ghost art

[danatomyyy]

i got that dog in me & it’s begging to be euthanized

[mkanuhea]

me n wife getting absolutely fuckn demolished in progression

[mkanuhea]

this game makes me crash out

[danatomyyy]

she’s gone.

[danatomyyy]

on the inside looking out, & you can’t move so i’ll be stationary. on the outside looking in, but you won’t stay & i’ll be moving on. i don’t want to.

[mkanuhea]

some seattle finds from last week. a place so gloomy can be so eerily pretty

[danatomyyy]

my dad found you & rushed for us. if he didn’t, i would have found you. not only did he save me from that heartbreak, he gave you more time. granted, that time must be painful for you, excruciatingly so, but it’s time we’ll never forget.

[danatomyyy]

everything feels so empty. devoid of anything. emotions are the strongest i’ve felt, ever, & i don’t know how to cope. last year was a trial run for the heartbreak i’ve gone through in the last three weeks alone, & potentially leading through even years beyond. i wish i could find words for her, more than just ‘i love you’s & ‘thank you’s & ‘i’m sorry’s. it will never be enough. i will never be ready. even if this isn’t the end, when it does arrive, i will never be ready. for her, for him, for her, for anyone. i wish she could be okay. i wish this didn’t feel so finite. so… horrible. so fucking wrong. everything feels so fucking wrong & i can’t do it. i don’t know how much of this i can bear. i need to be strong, for him, for her, for her, & for them. but i feel like my heart is six feet under, and my legs are chained. my brain is disassembled. my body feels in a million places at once, trying to gather everything & put it back in its place, but it’s like putting back together melted substance. it only turns back to mush seconds later. as hours, minutes, pass, it gets harder to face its ugly, rearing head. i have to leave. i have to stay. i have to be strong. i have to break. i have to be so much & yet i feel i am not anything. i have no words, & so many. i have no emotions, & yet, all of them. i have so much hope, & yet, i’ve lost my faith. i have so many fucking things. & none of them will ever help this.

[mkanuhea]

would you accept this offer from these two friendly interdimensional beings y/n

[mkanuhea]

taking a break from school for a semester,,, tuition out of pocket went up so might be taking a lot longer to get my degree buuuut thats ok. more time to do arts

WHICH. I HAVE BEEN DRAWING. just not posting anything currently lmao. planning on making a master post of artwork I've done when I get the chance.

I've been heavilyyyyy considering selling prints on Etsy and I have ~a couple~ of ideas [one of which I'm working on now] and just kinda figuring out branding. don't get me wrong, I like drawing in my fandom/online style [majority of the works I post] but I really wanna like.... explore that wonky style. more true to myself.

I did some deltarune/undertale fanworks in the style recently, REALLY love it. A friend of mine offered a partnership in making tattoo designs and I kinda think it really suites the aesthetic. So perhaps? Making tattoo designs in the near future? we will see!

here's the artworks. Flowy is my fav out of all of these. so ya'll.... might see more of this stuff soon!

[mkanuhea]

she’s gone.

[danatomyyy]

my darling girl. my sweet princess. i hope you find the best tree to lounge under.

[danatomyyy]

i usually don’t post on here, but i need to rant. i’ve only had this lil girl here for two years & on tuesday, we took her to the vet due to some problems we assumed were minor. she’s now staying overnight for the second night in a row, & i miss her immensely. they’re still not entirely sure what’s going on, but they do know what’s happening: her liver is not working properly & her red blood cells are dying faster than she can reproduce them. this could be caused by a myriad of things, most of them autoimmune. a little backstory: she showed up at our place one day. no indication that she had an owner. i posted everywhere on local feeds: no one claimed her. when i took her in, they said she was fixed but had no chip. i decided to take her on. she had no problems apart from being overweight. so my fiance & i have been working on that over the last two years. she’s lost three pounds since that initial appointment, however now we’re unsure if it’s due to our interference or if it’s from an underlying disease. could be feline leukemia, aids, fiv, or fip. they’re doing more tests tonight to see. however, she’s not eating on her own very much. she’s still very much feeling ill & her liver levels have gone down, but they’re still not exactly where they need to be. i KNOW that vet bill is gunna be outrageous, but at this point, if i can get even a few months more with her it’s worth it. i’ve only had her two years. i feel robbed, wronged, angry at the people who potentially tossed her away & maybe even after they diagnosed her with something. i’ll never have any idea. i’m angry at so many things, even myself. i’m terrified. scared. of what the future will hold. she has been my rock since my dog smoke passed in january & i thought i would have more time. never could i in a million years see this happening. if she doesn’t show signs of improving after we bring her home (mostly with feeding herself & her general happiness), we’re gonna have to let her go. i don’t pray, but sincerely i am praying that she pulls through. she finds a fight in her. that she will be okay. this lil bread bowl sleeps on top of me every single night, & i haven’t felt her presence on me since saturday. i miss her so fucking much. i just want her home & in my arms again. i want her healthy & happy. the world is so cruel & i feel like crying at any given moment of the day. i’m glad i advocated for her, it took us 4 calls to our vet office to get her seen. that being said i’m still SO appreciative of the staff who are taking care of her, they took time out of a cancellation to see her & no one was aware of her condition or how much care she’d really need. they even let me visit her tonight before they closed up, bless them. i just. i miss her so much. why is the world so unfair? unjust? my girl deserves better. when she gets home she’s getting all the love, pets, cuddles. anything she wants. i just want her back in my arms again.

[yosh1karu]

ah yes my fav depressed babygirl

[mkanuhea]

commissions are OPEN!!!

MK Anuhea Arts

mkanuhea commissions

hey guys it be super duper cool if yall can get this out there, trying to kick start the art career and i need YOUR 🫵 help!!!! appreciate yall so so much <3

[mkanuhea]

HEY GUYS. IM GONNA NEED SOME REAL HELP. My car’s transmission and plausibly the engine is squandered and the repairs are gonna be hefty. If I’m lucky, it’s gonna cost me around $4000-$5500 to get just the transmission/engine repairs done. Plus, perhaps another ~$1000 to get the brakes fixed.

I’m a home care aide, so I AND my clients rely on me to drive them to and from doctors appointments and run errands - so having a car is an upmost necessity to make sure the individuals I service receive quality care. And the very, very last thing in the world is being unable to make sure my clients are getting to their doctors appointments or pick up groceries.

PLEASE MESSAGE ME DIRECTLY IF YOU’RE INTERESTED IN COMMISSIONING ME. I know it says to fill out the form, but if it’s easier for everyone to just send me a direct message that’s fine too. I’m sorta lowkey high-key desperate.

[danatomyyy]

ANYONE WHO CAN PLEASE HELP. we’re struggling financially SO hard & this year it’s been one thing after another. from our lil sokka man, to car repairs, to just general lack of funds. anything will help🩷

[mkanuhea]

today’s the day i drop sokka off at the vet and he’s woken me up by licking my face (only cause he’s hungry cause i took away his food last night lmao) it’s 6:25am rn and he’ll do this until we leave at 8. little man. don’t do this to me ;;;;

[mkanuhea]

just dropped him off at the vet. he cried all the way there (a usual for him, he HATES going outside let alone being in a car) but calmed down until the doctor took him in.

I’m not too worried about the surgery going unwell, but more so about him having so much anxiety before the procedure it will affect his heart,,,, and the off chance of the anesthesia killing him or causing significant damage (doesn’t happen often with cats, but higher risk if there are heart problems).

thank you for those who’ve sent me support and keeping my little boy in your thoughts. in the meantime… i’m gonna get some food. thank god i have today off. don’t think ill be able to go back to sleep after this

[danatomyyy]

keep our lil boy in your thoughts 🩷 he’ll be okay🩷

[mkanuhea]

a little break from cotl

sokka has his biopsy tomorrow and i’m just trying to stay positive. he’ll be okay. he’ll be okay

[danatomyyy]

he’ll be okay my love🩷

[mkanuhea]

my sisters came over last night to support us after hearing the news my sweet little man was diagnosed with a heart condition, and we decided to have a little photoshoot with him! my sister brought her dog Ebon cause both him and Sokka are buddies.

We decided to go ahead with the biopsy, and I'm PRAYING the mass on his heart is just benign - cause at least we can manage it and he can live longer and still stay the same silly little guy. so far, he's still himself. I've noticed over the past 6 months he's gotten a little less active and talkative, but still has that loud motor purr and happy as always (and a garbage gut lol).

I'll probably be posting a lot more about him since I guess this is a way for me to cope - write down my thoughts and maybe others can relate. Just 4 months ago my fiancee lost her childhood dog to cancer, and my other sister's cat is going through something we have no idea what it is. I guess the 2020s is just the decade of losing our animal companions, but at least we're not alone in the grief. I haven't cried yet. Danya (fiancee) basically cried for me (my sweet girl, don't know what I'd do without her) I think my body is just holding off until the day comes. I need to be strong for him. He climbs all over me when I'm sad and licks my face raw if I let him. He's been making biscuits with Danya's dog's (Smokey Joe) blanket he passed away in - they were also best buds - basically hoarding the thing and taking naps in it. call me superstitious, but I think he misses him, and it brings me some comfort to know that Smoke will be waiting for him.

Just hang in there buddy, you can't go yet. I got your favorite turkey pate waiting for you - and I promise you'll get a lot more of it from now on.