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Winter 2020 Part 1.

First blog of the year with some new pickups

始めまして。ぼくの名前始めましD-Rylです。趣味は音楽テレビゲーム。

Shifting Focus

Man oh man. There's only so much I can take. I don't want to give it up, but I have to pick off the undesired things like a mosquito trying to suck out the blood. My personal views: where I'm from I see music sounding the same everywhere. Nobody wants to be different, some of my peers expect me to sound like everyone else. I thought they respected me and appreciated me for MY art and my creativity, not just because of my ability. And I can't collaborate with almost any of them either because A,: we aren't on the same page musically, B: the consistency rate, C: The work ethic. I've wasted so much time over the years trying to be apart of something that doesn't want to get to the next level. I've worked so hard on things for nothing just to have my contemporaries not appreciate it or just overlook it. They want to control MY output, which at first I learned to compromise to come to a consensus, but they couldn't meet me halfway with the effort or be cognizant of me going all the way for them. Where I'm from in my area I started doing this before it came cool, now everyone wants to do it now. I did it because I had the passion and wanted to have a new skill. People now want to do it for clout. There will be a day when I move forward and begin to the next level, people will see my progression and will want a piece and/or act like they supported me when they really didn't. If I ever do so much as give them my time for the day, it will come with a price.

#personal rant

More Thoughts III

I feel like I'm about to reach my breaking point.

https://soundcloud.com/d-ryl-mitchell/beat-purge-20

More Thoughts II

I would just love to take my passion for music and make it where I can help my family not have to struggle, live comfortably, meet the ones that inspired me and thank them for doing so, and even do the same for someone like me, inspire them and make a difference in someone life. Hopefully I can balance that and finish this degree program 😅

More Thoughts

Ahh, of all the years that I’ve been working on my passion, which is music, I’m still trying to find out where it’s going to take me.

I’m just glad I did take band in school. Age 7 gave me the start of my musical tastes.

Producing came at age 13…… Started off with 2 close friends…

Now 12 years forward today I’ve been working on my craft and have nothing to show for it.

Save for a select artists, I worked with a lot of other people and they aren’t really on the same page as me. They don’t really understand the vision, or understand my taste.

I’m not satisfied.

I think I need to run off and do my own thing. I am realizing I can get way more done on my own.

I will have a secret place where all of my recordings and work will go but it could be years or if ever before people will make the connection and I'm fine with that, I will just think of it as my musical time capsule. Music always in my heart but I think I need to take a step away because I personally feel everything is to saturated. I like to hear colors in music... but that will be for another day.

Situation

Going through situations and issues, I see who really there when I'm probably at the lowest point in my life and health. People act like they don't know who I am, or turned their backs. I'm not even phased at that part, my main issue is the time wasted. I'm not holding anyone back who wants to leave, heck I'll gladly open the door. Just know that when you turn your back, don't even bother turning back around, just keep it moving because I'm doing the same.

Frustration

Man the frustration is real. I can't stand people yo, a lot of people I dealt with in my life end up just wasting my time. I don't have that luxury. I learn to value my time now. I try to be the nice guy. I try to be the patient one. Seems like trust and loyalty now a days is a a lost treasure. I need to cleanse my mind of people and keep it moving.