I'm worried that this is just a fraud or he is going to video me without my consent. What do you think? Don't really have people to turn to with this so thank you!

Hey!  I think two things

1.  There are absolutely cis guys who have a fetish for trans guys in the way that feels super objectifying.  If you wanna hook up with someone who is excited about you as a person and they only want to talk about the uniqueness of your body then I would go by your gut and pass him up.  Him making sex videos doesn’t mean he’s going to film you without your consent, but if you are feeling nervous about that then you could ask him outright and even if the answer is no but you still feel suspicious, then why go out with someone who makes you nervous?

1.  That it was really hard for me to see peoples motivations for wanting to hook up from me coming from a genuine place at a certain point of my transition.  Especially if they were really ‘hot’.  Regardless of the outcome with this guy are you underselling yourself?  Are you approaching people who are interested in you automatically with distrust or is it just this one guy?  Its easy to feel like you are worth less than cis people in this world, but you aren’t and you deserve hot trade, dates and whateverthefuck you want.  

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Hello just wanted to say that you are so handsome and gorgeous and I just really dig you. Also I started T a week ago and over the last couple days I've noticed that I'm horny literally all the time which is not usual for me. Is it the Testosterone?

Testosterone definitely has a reputation for increasing your sex drive!  It isn’t something that happens to everyone but enough that one could definitely say there is a correlation - you could also gather the evidence of really horny sounding posts by FTM guys on CL ;) 

Thanks for the super sweet words and congrats on starting T - hope it brings you lots of joy and that the horniness is fun.  

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Its a shoot that hasn’t been released yet - but will be soon when the new Bonus Hole Boys site goes live!

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In NYC?  Wanna go to a nasty sex party with 70′s vibes and great DJ’s and all the sex furniture you could want?  Trans guy wanting a welcoming faggot space?  I’m hosting this sex party in a secret location in Brooklyn.  Portion of door goes to fund trans housing in St Louis and part of poppers bar goes to fund QTIPOC prisoner project F2L.  Come by and see me in some kind of debauchery 

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Me a decade ago vs me now - I look the same right? ;)  

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Hey just an fyi that gayftmescort link in your description is redirecting to potential malware.

Thank you so much!  I had let my tumblr info way way fall behind.  Switched it to my brand new website!

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So question, maybe you know more about this. Ever since I started T about 11 months ago about half the time I orgasm I ejaculate. Like a lot. I don't mind (except it's messy lol) but I think it freaks my partner out a bit. Is this something that has happened to other transmasculine people from T that you know of?

Hmmm.  You know if there is anything I have learned about testosterone it’s that it has very different effects on every person.  I have a friend who had testosterone clear up his lifelong chronic UTI’s, why?  Who knows?  Another gets yeast infections all the time when they take T - also difficult to understand.  I don’t mean to reroute us into weird sexual health land, but the point I’m trying to say is maybe testosterone is doing something that makes you ejaculate - I really don’t think there is enough known to answer that conclusively. 

However CHANCES ARE you are just more comfortable.  Either with your partner, your body or both.   Ability to ejaculate does tend to have to do with ability to relax, or maybe you changed the way you were having sex to include more g spot stim?  Either way, I hope u and ur partner enjoy it and put a towel down if it gets too messy ;)

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How much does size matter to you? I am 5" in length with 5" of girth and insecure about topping with my size. Could a guy my size make you squirt? And a side note: I love watching you squirt and you made me realize that I love trans men as much as I love cis men (as people, of course, not just sexual objects or anything).

I love that I was part of broadening your sexual understanding of your desires!  And squirting is totally awesome, I love doing it and it’s so fucking hot to spray my cum all over someones face or chest or cock.  

Now to your question - to be totally honest I don’t squirt from PIV sex with most people.  It isn’t necessarily about size but rather the shape of the cock.  The sexual partner I squirt with the most has a rather short cock but he has a condition that makes his cock curl back on itself so it looks kind of like a ‘come hither’ finger - does that make sense?  Its the pressure on my g spot that makes me squirt - not being super filled up.  In fact being super filled can make it difficult to squirt.  Like my body will produce ejaculatory fluid when someone is fisting me, but unless they pull their fist out it won’t be released.  

Another thing I want to say is there is no cock size that works for everyone.  People act as if vaginas are these cavernous openings that with enough lube will fit anything (and while due to baby birth that may be technically true) it’s actually not true about having a good time.  Some peoples vaginas are long, some are short, some are wider, some are really tight.  And thats not mainly because of how much they are used, but rather like with people with penis’s just something they are kind of born with.  For some trans guys your 5″ dick is gonna feel huge, for some not.  

For me, I’ve had pleasurable kinds of sex with people with all kinds of dick size because we just do positions and also do things that work for how our bodies match.  I think also it’s important for people with penis’ to remember DICKS ARE NOT THE ONLY WAY TO TOP.  I don’t care the size of my partners dick - if you wanna be giving me a totally explosive time I want you to be using your hands, toys, cucumbers ;) whatever the fuck.  Penis in vagina sex is just one stop in the sexual range of possibilities - it’s a great one, but if you are feeling insecure about your dick size well then make sure your the best hand fucker around 

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If we wanted to meet up with you in a specific city, let's say, New York 😉 would you let us know when you're available?

Hey!  I go to NYC often - in fact I will be there all or most of April ;)  Its easier to catch my travel plans by following me on twitter!  

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Do you ever have a hard time getting cis men to like you? I'm a trans boy and I'm very attracted to cis men. I find it hard to find one that is gay and okay with me having original plumbing. I am very scared no one is out there that will love me.

I’ve definitely DEFINITELY had that experience before, and now years later I am still confused about what portion of that feeling came from being part of a trans unfriendly gay culture and what portion came from me being uncertain about how to navigate gay world and my own insecurities about my body.  

I think cultural change has happened a lot since I was first identifying as a gay trans guy about a decade ago.  I see a TON more friendliness and interest to gay trans guys in cis gay culture, but of course that will be different depending on where you are at and what kind of guys you are pursuing.  Cock centeredness is a huge part of gay male culture and it can feel very hard not to get intimidated by that.  But I meet a ton of cis gay guys who are so into me, and so into my body (sometimes in a way that’s a little fetishizing and sometimes just like they are into me as a guy they look the likes of).  There will be experiences that make you feel small, but you have to develop an inner sense that your hotness is not dependent on them and that kind of attitude will do a lot to draw the fags that are worth your time to your yard, so to speak.  

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Hello there :) I have a big question. And who better than to ask someone who all ready accepts themselves so confidently. I found out I was trans at 6 yrs old. I am 20 now going on 5 years on t. My name and gender market are legally changed. Now I am on a big goal. Accepting myself being trans. At a young age i wasn't accepted so my self esteem was hurt and trapped in the wrong body. And not knowing who i was. How did you cope with accepting yourself. I can't wait to read your advice.

I think a big part of why I have so much self confidence and, in fact at this point,  would not trade being cisgender for being trans at all, is due to my friends.  I’ve been really blessed to have people in my life who have really celebrated me for who I am.  I spend a lot of time with other transgender people and my love for them comes around back to me.  

I understand recovering from past pain though. My parents are not accepting of who I am, and regardless of how good my life is going at any moment sometimes those feelings of rejection can come back and distort my own sense of self.  Getting therapy was really important for me to began to depersonalize some of the ways I’ve been treated in the past and I definitely know that I am more grounded in myself because of it.  

I hope that you have the resources of friends and access to people to talk to.  If not, there have been times that I have utilized online message boards and phone lines to talk about depression and dysphoria.  I am sending you a lot of love and hope for you to get good with yourself.  Genuine care and admiration for yourself is the most important goal for mental health.  Make it your priority to give yourself love and work on enjoying you for you.  

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