alive december 2024

he/him, ftm, gay, 19 --- 5'8, sw 181, lw 137, gw 120? --- fatphobes/pro ana dni

[damodamo]

i've been at this shit for like 3 years now and now i suck at it. 2023 has not been my year

i’m like 50% recovered mentally and my mindset bounces between ‘get better’ and ‘get worse’ constantly. i want out of this hell.

i don’t care if you follow me i’m just mental illness posting

sw: 181 (bmi 27.5)

cw: 141 (21.4)

lw: 137 (20.7)

gw: 120? (18.3)

[damodamo]

It's my 3 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[liteness]

me when i weigh myself in the morning bc i just lost a pound in water weight and think its actual progress

[stvrlightttze]

Like a scratch record…

[damodamo]

depression suddenly destroyed my appetite

now it's easy again

it's happening

[damodamo]

i’ll try harder this time

[damodamo]

gonna lose 20 and then buy cute clothes

[damodamo]

i’m never gonna make it

[damodamo]

me resisting the urge to say “i haven’t eaten at all today” when my friend mentions he’s only eaten a sandwich

[damodamo]

maybe if i’m sick enough people will start to care about me

[damodamo]

my close friend said i look like a twig and also compared me to a borzoi 😭😭 i’m gonna be riding this high for like an hour. will be mentally ill again afterwards though

[damodamo]

the hunger feels so good

maintenance day tomorrow to keep my metabolism normal and then back to starving

[damodamo]

might buy cinnamon rolls… junkorexia ftw 💪💪💪💪

[damodamo]

i only weighed 1 pound less this morning so i hope it’ll start to drop faster soon

when i reach my lw again i’m gonna buy something expensive maybe

[damodamo]

had iced coffee and nothing else today

[damodamo]

i want it to be long sleeve weather so i can start cutting again

[damodamo]

i literally think chubby people are hotter than skinny people why does this not apply to myself