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Chapter 10: Anneâs Apology (part 4)
When Marilla went home Anne came out of the fragrant twilight of the orchard with a sheaf of white narcissi in her hands.
âI apologized pretty well, didnât I?â she said proudly as they went down the lane. âI thought since I had to do it I might as well do it thoroughly.â
âYou did it thoroughly, all right enough,â was Marillaâs comment. Marilla was dismayed at finding herself inclined to laugh over the recollection. She had also an uneasy feeling that she ought to scold Anne for apologizing so well; but then, that was ridiculous! She compromised with her conscience by saying severely:
âI hope you wonât have occasion to make many more such apologies. I hope youâll try to control your temper now, Anne.â
âThat wouldnât be so hard if people wouldnât twit me about my looks,â said Anne with a sigh. âI donât get cross about other things; but Iâm so tired of being twitted about my hair and it just makes me boil right over. Do you suppose my hair will really be a handsome auburn when I grow up?â
âYou shouldnât think so much about your looks, Anne. Iâm afraid you are a very vain little girl.â
âHow can I be vain when I know Iâm homely?â protested Anne. âI love pretty things; and I hate to look in the glass and see something that isnât pretty. It makes me feel so sorrowfulâjust as I feel when I look at any ugly thing. I pity it because it isnât beautiful.â
âHandsome is as handsome does,â quoted Marilla. âIâve had that said to me before, but I have my doubts about it,â remarked skeptical Anne, sniffing at her narcissi. âOh, arenât these flowers sweet! It was lovely of Mrs. Lynde to give them to me. I have no hard feelings against Mrs. Lynde now. It gives you a lovely, comfortable feeling to apologize and be forgiven, doesnât it? Arenât the stars bright tonight? If you could live in a star, which one would you pick? Iâd like that lovely clear big one away over there above that dark hill.â
âAnne, do hold your tongue,â said Marilla, thoroughly worn out trying to follow the gyrations of Anneâs thoughts.
Anne said no more until they turned into their own lane. A little gypsy wind came down it to meet them, laden with the spicy perfume of young dew-wet ferns. Far up in the shadows a cheerful light gleamed out through the trees from the kitchen at Green Gables. Anne suddenly came close to Marilla and slipped her hand into the older womanâs hard palm.
âItâs lovely to be going home and know itâs home,â she said. âI love Green Gables already, and I never loved any place before. No place ever seemed like home. Oh, Marilla, Iâm so happy. I could pray right now and not find it a bit hard.â
Something warm and pleasant welled up in Marillaâs heart at touch of that thin little hand in her ownâa throb of the maternity she had missed, perhaps. Its very unaccustomedness and sweetness disturbed her. She hastened to restore her sensations to their normal calm by inculcating a moral.
âIf youâll be a good girl youâll always be happy, Anne. And you should never find it hard to say your prayers.â
âSaying oneâs prayers isnât exactly the same thing as praying,â said Anne meditatively. âBut Iâm going to imagine that Iâm the wind that is blowing up there in those tree tops. When I get tired of the trees Iâll imagine Iâm gently waving down here in the fernsâand then Iâll fly over to Mrs. Lyndeâs garden and set the flowers dancingâand then Iâll go with one great swoop over the clover fieldâand then Iâll blow over the Lake of Shining Waters and ripple it all up into little sparkling waves. Oh, thereâs so much scope for imagination in a wind! So Iâll not talk any more just now, Marilla.â
âThanks be to goodness for that,â breathed Marilla in devout relief.
Chapter 10: Anneâs Apology (part 3)
Rapt and radiant Anne continued until they were in the very presence of Mrs. Lynde, who was sitting knitting by her kitchen window. Then the radiance vanished. Mournful penitence appeared on every feature. Before a word was spoken Anne suddenly went down on her knees before the astonished Mrs. Rachel and held out her hands beseechingly.
âOh, Mrs. Lynde, I am so extremely sorry,â she said with a quiver in her voice. âI could never express all my sorrow, no, not if I used up a whole dictionary. You must just imagine it. I behaved terribly to youâand Iâve disgraced the dear friends, Matthew and Marilla, who have let me stay at Green Gables although Iâm not a boy. Iâm a dreadfully wicked and ungrateful girl, and I deserve to be punished and cast out by respectable people forever. It was very wicked of me to fly into a temper because you told me the truth. It was the truth; every word you said was true. My hair is red and Iâm freckled and skinny and ugly. What I said to you was true, too, but I shouldnât have said it. Oh, Mrs. Lynde, please, please, forgive me. If you refuse it will be a lifelong sorrow on a poor little orphan girl, would you, even if she had a dreadful temper? Oh, I am sure you wouldnât. Please say you forgive me, Mrs. Lynde.â
Anne clasped her hands together, bowed her head, and waited for the word of judgment.
There was no mistaking her sincerityâit breathed in every tone of her voice. Both Marilla and Mrs. Lynde recognized its unmistakable ring. But the former under-stood in dismay that Anne was actually enjoying her valley of humiliationâwas reveling in the thoroughness of her abasement. Where was the wholesome punishment upon which she, Marilla, had plumed herself? Anne had turned it into a species of positive pleasure.
Good Mrs. Lynde, not being overburdened with perception, did not see this. She only perceived that Anne had made a very thorough apology and all resentment vanished from her kindly, if somewhat officious, heart.
âThere, there, get up, child,â she said heartily. âOf course I forgive you. I guess I was a little too hard on you, anyway. But Iâm such an outspoken person. You just mustnât mind me, thatâs what. It canât be denied your hair is terrible red; but I knew a girl onceâwent to school with her, in factâwhose hair was every mite as red as yours when she was young, but when she grew up it darkened to a real handsome auburn. I wouldnât be a mite surprised if yours did, tooânot a mite.â
âOh, Mrs. Lynde!â Anne drew a long breath as she rose to her feet. âYou have given me a hope. I shall always feel that you are a benefactor. Oh, I could endure anything if I only thought my hair would be a handsome auburn when I grew up. It would be so much easier to be good if oneâs hair was a handsome auburn, donât you think? And now may I go out into your garden and sit on that bench under the apple-trees while you and Marilla are talking? There is so much more scope for imagination out there.â
âLaws, yes, run along, child. And you can pick a bouquet of them white June lilies over in the corner if you like.â
As the door closed behind Anne Mrs. Lynde got briskly up to light a lamp.
âSheâs a real odd little thing. Take this chair, Marilla; itâs easier than the one youâve got; I just keep that for the hired boy to sit on. Yes, she certainly is an odd child, but there is something kind of taking about her after all. I donât feel so surprised at you and Matthew keeping her as I didânor so sorry for you, either. She may turn out all right. Of course, she has a queer way of expressing herselfâa little tooâwell, too kind of forcible, you know; but sheâll likely get over that now that sheâs come to live among civilized folks. And then, her temperâs pretty quick, I guess; but thereâs one comfort, a child that has a quick temper, just blaze up and cool down, ainât never likely to be sly or deceitful. Preserve me from a sly child, thatâs what. On the whole, Marilla, I kind of like her.â
Chapter 10: Anneâs Apology (part 2)
Matthew recollected that he must say what he had come to say without loss of time, lest Marilla return prematurely. âWell now, Anne, donât you think youâd better do it and have it over with?â he whispered. âItâll have to be done sooner or later, you know, for Marillaâs a dreadful deter-mined womanâdreadful determined, Anne. Do it right off, I say, and have it over.â
âDo you mean apologize to Mrs. Lynde?â
âYesâapologizeâthatâs the very word,â said Matthew eagerly. âJust smooth it over so to speak. Thatâs what I was trying to get at.â
âI suppose I could do it to oblige you,â said Anne thoughtfully. âIt would be true enough to say I am sorry, because I am sorry now. I wasnât a bit sorry last night. I was mad clear through, and I stayed mad all night. I know I did because I woke up three times and I was just furious every time. But this morning it was over. I wasnât in a temper anymoreâand it left a dreadful sort of goneness, too. I felt so ashamed of myself. But I just couldnât think of going and telling Mrs. Lynde so. It would be so humiliating. I made up my mind Iâd stay shut up here forever rather than do that. But stillâIâd do anything for youâif you really want me toââ
âWell now, of course I do. Itâs terrible lonesome downstairs without you. Just go and smooth things overâthatâs a good girl.â
âVery well,â said Anne resignedly. âIâll tell Marilla as soon as she comes in Iâve repented.â
âThatâs rightâthatâs right, Anne. But donât tell Marilla I said anything about it. She might think I was putting my oar in and I promised not to do that.â
âWild horses wonât drag the secret from me,â promised Anne solemnly. âHow would wild horses drag a secret from a person anyhow?â
But Matthew was gone, scared at his own success. He fled hastily to the remotest corner of the horse pasture lest Marilla should suspect what he had been up to. Marilla herself, upon her return to the house, was agreeably surprised to hear a plaintive voice calling, âMarillaâ over the banisters.
âWell?â she said, going into the hall.
âIâm sorry I lost my temper and said rude things, and Iâm willing to go and tell Mrs. Lynde so.â
âVery well.â Marillaâs crispness gave no sign of her relief. She had been wondering what under the canopy she should do if Anne did not give in. âIâll take you down after milking.â
Accordingly, after milking, behold Marilla and Anne walking down the lane, the former erect and triumphant, the latter drooping and dejected. But halfway down Anneâs dejection vanished as if by enchantment. She lifted her head and stepped lightly along, her eyes fixed on the sunset sky and an air of subdued exhilaration about her. Marilla beheld the change disapprovingly. This was no meek penitent such as it behooved her to take into the presence of the offended Mrs. Lynde.
âWhat are you thinking of, Anne?â she asked sharply.
âIâm imagining out what I must say to Mrs. Lynde,â answered Anne dreamily.
This was satisfactoryâor should have been so. But Marilla could not rid herself of the notion that something in her scheme of punishment was going askew. Anne had no business to look so rapt and radiant.
Chapter 10: Anneâs Apology (part 1)
MARILLA said nothing to Matthew about the affair that evening; but when Anne proved still refractory the next morning an explanation had to be made to account for her absence from the breakfast table. Marilla told Matthew the whole story, taking pains to impress him with a due sense of the enormity of Anneâs behavior.
âItâs a good thing Rachel Lynde got a calling down; sheâs a meddlesome old gossip,â was Matthewâs consolatory rejoinder.
âMatthew Cuthbert, Iâm astonished at you. You know that Anneâs behavior was dreadful, and yet you take her part! I suppose youâll be saying next thing that she oughtnât to be punished at all!â
âWell nowânoânot exactly,â said Matthew uneasily. âI reckon she ought to be punished a little. But donât be too hard on her, Marilla. Recollect she hasnât ever had anyone to teach her right. Youâreâyouâre going to give her something to eat, arenât you?â
âWhen did you ever hear of me starving people into good behavior?â demanded Marilla indignantly. âSheâll have her meals regular, and Iâll carry them up to her myself. But sheâll stay up there until sheâs willing to apologize to Mrs. Lynde, and thatâs final, Matthew.â
Breakfast, dinner, and supper were very silent mealsâfor Anne still remained obdurate. After each meal Marilla carried a well-filled tray to the east gable and brought it down later on not noticeably depleted. Matthew eyed its last descent with a troubled eye. Had Anne eaten anything at all?
When Marilla went out that evening to bring the cows from the back pasture, Matthew, who had been hanging about the barns and watching, slipped into the house with the air of a burglar and crept upstairs. As a general thing Matthew gravitated between the kitchen and the little bedroom off the hall where he slept; once in a while he ventured uncomfortably into the parlor or sitting room when the minister came to tea. But he had never been upstairs in his own house since the spring he helped Marilla paper the spare bedroom, and that was four years ago.
He tiptoed along the hall and stood for several minutes outside the door of the east gable before he summoned courage to tap on it with his fingers and then open the door to peep in.
Anne was sitting on the yellow chair by the window gazing mournfully out into the garden. Very small and unhappy she looked, and Matthewâs heart smote him. He softly closed the door and tiptoed over to her.
âAnne,â he whispered, as if afraid of being overheard, âhow are you making it, Anne?â
Anne smiled wanly.
âPretty well. I imagine a good deal, and that helps to pass the time. Of course, itâs rather lonesome. But then, I may as well get used to that.â
Anne smiled again, bravely facing the long years of solitary imprisonment before her.
Chapter 9: Mrs Rachel Lynde Is Properly Horrified (part 5)
Marilla found Anne face downward on her bed, crying bitterly, quite oblivious of muddy boots on a clean counterpane.
âAnne,â she said not ungently.
No answer.
âAnne,â with greater severity, âget off that bed this minute and listen to what I have to say to you.â
Anne squirmed off the bed and sat rigidly on a chair beside it, her face swollen and tear-stained and her eyes fixed stubbornly on the floor.
âThis is a nice way for you to behave. Anne! Arenât you ashamed of yourself?â
âShe hadnât any right to call me ugly and redheaded,â retorted Anne, evasive and defiant.
âYou hadnât any right to fly into such a fury and talk the way you did to her, Anne. I was ashamed of youâthoroughly ashamed of you. I wanted you to behave nicely to Mrs. Lynde, and instead of that you have disgraced me. Iâm sure I donât know why you should lose your temper like that just because Mrs. Lynde said you were red-haired and homely. You say it yourself often enough.â
âOh, but thereâs such a difference between saying a thing yourself and hearing other people say it,â wailed Anne. âYou may know a thing is so, but you canât help hoping other people donât quite think it is. I suppose you think I have an awful temper, but I couldnât help it. When she said those things something just rose right up in me and choked me. I had to fly out at her.â
âWell, you made a fine exhibition of yourself I must say. Mrs. Lynde will have a nice story to tell about you everywhereâand sheâll tell it, too. It was a dreadful thing for you to lose your temper like that, Anne.â
âJust imagine how you would feel if somebody told you to your face that you were skinny and ugly,â pleaded Anne tearfully.
An old remembrance suddenly rose up before Marilla. She had been a very small child when she had heard one aunt say of her to another, âWhat a pity she is such a dark, homely little thing.â Marilla was every day of fifty before the sting had gone out of that memory.
âI donât say that I think Mrs. Lynde was exactly right in saying what she did to you, Anne,â she admitted in a softer tone. âRachel is too outspoken. But that is no excuse for such behavior on your part. She was a stranger and an elderly person and my visitorâall three very good reasons why you should have been respectful to her. You were rude and saucy andââMarilla had a saving inspiration of punishmentââyou must go to her and tell her you are very sorry for your bad temper and ask her to forgive you.â
âI can never do that,â said Anne determinedly and darkly. âYou can punish me in any way you like, Marilla. You can shut me up in a dark, damp dungeon inhabited by snakes and toads and feed me only on bread and water and I shall not complain. But I cannot ask Mrs. Lynde to forgive me.â
âWeâre not in the habit of shutting people up in dark damp dungeons,â said Marilla drily, âespecially as theyâre rather scarce in Avonlea. But apologize to Mrs. Lynde you must and shall and youâll stay here in your room until you can tell me youâre willing to do it.â
âI shall have to stay here forever then,â said Anne mournfully, âbecause I canât tell Mrs. Lynde Iâm sorry I said those things to her. How can I? Iâm not sorry. Iâm sorry Iâve vexed you; but Iâm glad I told her just what I did. It was a great satisfaction. I canât say Iâm sorry when Iâm not, can I? I canât even imagine Iâm sorry.â
âPerhaps your imagination will be in better working order by the morning,â said Marilla, rising to depart. âYouâll have the night to think over your conduct in and come to a better frame of mind. You said you would try to be a very good girl if we kept you at Green Gables, but I must say it hasnât seemed very much like it this evening.â
Leaving this Parthian shaft to rankle in Anneâs stormy bosom, Marilla descended to the kitchen, grievously troubled in mind and vexed in soul. She was as angry with herself as with Anne, because, whenever she recalled Mrs. Rachelâs dumbfounded countenance her lips twitched with amusement and she felt a most reprehensible desire to laugh.
Chapter 9: Mrs Rachel Lynde Is Properly Horrified (part 4)
âWell, I donât envy you your job bringing that up, Marilla,â said Mrs. Rachel with unspeakable solemnity.
Marilla opened her lips to say she knew not what of apology or deprecation. What she did say was a surprise to herself then and ever afterwards.
âYou shouldnât have twitted her about her looks, Rachel.â
âMarilla Cuthbert, you donât mean to say that you are upholding her in such a terrible display of temper as weâve just seen?â demanded Mrs. Rachel indignantly.
âNo,â said Marilla slowly, âIâm not trying to excuse her. Sheâs been very naughty and Iâll have to give her a talking to about it. But we must make allowances for her. Sheâs never been taught what is right. And you were too hard on her, Rachel.â
Marilla could not help tacking on that last sentence, although she was again surprised at herself for doing it. Mrs. Rachel got up with an air of offended dignity.
âWell, I see that Iâll have to be very careful what I say after this, Marilla, since the fine feelings of orphans, brought from goodness knows where, have to be considered before anything else. Oh, no, Iâm not vexedâdonât worry yourself. Iâm too sorry for you to leave any room for anger in my mind. Youâll have your own troubles with that child. But if youâll take my adviceâwhich I suppose you wonât do, although Iâve brought up ten children and buried twoâyouâll do that âtalking toâ you mention with a fair-sized birch switch. I should think that would be the most effective language for that kind of a child. Her temper matches her hair I guess. Well, good evening, Marilla. I hope youâll come down to see me often as usual. But you canât expect me to visit here again in a hurry, if Iâm liable to be flown at and insulted in such a fashion. Itâs something new in my experience.â
Whereat Mrs. Rachel swept out and awayâif a fat woman who always waddled could be said to sweep awayâand Marilla with a very solemn face betook herself to the east gable.
On the way upstairs she pondered uneasily as to what she ought to do. She felt no little dismay over the scene that had just been enacted. How unfortunate that Anne should have displayed such temper before Mrs. Rachel Lynde, of all people! Then Marilla suddenly became aware of an uncomfortable and rebuking consciousness that she felt more humiliation over this than sorrow over the discovery of such a serious defect in Anneâs disposition. And how was she to punish her? The amiable suggestion of the birch switchâto the efficiency of which all of Mrs. Rachelâs own children could have borne smarting testimonyâdid not appeal to Marilla. She did not believe she could whip a child. No, some other method of punishment must be found to bring Anne to a proper realization of the enormity of her offense.
Chapter 9: Mrs Rachel Lynde is Properly Horrified (part 3)
Anne came running in presently, her face sparkling with the delight of her orchard rovings; but, abashed at finding the delight herself in the unexpected presence of a stranger, she halted confusedly inside the door. She certainly was an odd-looking little creature in the short tight wincey dress she had worn from the asylum, below which her thin legs seemed ungracefully long. Her freckles were more numerous and obtrusive than ever; the wind had ruffled her hatless hair into over-brilliant disorder; it had never looked redder than at that moment.
âWell, they didnât pick you for your looks, thatâs sure and certain,â was Mrs. Rachel Lyndeâs emphatic comment. Mrs. Rachel was one of those delightful and popular people who pride themselves on speaking their mind without fear or favor. âSheâs terrible skinny and homely, Marilla. Come here, child, and let me have a look at you. Lawful heart, did any one ever see such freckles? And hair as red as carrots! Come here, child, I say.â
Anne âcame there,â but not exactly as Mrs. Rachel expected. With one bound she crossed the kitchen floor and stood before Mrs. Rachel, her face scarlet with anger, her lips quivering, and her whole slender form trembling from head to foot.
âI hate you,â she cried in a choked voice, stamping her foot on the floor. âI hate youâI hate youâI hate youââ a louder stamp with each assertion of hatred. âHow dare you call me skinny and ugly? How dare you say Iâm freckled and redheaded? You are a rude, impolite, unfeeling woman!â
âAnne!â exclaimed Marilla in consternation.
But Anne continued to face Mrs. Rachel undauntedly, head up, eyes blazing, hands clenched, passionate indignation exhaling from her like an atmosphere.
âHow dare you say such things about me?â she repeated vehemently. âHow would you like to have such things said about you? How would you like to be told that you are fat and clumsy and probably hadnât a spark of imagination in you? I donât care if I do hurt your feelings by saying so! I hope I hurt them. You have hurt mine worse than they were ever hurt before even by Mrs. Thomasâ intoxicated husband. And Iâll never forgive you for it, never, never!â
Stamp! Stamp!
âDid anybody ever see such a temper!â exclaimed the horrified Mrs. Rachel.
âAnne go to your room and stay there until I come up,â said Marilla, recovering her powers of speech with difficulty.
Anne, bursting into tears, rushed to the hall door, slammed it until the tins on the porch wall outside rattled in sympathy, and fled through the hall and up the stairs like a whirlwind. A subdued slam above told that the door of the east gable had been shut with equal vehemence.
Chapter 9: Mrs Rachel Lynde is Properly Horrified (part 2)
Anne was out in the orchard when Mrs. Rachel came, wandering at her own sweet will through the lush, tremulous grasses splashed with ruddy evening sunshine; so that good lady had an excellent chance to talk her illness fully over, describing every ache and pulse beat with such evident enjoyment that Marilla thought even grippe must bring its compensations. When details were exhausted Mrs. Rachel introduced the real reason of her call.
âIâve been hearing some surprising things about you and Matthew.â
âI donât suppose you are any more surprised than I am myself,â said Marilla. âIâm getting over my surprise now.â
âIt was too bad there was such a mistake,â said Mrs. Rachel sympathetically. âCouldnât you have sent her back?â
âI suppose we could, but we decided not to. Matthew took a fancy to her. And I must say I like her myselfâalthough I admit she has her faults. The house seems a different place already. Sheâs a real bright little thing.â
Marilla said more than she had intended to say when she began, for she read disapproval in Mrs. Rachelâs expression.
âItâs a great responsibility youâve taken on yourself,â said that lady gloomily, âespecially when youâve never had any experience with children. You donât know much about her or her real disposition, I suppose, and thereâs no guessing how a child like that will turn out. But I donât want to discourage you Iâm sure, Marilla.â
âIâm not feeling discouraged,â was Marillaâs dry response, âwhen I make up my mind to do a thing it stays made up. I suppose youâd like to see Anne. Iâll call her in.â
Chapter 9: Mrs Rachel Lynde is Properly Horrified (part 1)
Anne had been a fortnight at Green Gables before Mrs. Lynde arrived to inspect her. Mrs. Rachel, to do her justice, was not to blame for this. A severe and unseasonable attack of grippe had confined that good lady to her house ever since the occasion of her last visit to Green Gables. Mrs. Rachel was not often sick and had a well-defined contempt for people who were; but grippe, she asserted, was like no other illness on earth and could only be interpreted as one of the special visitations of Providence. As soon as her doctor allowed her to put her foot out-of-doors she hurried up to Green Gables, bursting with curiosity to see Matthew and Marillaâs orphan, concerning whom all sorts of stories and suppositions had gone abroad in Avonlea.
Anne had made good use of every waking moment of that fortnight. Already she was acquainted with every tree and shrub about the place. She had discovered that a lane opened out below the apple orchard and ran up through a belt of woodland; and she had explored it to its furthest end in all its delicious vagaries of brook and bridge, fir coppice and wild cherry arch, corners thick with fern, and branching byways of maple and mountain ash.
She had made friends with the spring down in the hollowâthat wonderful deep, clear icy-cold spring; it was set about with smooth red sandstones and rimmed in by great palm-like clumps of water fern; and beyond it was a log bridge over the brook.
That bridge led Anneâs dancing feet up over a wooded hill beyond, where perpetual twilight reigned under the straight, thick-growing firs and spruces; the only flowers there were myriads of delicate âJune bells,â those shyest and sweetest of woodland blooms, and a few pale, aerial starflowers, like the spirits of last yearâs blossoms. Gossamers glimmered like threads of silver among the trees and the fir boughs and tassels seemed to utter friendly speech.
All these raptured voyages of exploration were made in the odd half hours which she was allowed for play, and Anne talked Matthew and Marilla half-deaf over her discoveries. Not that Matthew complained, to be sure; he listened to it all with a wordless smile of enjoyment on his face; Marilla permitted the âchatterâ until she found herself becoming too interested in it, whereupon she always promptly quenched Anne by a curt command to hold her tongue.
Chapter 8: Anneâs Bringing Up Is Begun (part 3)
Anne looked at Marilla through the apple blossoms, her eyes aglow with interest.
âWhat is Diana like? Her hair isnât red, is it? Oh, I hope not. Itâs bad enough to have red hair myself, but I positively couldnât endure it in a bosom friend.â
âDiana is a very pretty little girl. She has black eyes and hair and rosy cheeks. And she is good and smart, which is better than being pretty.â
Marilla was as fond of morals as the Duchess in Wonderland, and was firmly convinced that one should be tacked on to every remark made to a child who was being brought up.
But Anne waved the moral inconsequently aside and seized only on the delightful possibilities before it.
âOh, Iâm so glad sheâs pretty. Next to being beautiful oneselfâand thatâs impossible in my caseâit would be best to have a beautiful bosom friend. When I lived with Mrs. Thomas she had a bookcase in her sitting room with glass doors. There werenât any books in it; Mrs. Thomas kept her best china and her preserves thereâwhen she had any preserves to keep. One of the doors was broken. Mr. Thomas smashed it one night when he was slightly intoxicated. But the other was whole and I used to pretend that my reflection in it was another little girl who lived in it. I called her Katie Maurice, and we were very intimate. I used to talk to her by the hour, especially on Sunday, and tell her everything. Katie was the comfort and consolation of my life. We used to pretend that the bookcase was enchanted and that if I only knew the spell I could open the door and step right into the room where Katie Maurice lived, instead of into Mrs. Thomasâ shelves of preserves and china. And then Katie Maurice would have taken me by the hand and led me out into a wonderful place, all flowers and sunshine and fairies, and we would have lived there happy for ever after. When I went to live with Mrs. Hammond it just broke my heart to leave Katie Maurice. She felt it dreadfully, too, I know she did, for she was crying when she kissed me good-bye through the bookcase door. There was no bookcase at Mrs. Hammondâs. But just up the river a little way from the house there was a long green little valley, and the loveliest echo lived there. It echoed back every word you said, even if you didnât talk a bit loud. So I imagined that it was a little girl called Violetta and we were great friends and I loved her almost as well as I loved Katie Mauriceânot quite, but almost, you know. The night before I went to the asylum I said good-bye to Violetta, and oh, her good-bye came back to me in such sad, sad tones. I had become so attached to her that I hadnât the heart to imagine a bosom friend at the asylum, even if there had been any scope for imagination there.â
âI think itâs just as well there wasnât,â said Marilla drily. âI donât approve of such goings-on. You seem to half believe your own imaginations. It will be well for you to have a real live friend to put such nonsense out of your head. But donât let Mrs. Barry hear you talking about your Katie Maurices and your Violettas or sheâll think you tell stories.â
âOh, I wonât. I couldnât talk of them to everybodyâtheir memories are too sacred for that. But I thought Iâd like to have you know about them. Oh, look, hereâs a big bee just tumbled out of an apple blossom. Just think what a lovely place to liveâin an apple blossom! Fancy going to sleep in it when the wind was rocking it. If I wasnât a human girl I think Iâd like to be a bee and live among the flowers.â
âYesterday you wanted to be a sea gull,â sniffed Marilla. âI think you are very fickle minded. I told you to learn that prayer and not talk. But it seems impossible for you to stop talking if youâve got anybody that will listen to you. So go up to your room and learn it.â
âOh, I know it pretty nearly all nowâall but just the last line.â
âWell, never mind, do as I tell you. Go to your room and finish learning it well, and stay there until I call you down to help me get tea.â
âCan I take the apple blossoms with me for company?â pleaded Anne.
âNo; you donât want your room cluttered up with flowers. You should have left them on the tree in the first place.â
âI did feel a little that way, too,â said Anne. âI kind of felt I shouldnât shorten their lovely lives by picking themâI wouldnât want to be picked if I were an apple blossom. But the temptation was irresistible. What do you do when you meet with an irresistible temptation?â
âAnne, did you hear me tell you to go to your room?â
Anne sighed, retreated to the east gable, and sat down in a chair by the window.
âThereâI know this prayer. I learned that last sentence coming upstairs. Now Iâm going to imagine things into this room so that theyâll always stay imagined. The floor is covered with a white velvet carpet with pink roses all over it and there are pink silk curtains at the windows. The walls are hung with gold and silver brocade tapestry. The furniture is mahogany. I never saw any mahogany, but it does sound so luxurious. This is a couch all heaped with gorgeous silken cushions, pink and blue and crimson and gold, and I am reclining gracefully on it. I can see my reflection in that splendid big mirror hanging on the wall. I am tall and regal, clad in a gown of trailing white lace, with a pearl cross on my breast and pearls in my hair. My hair is of midnight darkness and my skin is a clear ivory pallor. My name is the Lady Cordelia Fitzgerald. No, it isnâtâI canât make that seem real.â
She danced up to the little looking-glass and peered into it. Her pointed freckled face and solemn gray eyes peered back at her.
âYouâre only Anne of Green Gables,â she said earnestly, âand I see you, just as you are looking now, whenever I try to imagine Iâm the Lady Cordelia. But itâs a million times nicer to be Anne of Green Gables than Anne of nowhere in particular, isnât it?â
She bent forward, kissed her reflection affectionately, and betook herself to the open window.
âDear Snow Queen, good afternoon. And good afternoon dear birches down in the hollow. And good afternoon, dear gray house up on the hill. I wonder if Diana is to be my bosom friend. I hope she will, and I shall love her very much. But I must never quite forget Katie Maurice and Violetta. They would feel so hurt if I did and Iâd hate to hurt anybodyâs feelings, even a little bookcase girlâs or a little echo girlâs. I must be careful to remember them and send them a kiss every day.â
Anne blew a couple of airy kisses from her fingertips past the cherry blossoms and then, with her chin in her hands, drifted luxuriously out on a sea of daydreams.
Chapter 8: Anneâs Bringing Up Is Begun (part 2)
Anne promptly departed for the sitting-room across the hall; she failed to return; after waiting ten minutes Marilla laid down her knitting and marched after her with a grim expression. She found Anne standing motionless before a picture hanging on the wall between the two windows, with her eyes a-star with dreams. The white and green light strained through apple trees and clustering vines outside fell over the rapt little figure with a half-unearthly radiance.
âAnne, whatever are you thinking of?â demanded Marilla sharply.
Anne came back to earth with a start.
âThat,â she said, pointing to the pictureâa rather vivid chromo entitled, âChrist Blessing Little Childrenâââand I was just imagining I was one of themâthat I was the little girl in the blue dress, standing off by herself in the corner as if she didnât belong to anybody, like me. She looks lonely and sad, donât you think? I guess she hadnât any father or mother of her own. But she wanted to be blessed, too, so she just crept shyly up on the outside of the crowd, hoping nobody would notice herâexcept Him. Iâm sure I know just how she felt. Her heart must have beat and her hands must have got cold, like mine did when I asked you if I could stay. She was afraid He mightnât notice her. But itâs likely He did, donât you think? Iâve been trying to imagine it all outâher edging a little nearer all the time until she was quite close to Him; and then He would look at her and put His hand on her hair and oh, such a thrill of joy as would run over her! But I wish the artist hadnât painted Him so sorrowful looking. All His pictures are like that, if youâve noticed. But I donât believe He could really have looked so sad or the children would have been afraid of Him.â
âAnne,â said Marilla, wondering why she had not broken into this speech long before, âyou shouldnât talk that way. Itâs irreverentâpositively irreverent.â
Anneâs eyes marveled.
âWhy, I felt just as reverent as could be. Iâm sure I didnât mean to be irreverent.â
âWell I donât suppose you didâbut it doesnât sound right to talk so familiarly about such things. And another thing, Anne, when I send you after something youâre to bring it at once and not fall into mooning and imagining before pictures. Remember that. Take that card and come right to the kitchen. Now, sit down in the corner and learn that prayer off by heart.â
Anne set the card up against the jugful of apple blossoms she had brought in to decorate the dinner-tableâMarilla had eyed that decoration askance, but had said nothingâpropped her chin on her hands, and fell to studying it intently for several silent minutes.
âI like this,â she announced at length. âItâs beautiful. Iâve heard it beforeâI heard the superintendent of the asylum Sunday school say it over once. But I didnât like it then. He had such a cracked voice and he prayed it so mournfully. I really felt sure he thought praying was a disagreeable duty. This isnât poetry, but it makes me feel just the same way poetry does. âOur Father who art in heaven hallowed be Thy name.â That is just like a line of music. Oh, Iâm so glad you thought of making me learn this, MissâMarilla.â
âWell, learn it and hold your tongue,â said Marilla shortly.
Anne tipped the vase of apple blossoms near enough to bestow a soft kiss on a pink-cupped bud, and then studied diligently for some moments longer.
âMarilla,â she demanded presently, âdo you think that I shall ever have a bosom friend in Avonlea?â
âAâa what kind of friend?â
âA bosom friendâan intimate friend, you knowâa really kindred spirit to whom I can confide my inmost soul. Iâve dreamed of meeting her all my life. I never really supposed I would, but so many of my loveliest dreams have come true all at once that perhaps this one will, too. Do you think itâs possible?â
âDiana Barry lives over at Orchard Slope and sheâs about your age. Sheâs a very nice little girl, and perhaps she will be a playmate for you when she comes home. Sheâs visiting her aunt over at Carmody just now. Youâll have to be careful how you behave yourself, though. Mrs. Barry is a very particular woman. She wonât let Diana play with any little girl who isnât nice and good.â
Chapter 8: Anneâs Bringing Up Is Begun (part 1)
FOR reasons best known to herself, Marilla did not tell Anne that she was to stay at Green Gables until the next afternoon. During the forenoon she kept the child busy with various tasks and watched over her with a keen eye while she did them. By noon she had concluded that Anne was smart and obedient, willing to work and quick to learn; her most serious shortcoming seemed to be a tendency to fall into daydreams in the middle of a task and forget all about it until such time as she was sharply recalled to earth by a reprimand or a catastrophe.
When Anne had finished washing the dinner dishes she suddenly confronted Marilla with the air and expression of one desperately determined to learn the worst. Her thin little body trembled from head to foot; her face flushed and her eyes dilated until they were almost black; she clasped her hands tightly and said in an imploring voice:
âOh, please, Miss Cuthbert, wonât you tell me if you are going to send me away or not? Iâve tried to be patient all the morning, but I really feel that I cannot bear not knowing any longer. Itâs a dreadful feeling. Please tell me.â
âYou havenât scalded the dishcloth in clean hot water as I told you to do,â said Marilla immovably. âJust go and do it before you ask any more questions, Anne.â
Anne went and attended to the dishcloth. Then she returned to Marilla and fastened imploring eyes of the latterâs face. âWell,â said Marilla, unable to find any excuse for deferring her explanation longer, âI suppose I might as well tell you. Matthew and I have decided to keep youâthat is, if you will try to be a good little girl and show yourself grateful. Why, child, whatever is the matter?â
âIâm crying,â said Anne in a tone of bewilderment. âI canât think why. Iâm glad as glad can be. Oh, glad doesnât seem the right word at all. I was glad about the White Way and the cherry blossomsâbut this! Oh, itâs something more than glad. Iâm so happy. Iâll try to be so good. It will be uphill work, I expect, for Mrs. Thomas often told me I was desperately wicked. However, Iâll do my very best. But can you tell me why Iâm crying?â
âI suppose itâs because youâre all excited and worked up,â said Marilla disapprovingly. âSit down on that chair and try to calm yourself. Iâm afraid you both cry and laugh far too easily. Yes, you can stay here and we will try to do right by you. You must go to school; but itâs only a fortnight till vacation so it isnât worth while for you to start before it opens again in September.â
âWhat am I to call you?â asked Anne. âShall I always say Miss Cuthbert? Can I call you Aunt Marilla?â
âNo; youâll call me just plain Marilla. Iâm not used to being called Miss Cuthbert and it would make me nervous.â
âIt sounds awfully disrespectful to just say Marilla,â protested Anne.
âI guess thereâll be nothing disrespectful in it if youâre careful to speak respectfully. Everybody, young and old, in Avonlea calls me Marilla except the minister. He says Miss Cuthbertâwhen he thinks of it.â
âIâd love to call you Aunt Marilla,â said Anne wistfully. âIâve never had an aunt or any relation at allânot even a grandmother. It would make me feel as if I really belonged to you. Canât I call you Aunt Marilla?â
âNo. Iâm not your aunt and I donât believe in calling people names that donât belong to them.â
âBut we could imagine you were my aunt.â
âI couldnât,â said Marilla grimly.
âDo you never imagine things different from what they really are?â asked Anne wide-eyed.
âNo.â
âOh!â Anne drew a long breath. âOh, MissâMarilla, how much you miss!â
âI donât believe in imagining things different from what they really are,â retorted Marilla. âWhen the Lord puts us in certain circumstances He doesnât mean for us to imagine them away. And that reminds me. Go into the sitting room, Anneâbe sure your feet are clean and donât let any flies inâand bring me out the illustrated card thatâs on the mantelpiece. The Lordâs Prayer is on it and youâll devote your spare time this afternoon to learning it off by heart. Thereâs to be no more of such praying as I heard last night.â
âI suppose I was very awkward,â said Anne apologetically, âbut then, you see, Iâd never had any practice. You couldnât really expect a person to pray very well the first time she tried, could you? I thought out a splendid prayer after I went to bed, just as I promised you I would. It was nearly as long as a ministerâs and so poetical. But would you believe it? I couldnât remember one word when I woke up this morning. And Iâm afraid Iâll never be able to think out another one as good. Somehow, things never are so good when theyâre thought out a second time. Have you ever noticed that?â
âHere is something for you to notice, Anne. When I tell you to do a thing I want you to obey me at once and not stand stock-still and discourse about it. Just you go and do as I bid you.â
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Chapter 7: Anne Says Her Prayers (part 2)
âYouâre old enough to pray for yourself, Anne,â she said finally. âJust thank God for your blessings and ask Him humbly for the things you want.â
âWell, Iâll do my best,â promised Anne, burying her face in Marillaâs lap. âGracious heavenly Fatherâthatâs the way the ministers say it in church, so I suppose itâs all right in private prayer, isnât it?â she interjected, lifting her head for a moment. âGracious heavenly Father, I thank Thee for the White Way of Delight and the Lake of Shining Waters and Bonny and the Snow Queen. Iâm really extremely grateful for them. And thatâs all the blessings I can think of just now to thank Thee for. As for the things I want, theyâre so numerous that it would take a great deal of time to name them all so I will only mention the two most important. Please let me stay at Green Gables; and please let me be good-looking when I grow up. I remain,
âYours respectfully, Anne Shirley.
âThere, did I do all right?â she asked eagerly, getting up. âI could have made it much more flowery if Iâd had a little more time to think it over.â
Poor Marilla was only preserved from complete collapse by remembering that it was not irreverence, but simply spiritual ignorance on the part of Anne that was responsible for this extraordinary petition. She tucked the child up in bed, mentally vowing that she should be taught a prayer the very next day, and was leaving the room with the light when Anne called her back.
âIâve just thought of it now. I should have said, âAmenâ in place of âyours respectfully,â shouldnât I?âthe way the ministers do. Iâd forgotten it, but I felt a prayer should be finished off in some way, so I put in the other. Do you suppose it will make any difference?â
âIâI donât suppose it will,â said Marilla. âGo to sleep now like a good child. Good night.â
âI can only say good night tonight with a clear conscience,â said Anne, cuddling luxuriously down among her pillows.
Marilla retreated to the kitchen, set the candle firmly on the table, and glared at Matthew.
âMatthew Cuthbert, itâs about time somebody adopted that child and taught her something. Sheâs next door to a perfect heathen. Will you believe that she never said a prayer in her life till tonight? Iâll send her to the manse tomorrow and borrow the Peep of the Day series, thatâs what Iâll do. And she shall go to Sunday-school just as soon as I can get some suitable clothes made for her. I foresee that I shall have my hands full. Well, well, we canât get through this world without our share of trouble. Iâve had a pretty easy life of it so far, but my time has come at last and I suppose Iâll just have to make the best of it.â
Chapter 7: Anne Says Her Prayers (part 1)
When Marilla took Anne up to bed that night she said stiffly:
âNow, Anne, I noticed last night that you threw your clothes all about the floor when you took them off. That is a very untidy habit, and I canât allow it at all. As soon as you take off any article of clothing fold it neatly and place it on the chair. I havenât any use at all for little girls who arenât neat.â
âI was so harrowed up in my mind last night that I didnât think about my clothes at all,â said Anne. âIâll fold them nicely tonight. They always made us do that at the asylum. Half the time, though, Iâd forget, Iâd be in such a hurry to get into bed nice and quiet and imagine things.â
âYouâll have to remember a little better if you stay here,â admonished Marilla. âThere, that looks something like. Say your prayers now and get into bed.â
âI never say any prayers,â announced Anne.
Marilla looked horrified astonishment.
âWhy, Anne, what do you mean? Were you never taught to say your prayers? God always wants little girls to say their prayers. Donât you know who God is, Anne?â
ââGod is a spirit, infinite, eternal and unchangeable, in His being, wisdom, power, holiness, justice, goodness, and truth,ââ responded Anne promptly and glibly.
Marilla looked rather relieved.
âSo you do know something then, thank goodness! Youâre not quite a heathen. Where did you learn that?â
âOh, at the asylum Sunday-school. They made us learn the whole catechism. I liked it pretty well. Thereâs something splendid about some of the words. âInfinite, eternal and unchangeable.â Isnât that grand? It has such a roll to itâjust like a big organ playing. You couldnât quite call it poetry, I suppose, but it sounds a lot like it, doesnât it?â
âWeâre not talking about poetry, Anneâwe are talking about saying your prayers. Donât you know itâs a terrible wicked thing not to say your prayers every night? Iâm afraid you are a very bad little girl.â
âYouâd find it easier to be bad than good if you had red hair,â said Anne reproachfully. âPeople who havenât red hair donât know what trouble is. Mrs. Thomas told me that God made my hair red on purpose, and Iâve never cared about Him since. And anyhow Iâd always be too tired at night to bother saying prayers. People who have to look after twins canât be expected to say their prayers. Now, do you honestly think they can?â
Marilla decided that Anneâs religious training must be begun at once. Plainly there was no time to be lost.
âYou must say your prayers while you are under my roof, Anne.â
âWhy, of course, if you want me to,â assented Anne cheerfully. âIâd do anything to oblige you. But youâll have to tell me what to say for this once. After I get into bed Iâll imagine out a real nice prayer to say always. I believe that it will be quite interesting, now that I come to think of it.â
âYou must kneel down,â said Marilla in embarrassment.
Anne knelt at Marillaâs knee and looked up gravely.
âWhy must people kneel down to pray? If I really wanted to pray Iâll tell you what Iâd do. Iâd go out into a great big field all alone or into the deep, deep, woods, and Iâd look up into the skyâupâupâupâinto that lovely blue sky that looks as if there was no end to its blueness. And then Iâd just feel a prayer. Well, Iâm ready. What am I to say?â
Marilla felt more embarrassed than ever. She had intended to teach Anne the childish classic, âNow I lay me down to sleep.â But she had, as I have told you, the glimmerings of a sense of humorâwhich is simply another name for a sense of fitness of things; and it suddenly occurred to her that that simple little prayer, sacred to white-robed childhood lisping at motherly knees, was entirely unsuited to this freckled witch of a girl who knew and cared nothing about Godâs love, since she had never had it translated to her through the medium of human love.
Chapter 6: Marilla Makes Up Her Mind (part 3)
When they arrived back at Green Gables that evening Matthew met them in the lane. Marilla from afar had noted him prowling along it and guessed his motive. She was prepared for the relief she read in his face when he saw that she had at least brought back Anne back with her. But she said nothing, to him, relative to the affair, until they were both out in the yard behind the barn milking the cows. Then she briefly told him Anneâs history and the result of the interview with Mrs. Spencer.
âI wouldnât give a dog I liked to that Blewett woman,â said Matthew with unusual vim.
âI donât fancy her style myself,â admitted Marilla, âbut itâs that or keeping her ourselves, Matthew. And since you seem to want her, I suppose Iâm willingâor have to be. Iâve been thinking over the idea until Iâve got kind of used to it. It seems a sort of duty. Iâve never brought up a child, especially a girl, and I dare say Iâll make a terrible mess of it. But Iâll do my best. So far as Iâm concerned, Matthew, she may stay.â
Matthewâs shy face was a glow of delight.
âWell now, I reckoned youâd come to see it in that light, Marilla,â he said. âSheâs such an interesting little thing.â
âItâd be more to the point if you could say she was a useful little thing,â retorted Marilla, âbut Iâll make it my business to see sheâs trained to be that. And mind, Matthew, youâre not to go interfering with my methods. Perhaps an old maid doesnât know much about bringing up a child, but I guess she knows more than an old bachelor. So you just leave me to manage her. When I fail itâll be time enough to put your oar in.â
âThere, there, Marilla, you can have your own way,â said Matthew reassuringly. âOnly be as good and kind to her as you can without spoiling her. I kind of think sheâs one of the sort you can do anything with if you only get her to love you.â
Marilla sniffed, to express her contempt for Matthewâs opinions concerning anything feminine, and walked off to the dairy with the pails.
âI wonât tell her tonight that she can stay,â she reflected, as she strained the milk into the creamers. âSheâd be so excited that she wouldnât sleep a wink. Marilla Cuthbert, youâre fairly in for it. Did you ever suppose youâd see the day when youâd be adopting an orphan girl? Itâs surprising enough; but not so surprising as that Matthew should be at the bottom of it, him that always seemed to have such a mortal dread of little girls. Anyhow, weâve decided on the experiment and goodness only knows what will come of it.â