Thigh Gap Please @daintydaffodili3 - Tumblr Blog

not 2 sound whiny but i wish more attention was given to the importance of art and literature and philosophy and other humanities again so they'll return to being a really great part of what shapes a decade or an era instead of being seen as useless because they don't fit into the capitalist ideal of a productive society

arandomthot

I once again feel attacked

delicaterose68

How I wanna be looking in a bikini

Went to my friends house tonight to smoke and then her and her boyfriend feed me and my boyfriend dinner like I couldn’t say no and now I’m mad cus it’s just like a set back

blackcoffeeinmysoul

Success in starving is bittersweet.

The look of concern etching itself into the creases of my boyfriends countenance as he realises I’ve been pushing my food around for 20 minutes and not taken a single bite.

The feel of him wrapping his hands around my waist and hearing the melancholy in his voice when he sighs;

“𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌, 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒗𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒔𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏."

The way he lifts me and my head spins and I feel as though I could faint.

Why does it feel so romantic to let myself fade away?

I don’t do it for him. He hates what I’m doing.

I starve because I want to look just as small and breakable as I feel. I starve because I want to look as tired as I feel.

I starve because I want to excell.

sncrx

me to me: stop faking you don’t even have an eating disorder

also me: *loses 40 pounds* *fast for 8 days straight* *binges* *abuses the fuck out of laxatives*

me: ok but you’re still not as thin as these other girls therefore you do not have an eating disorder 😳

starting from a higher weight makes me feel like i’m invalid like i’m faking this entire thing. I feel like i need to lose more weight then it will feel more real.

coffeegummer-deactivated2020042

Scrolling very slowly through tumblr in public, afraid that suddenly appears a lingerie thinspo on phone screen and someone notice:

calorieswho

no excuses

i will lose 10 lbs by the end of this month i will lose 10 lbs by the end of this month i will lose 10 lbs by the end of this month i will lose 10 lbs by the end of this month