Dylan

21; FtM He/Him INFJ-T Blog run by a DID system

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Blog Intro!

Hello, everyone! I'm Dylan, the host of a DID system. We are 21 years old, so MINORS-- do not message us.You have every right to be here, but understand we are an adult. This blog is for us to post on as we explore our plurality and who we each are separately and how we can work together. We have a known alter count of (approximately) 20 right now and we are also autistic and have ADHD, along with OCD, BPD, AVPD, Depression, Anxiety, and C-PTSD. Alongside that, we are still recovering from an eating disorder and agoraphobia*. We are in college as well!

Basic Info:

Collective Name: Dylan (It's important to note that, unless specified to a specific alter, that you refer to us by this name.) Collective Pronouns: He/Him Gender: FtM Trans Male Sexuality: Bisexual

Likes: Hermitcraft/ Life Series/ Minecraft/ video games/ slashers/ horror movies/ anime/ Markiplier/ Jacksepticeye/ drawing/ metal/ Alt music/ Kpop/ etc.

PLEASE INTERACT!

neurodivergent people

hermicraft enjoyers

LGBTQ+ community

furries

therians

mentally ill folk

DO NOT INTERACT:

Transphobes

Homophobes

Racists

MAGA

Minors

Xenophobes

People who hate furries

People who hate Therians

People who demonize BPD, NPD, or any other mental health disorder

Flat-Earthers

*we are officially in recovery for agoraphobia after a few years-long worth of a fight! [January 29, 2026]

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Derealization Signs & Autism

Derealization is always something that confused us a lot. We were always seemingly unaware when it happened since we thought it was normal, but mostly because we only say people constantly describing it in the same way: "It's like the world is not real."

But, because we are autistic, this was not the way we needed to hear it, so we brushed it off as something we didn't do.

So, here are some signs that you are derealizing written in ways that would have helped us out better:

You know it's real and you feel connected to your body, but the world looks foggy, like you're looking through glass.

Objects look normal but do not feel "right" in some way.

Colors feel too sharp or dull.

Sounds are different in some way (i.e., too loud, muffled, disorienting, echo, etc).

Touch feels delayed, or like you are feeling things through gloves.

The world feels unfamiliar, like you're in a deja vu state instead of in a place you are in a lot.

Lights feel unfamiliar (I.e., too bright, or dull in some way).

Emotional reactions can be delayed, even when you are happy, but it is as if your reaction arrives late.

Time feels different, like it's too slow or too fast.

Also, keep in mind, some of these could be summed up to sensory problems, but derealization is not a sensory issue. Instead of feeling overwhelmed or underwhelmed by sensory things, you feel disconnected from them.

You should also keep in mind that autistic brains like to try and solve the experiences they are having, but as ironic as it is, checking your symptoms and scanning yourself mentally can keep you in a state of derealization longer, so be careful!

Derealization is a protective response from your nervous system. Going through this is not a bad thing, it does not make you a failure and you are not broken.

I hope this helped someone :)

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Hello, everyone! Quick update on this post with a little more information:

I keep seeing people who reblog this, or who comment, who seem to be a little confused and share their experiences as what I described above, only that they experience it by feeling detached from themselves.

So, let's clear up some confusion!

Experiencing derealization, but feeling your experience is more centered on yourself and not the external world, is called depersonalization, and it is a different thing!

Depersonalization feels like YOU are what is disconnected from reality instead of the world around you.

Depersonalization can occur alongside derealization, or it can occur on it's own, but it is important to understand these are different experiences.

[asexual-amanita]

“Presuming competence” in the context of autism doesn’t mean assuming they have no cognitive deficits, or that they will 100% understand everything their allistic peers would. It means you should go into an interaction with an autistic person without assumptions about what they can and cannot understand. It means to treat them with respect, and act like they can hear and understand you, and to explain gracefully when they don’t.

[cutecipher]

An automated moderation error left Tumblr users panicked

The accidental bans have been reversed.

March 20th, 2026

[kohakumeltyblood]

Tumblr got caught and is trying to save face. Every blog that was removed except one is a trans woman. Don't let them lie to you.

[derinthescarletpescatarian]

If your automated moderation keeps making the same error over and over again and bans a bunch of trans women every six months or so then it's not an error it's a feature of the software. Even if we do believe it's unintentional (not a guarantee given the history of transphobia from flesh and blood moderators and the site owner) then it would still only be an error the first time. It KEEPS HAPPENING to the exact same minority group. If my car brakes don't work, the sixth kid I run over is not an 'error', it's unbelievable negligence.

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The internet is Beautiful

[infectiouspiss]

can we kill the idea that yawning=bored because there's a million reasons to be yawning and being condescendingly asked "oh im sorry are we boring you?" because of something you can't control is really rude.

you're not boring me this is a side effect of my medication but thank you for deciding that my yawns are some sort of insult toward you and going on the offensive i loved it 👍

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Just a reminder that you do not owe anyone anything at all, let alone forgiveness if they've done wrong by you in the past, any explanation on why you may or may not want to talk to them, or any details about past trauma you've endured.

[koiiobean]

Love thy neighbor!

[ever-so-slightly-monstrous]

One of these men is a megalomaniacal mad scientist building a secret base where he tortures and kills helpless creatures to fuel the expansion of his unnatural domain. The other is Docm77.

[de-activated-offical]

I don't use Chat GPT. I stare blankly at a piece of paper for hours like God intended.

[p3tronell-a]

yuricest but only me and our one headmate

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similiarly = yaoicest, but in the same manner

[what-is-loveit]

sorry it bothers meeee you cant even breathe in the direction of autism related tags on this website because every other post is a 50k note post saying extremely common autism experiences or outright diagnostic criteria dont happen and have nothing to do with autism and i hate it so much. some of us DO struggle with jokes and social cues and tone and hierarchies and relationships and cleaning and following rules and boundaries and reading comprehension and empathy and eye contact and things you think are gross some of us are fucking disabled okay.

[naydralikessoup]

pros of being a huge fan of kris deltarune:

awesome blorbo who is easy* to draw

highly ponderable

they have a fursona

never feel bad about the amount of syrup you put in your chocolate milk. who's going to stop you

+10 comfort to all sweaters

reevaluate your relationship with your creative hobbies

replace thoughts like "my acne is so ugly" with "i look a human rn" (thank you fan artists)

you can pirouette whenever you want. it's not illegal. just do a little spin it's ok

experience what it's like to be blue for a day if you're really committed (cosplay)

listen to the most beautiful music you've heard in your life**

you can spend 847,727,901,746,124 hours of your playthrough staring into nonexistent eyes trying to parse out a thought from the same sprite over and over

+10 enjoyment of heeled shoes that clack on the floor

appreciate the simple things (pie, dogs, apples, pencils, etc)

maybe learn something about your gender?

pick up a fun new perspective (or revisit an old one) on hope and friendship and miracles

cons of being a huge fan of kris deltarune:

*the agony

**the agony

the agony

[orcboxer]

Fun facts about immigration in the US you might want to share with friends and relatives for no particular reason

The United States actually had open borders until 1924. There was no cap on immigration, and people were only denied access based on race and disability. (x)

The Immigration Act of 1924 had an overall negative impact on the economy (x) (x) and foreign relations with Asia, but Hitler praised it (x), because it was just blatant eugenics (x).

ICE didn't exist until 2003 (x)

Being undocumented is not actually classified as a crime (x). If it was, cases would be handled by the judicial branch, and defendants would receive the benefits of due process. But because it isn't, it is handled by the executive branch, and defendants do not get due process, in clear violation of their rights. That means no lawyers, no jury, and no real judge.

Immigration "judges," who are not required to have nearly as much experience or education in law as real judges (x), face no consequences for wrongful deportation, they are only really evaluated based on how many people they process.

While it's difficult to pin down an exact number, there have been an estimated 4,000 wrongful detention/deportations by 2010 alone (x - this one suggests a possible 20,000) (x - this one confirms over a thousand), with several reported on in mainstream media (Mark Lyttle, Pedro Guzman, Roberto Dominquez, Andres Gonzalez, Esteban Tiznado-Reyna).

In April 2025, there were several more confirmed wrongful deportations, including a 2-year-old citizen deported to Honduras (x) (x), a 10-year-old with brain cancer on her way to a medical appointment (x), and a 7-year-old and her 4-year-old brother with stage 4 cancer (x).

There were more deaths in ICE concentration camps in 2025 than almost any year prior, tying for first place with 2003 (x). If nothing is done about it, that number will increase in 2026.

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Derealization Signs & Autism

Derealization is always something that confused us a lot. We were always seemingly unaware when it happened since we thought it was normal, but mostly because we only say people constantly describing it in the same way: "It's like the world is not real."

But, because we are autistic, this was not the way we needed to hear it, so we brushed it off as something we didn't do.

So, here are some signs that you are derealizing written in ways that would have helped us out better:

You know it's real and you feel connected to your body, but the world looks foggy, like you're looking through glass.

Objects look normal but do not feel "right" in some way.

Colors feel too sharp or dull.

Sounds are different in some way (i.e., too loud, muffled, disorienting, echo, etc).

Touch feels delayed, or like you are feeling things through gloves.

The world feels unfamiliar, like you're in a deja vu state instead of in a place you are in a lot.

Lights feel unfamiliar (I.e., too bright, or dull in some way).

Emotional reactions can be delayed, even when you are happy, but it is as if your reaction arrives late.

Time feels different, like it's too slow or too fast.

Also, keep in mind, some of these could be summed up to sensory problems, but derealization is not a sensory issue. Instead of feeling overwhelmed or underwhelmed by sensory things, you feel disconnected from them.

You should also keep in mind that autistic brains like to try and solve the experiences they are having, but as ironic as it is, checking your symptoms and scanning yourself mentally can keep you in a state of derealization longer, so be careful!

Derealization is a protective response from your nervous system. Going through this is not a bad thing, it does not make you a failure and you are not broken.

I hope this helped someone :)

[autistic-rock]

the thing that many lsn autistic people don't seem to understand is that "forcing myself" doesn't work.

lsn autistic people will say things like "well if I didn't go eat food I would starve & die so I forced myself to eat".

if someone does not prompt me to eat, I will not eat. if there is no food in front of me that I like, I will not eat. (if someone places food in front of me i tend to ignore it without more/frequent prompts to actually put it in my mouth.)

i very rarely feel hunger signals & even when i do im bad at communicating that need to others. i can only prepare a few simple food myself, & i won't without prompting. i can't grocery shop. i can in theory online order food independently but won't think of doing it myself--the apps are too confusing & again really don't remember that eating is a Thing I Need To Do unless someone directly reminds me.

if I don't eat food will also starve myself & die. the difference is that i very genuinely Will Not Eat Food without assistance.

[littlest-owl-prince]

"you cant use your disabilities an excuse"

there are many reasons why a disability will disable someone. before you call it an excuse, maybe try considering why their disability, visible or invisible, effects their abilities.