MY THOUGHTS OF DEVOTED LOVE & HATE

my fucked up thoughts

[d3adhopes]

𝑰𝑵𝑻𝑹𝑶𝑫𝑼𝑪𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵

Hi, my name is Spear! I go by xe/spear/he/flesh/web in no particular order. This blog is mostly about things that go on in my head.

while on the subject of my blog, i'd like you to know that i am not a good person. i am fucked up in the head, and i will post fucked up things. i apologize if i trigger anybody. if i do, don't report me. just block me.

DNI bigots, racists, and similar shitty beliefs. Besides that, I block freely. This is a friendly blog to everybody, as long as you are not blatantly rude for no reason.

Thank you for taking the time to read this [short] introduction. There is a likelihood that i will change this throughout my time on this platform.

[d3adhopes]

tw emetophobia

i'm shaking and im nauseous what is going on is this what terror feels like or am i just dying eew ew ew ew ew ew ew EW EW EW ewewewew i hate this what is going on

[sleepyhead-angel]

𝐺𝑢𝑦𝑠 @hpdamechan 𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑜 𝑝𝑒𝑎𝑘 𝑔𝑜 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑒 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑖𝑡!! ♡

[dolledupcorpse]

second this

[d3adhopes]

i third this!

[bellofsalvation]

reblog this post an ill tell you what candy your blog tastes like!

[dreamdose]

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how i feel spamming the jirai tags in hopes someone will notice me and follow me and then think "hey shes really relatable" and like me

[d3adhopes]

Flesh ┈ How do you like to show your obsession? Marks? Stalking? Isolation?

Bloodshed ┈ Could you ever seriously hurt your partner? Or do you prefer to love them gently?

Theophagy ┈ Do you want your partner to dictate and control every part of your life or the other way around? Are you the worshipper or the God being worshipped?

Flesh-eater ┈ Would you give up your sanity for your partner? Will you let them manipulate you? Let them make your mental health worse?

Ingesting ┈ How much begging would your partner have to do for you to give into their pleads

Appetite ┈ Are you more masochist or sadist leaning?

𓆞 ⠀— @f1sh-gvtz ⋆｡𖦹°‧ (srry, tumblr doesn't let me send askz through my blog, so i have to send on anon)

Hii! ty for the ask :)

Flesh: I usually isolate myself and stalk only occasionally. I mostly just fantasize about the people I'm obsessed with, I'm kind of a wuss with stuff like stalking and obsession, but it's a long story..

Bloodshed: Depends really. Sometimes I might feel really soft and gentle with my [nonexistent] partner and other times I'd wanna tear them apart and make them bleed. Lovingly, of course. And with consent.

Theophagy: I'd say personally a little back and forth. I'd love to have someone devote their entire life to me and more, but there are times where I'd be willing to do just that.

Flesh-eater: Definitely. The only line I'd draw is making me kms, but even then, it's definitely something I'd dabble in. Besides that, I would give up anything and everything for my partner.

Ingesting: Not a lot, but I'd love to see how far they'd go to make me oblige. It's such a nice sound imo, hearing someone beg.

Appetite: I'd probably go with sadistic. I can be a sucker for pain and stuff on me, but it drives me nuts inflicting in on other people.

[doomedl-ove]

ᴄᴀɴɴɪʙᴀʟɪꜱᴍ ʏᴀɴᴅᴇʀᴇ ᴀꜱᴋ ɢᴀᴍᴇ

Thanks for a 100 followers .ᐟ made by @doomedl-ove

Devour ┈ Are you willing to let your love for your partner devour you completely? Will you let it take over every expect of your life?

Raw meat ┈ How much privacy are you willing to give your partner? If any at all.

Flesh ┈ How do you like to show your obsession? Marks? Stalking? Isolation?

Bloodshed ┈ Could you ever seriously hurt your partner? Or do you prefer to love them gently?

Bloodlust ┈ If someone were to flirt with your partner how would you react? Would you hurt the person or punish your partner?

Consumption ┈ Would you isolate your partner from everyone and everything? Make them spiral and only dependent on you?

Ferocity ┈ Are you someone that would get violent with their partner? Would you be willing to give them bruises, cuts, burns? Or just call them degrading names?

Theophagy ┈ Do you want your partner to dictate and control every part of your life or the other way around? Are you the worshipper or the God being worshipped?

Flesh-eater ┈ Would you give up your sanity for your partner? Will you let them manipulate you? Let them make your mental health worse?

Ingesting ┈ How much begging would your partner have to do for you to give into their pleads

Rotting ┈ What is the worst thing your partner could do to you?

Insatiable ┈ Do you believe in second chance? If your partner were to hurt you in a indescribable way could you ever forgive them?

Devotion ┈ Do you want your partner to only interact with you? Are you willing to go to extreme lengths to make that happen?

Appetite ┈ Are you more masochist or sadist leaning?

Taboo ┈ How far would you go for your partner? What's the worst thing you would do to prove your love?

Canines ┈ any questions you want to ask.

[d3adhopes]

hypothetically what would taking four pills of 500 milligram acetaminophen do, maybe more? asking for a friend

[d3adhopes]

tw homicide

god the homicidal urges are rlly fucking strong rn. i wonder how much it'll take to get into a mental hospital