She Who Loves The Stars...

39, Canadian, She/Her, Gray-Ace Heteroromantic, Autistic, Anxious. This is not a fandom space. For fandom stuff, see my main blog. [18+ Only. Minors, Solicitors and Assholes DNI.]

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I want to say this once because I don't want there to be any misunderstandings.

Please stop reading things into my posts that aren't there.

I have a lot of emotional trauma from growing up as an undiagnosed autistic person. I was bullied, taken advantage of, and often thought people were my friends when they weren't. I'm still processing those experiences at my own pace.

I am not depressed. I am not trying to start a fight with anyone. I am not a danger to myself or anyone else. I am not shutting anyone out. I'm learning to set healthy boundaries, take care of myself, and work through my past in my own time.

I appreciate that people care, but I need my words to be taken at face value rather than assumptions being made about what I "really" mean.

Thank you for your time.

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I haven't been able to draw or write for a long time... and I don't enjoy sitting here by myself, staring at a blank screen with a blinking cursor.

I ended up scrapping the Dion/Arthur fic I was working on. They have this wonderful, beautiful life in my head, but when I try to put it all on paper it just won't come out... I can't even put them in drawings.

I'm just... gonna stop trying and accept the loss.

Maybe I wasn't meant to be a writer or an artist.

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It appears the blogs I suspected were scams have stopped targeting my inbox. They've stopped sending threatening messages, too

I don't reblog 'in case they're real.' They could say they're 'vetted' all they want, but how do I know the 'vetters' aren't more scammers?

I don't, and I don't have the spoons to go into a stranger's DMs to ask.

I'm sorry real people are struggling, but spamming, then threatening people online is not the way to seek aid... Guilt tripping and shaming people for not spreading the stories is not the way either.

Everyone has the right to curate their own online experiences. Everyone is allowed to pick and chose what they see and share with others.

Some of us don't want to fill our blogs with sad stories, and that's okay.

This is not an attack directed at anyone. I'm just saying where I stand. I care, but I can only donate to charities I am familiar with.

I don't want anything I give to end up supporting a fraudster.