chill pill

misadventures

[daluyon]

been out the past 9 weekends and i finally got my much needed downtime

..but why do i have to be sick 🫠

[daluyon]

may you find someone that makes you forget what love never was

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golden hour

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core memory, there goes my heart

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beach days // music.

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first of summer // music.

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streetside buzz at elyu for the labor day weekend

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2nd of 4 (or maybe 5) weddings for this year

one of those quaint garden weddings - young ladies in their floral frocks and the men in their crisp linen suits

glad to be here, happy tears this time

music.

[daluyon]

He drove 4hrs just so he can cook for me. Why 🫠 When i walked into his apartment everything was laid out and prepped, he was waiting for me so he can show me how to do it by myself. Obviously implying that I need to learn how to cook.

Audioslave, Smashing Pumpkins, Goldfinger - we hummed through the lyrics while he cooked and while I prepped my sangria. This felt weird cause im used to being unfamiliar with the songs of other people’s playlist. He then asked Siri to pause it, turned to me and asked if there’s anything I want to play. That’s a first. I felt bad for myself for finding the gesture overwhelming. I remembered my previous partner going inside my car (my spotify was connected to the head unit) him disconnecting my phone just so he can connect and play his music. Honestly, I didn’t mind then, but now it made me realize how unconsidered I was even on the smallest things.

I didnt let it ruin the moment tho, im just really thankful that I have friends who are genuinely concerned about me. Past week was been tough, my soul needs a break.

[daluyon]

blue skies and calm breeze, it was a fine day to send you off.. thank you for your light.

music.

[daluyon]

i wanted to bring you your first flowers at your wake..

driving to your funeral felt overwhelming i kept crying the whole time, tears welled up i can barely see the road, the back of my car feels heavy with your flowers in it.

there were moments i wanted to stop driving, i didn’t trust myself to keep going. i just kept wishing someone was there with me, someone who could take the wheel because i didn’t feel okay.

why’d you have to go like that?

grieving because you are gone, grateful because you were once here.

you will be missed, John Roe.

[daluyon]

signs of life

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music, sea, sunburns and heartbreak - what a weekend came for the waves, ended the night with people from the scene. ibarra actually sang their single from 20 yrs ago. full circle moment when i realized this crowd was what got me through my teenage angst - and here we all are two decades later, baguio folks for a gig in elyu *nostalgia right in the feels* woke up with a hangover, pushed myself to see the vessel, had another glass of pilsen and settled for a view of the ocean for brunch drove home with a happy soul, quick power nap before my appointment, and ofc sundays aint complete without worship and church later found out a close couple i know broke up from 17yrs of being together.. i cried with her also realized i’ll be driving solo to elyu from now, just another thing to embrace from a future that changed

music.

[daluyon]

much needed view

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weekend breather

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this view and you

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music.