loving you
Maybe the wait is longer.
Maybe the nights stretch endlessly
But if the destination is you let the distance test me
Let time try to break me.
I'll arrive anyway
Tuesday 3-24-26
This love didn't arrive like fireworks
It came like recognition
like my soul whispering
"you've been here before"
Maybe it will last. Maybe it won't
but I know this much
what feels right doesn't drain You
doesn't confuse you
doesn't ask you to disappear
if love is meant for me
Let it feel like this
quietly certain
Softly brave
honest enough to let my heart stay open
without breaking itself first
I have never loved so calmly like I love you.
Never missed someone so much while only holding them once.
I have never been touched by someone and not flinched like a beat dog
With you I cannot get enough. I want to be as close as you'll let me.
March 25th 2026
Somewhere far away from here
I saw stars that I could reach
Beyond the ocean reach
I'm reaching farther than I ever have before
Hoping to gather those star like dreams
Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore
Yeah, I may be some sort of crazy
We may be some sort of crazy
But I swear on everything I have and more
That together
We make the sound of pulling heaven down
So rest assured
I have the key to every opening
To every wishing well deep that's enough to drink
I want to show you just how fascinating kissing is
When earth collides with all the space between.
March 28th 2026
Some love stories feel like a beginning
but ours
feels like a return.
Maybe we promised
A thousand lifetimes ago
That we'd find each other.
No matter the Stars,
No matter the miles.
And now here we are,
Two souls picking up
where we left off.
So naturally in love.
Home waiting to be found
March 29th 2026
I have carried storms in my chest
and still smiled
as if breaking quietly
was just another way to stay whole
in front of the world.
But somewhere between
all the almost and never were
a softer truth found me.
I'm not what has left.
I am what remained.
so
if tomorrow comes gently
I will not question it.
I will open my hands to the light.
Let it rest in my scars
and call it healing.
And if it doesn't
I will still rise.
Not because I am unbreakable
but because even in pieces
I've learned how to begin again
You have set me free
March 30th 2026
No matter the noise
No matter the static
It's you
My peace
My heartbeat.
Holding myself from you is prison
I want you at all times
Through the touch of a hand
To the touch of our bodies
It's you.
You are my home
No matter how convoluted
My love for you is clear
Forever can't come soon enough
March 31st 2026
I have never been so sure of anything in my entire life, You are the person I am supposed to spend forever with. From the moment I met you I knew something was different about you. It took years of short hellos and longing For longer good-byes but time never stopped pulling. When we arrived neither one of us knew how we got here, but we knew it was right. I have never felt peace like I do when I look into your eyes. I never knew love could feel so calm. So natural. You are my missing puzzle piece. I can't wait to spend every day coming home to your smile and Listening to your day. No minute with you is long enough. I want you, forever.
April 1st 2026
I want to spend all of my nothing with you. I want to fill the silence with your presence every chance I get. No time with you is enough for me. You are my peace. My heartbeat. The short time I've spent sleeping next to you was the best sleep I've gotten. All I want is to feel you next to me.
I trust you with my soul. I trust you with all of me. I feel nothing but complete euphoria when you trace my body. All my fears and insecurities seem to disappear with you. I have never been so willing. So open. So okay with someone seeing all of who I am. I want you to know all of me. Every truth I live, every fear I've held, every curve I have to give.
Here I am. Whole. In everything I am. I am yours.
April 2nd 2026
Even on the hard days. Even on the days that crush me. Even on the days that feel ran together and endless. It's you. Through the "what the hell am I doing" it's a pull to you. I don't understand any of this. I don't want to.
I'm terrified. Real is sneaking in. The high is getting ready to hit the runway. Anticipating a violent crash, I have never experienced my life to be anything other than.
But with you, I am praying that we land. I don't want this to end. Let there be turbulence, I'm okay with a free fall. Just please God, don't let us crash. I'll survive, I just don't want to. I don't want to see life without this light anymore. It doesn't seem worth it.
April 3rd 2026
I am in deep. The touch of a hand, the sound of your voice. Is home. Here is just a place to wait. No longer comforting without your energy. Loud and empty. Just to listen to the clock tick.
April 4th 2026.
The doubt is setting in. The voices are louder. Reality creeping forward like a timer on a jack-in-the-box. From the lack of sleep to the overthinking of what-ifs. Exhausted. Waiting. Knowing time must continue to just be.
Through everything one thing stays consistent.
My feelings for you. And not only that I love you. That I want you to be happy. Not content. Not just enough. But thoroughly HAPPY. To wake up and seek the adventure of today, everyday. Be able to enjoy wholly the gift of life you are given. However that may be. No matter where it may land. Just to know that everyday you are feeling joy and love.
That's all that matters to me. I will be here. In whatever skin you need me. I will be honored to have been part of your story. A part of something and someone so gentle, so beautiful.
April 5th 2026
So very blessed to have the privilege of being part of your life. No matter the capacity, all I want is to have your light shine in my world. I've never had the privilege of being around someone so giving. So loving. So caring. With you I don't question that I'm loved. I may always question that I'm enough. I may always question that I'm doing the right things. What I will never question is your love and that means everything to me. Always stay so loving and giving. The world desperately needs more of you.
April 6th 2026
You make me a better human. I find myself searching for a better way to say what I'm thinking all the time now. Feels ridiculous to say, but I don't even feel right cursing around you. Always looking for ways to better myself, my life as whole.
Wanting to give more. See the better in people. I see life in a brighter light. Gaining more patience for the trivial things. There's nothing you've done to make me want or learn these things. Just being around a great person makes you want to be a better one. I'll never be as caring, giving or trusting as you, but man, I want to be good enough for you. Not a good enough man. Not a good enough lover. Just a good enough person that deserves your presence.
April 7th 2026
I can watch you for a lifetime. You're my favorite movie. I can spend forever staring into your eyes. The world melts away. So gentle and strong. The ring of blue leading to the beautiful canyons of green and brown. Full of light. Like where the ocean meets the land on the brightest days. Looking into your eyes is how I imagine it feels to see the earth from the moon. A longing for home, Dusted in gold. No matter the shift, a light shines bright. Every piece of you I am enamored by. From the way you think, to the way you speak. There's no moment that I'm with you that I'm not falling deeper in love with you. To the way you move, to the touch of your skin. All of you captivates me. I never want it any other way.
April 8th 2026
I have never in my life trusted someone the way I trust you. With no effort. No pain. Just giving myself to you fully. There's no piece of me that I don't trust you with. There's no part of me that wants to hide. You heal me in ways that I never knew possible. My soul is free. My heart is open. I feel loved as a individual person. I want to hold you always. Even if it's just your foot from across the way. You comfort me. You make me feel safe.. With you I am finally at peace. With you I am home.
April 9th 2026
The little things are everything when I am with you. In all the right ways. A short call, or a quick message can turn my entire day around. Leave me on cloud 9 from just seeing your smile. I cherish the way you leave me feeling, always. So fortunate to have you in my life. I pray everyday I never lose this blessing.
April 10th 2026
You're probably tired of hearing me say this, but I'm really just trying to reassure myself. I know all this is happening for a reason. I know that you're my person. I know we've been here before, and I know we will be here again. Not in this form. Maybe not even in this world. One thing is undeniable, and that is our energy was meant to collide. I used to laugh at people who said they fell in love this hard. Used to think it wasn't possible to want someone to be part of your world this much. To miss someone as soon as they walk out the door. I probably sound a bit obsessed, and I be lying if I said I wasn't. You allow me to be soft, without feeling less than the man I am. You remind me that my feelings, safety and comfort matters. You remind me that no matter how hard life is, no matter how alone I've always felt, I've deserved to be cared for and loved. In the short time you've been in my world you've changed it forever. I will never be able to truly express to you how thankful I am for you and everything you've done for me.
