WILD KINDNESS

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🌵 be prepared & a friend to all 🌵

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Beneath the light of a neon moon

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250lbs and 5'11 of pure g o d d e s s #feminist

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1960s

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Song of the Day 

Paper Sun - Traffic 

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Amanda-Elizabeth, Our lady of the early AM * Patron Saint of Insomniacs

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Social anxiety till death, ya’ll! I will escape my own funeral as well.

#fuckthis #youcantmakemego

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🎶..put on a poncho, played for mosquitos and drank till I was thirsty again..🎶 • Geronimo's Rifle, ink & acrylic, 02.03.16 • #thingaday #ISTILLGETSTONED 🌵 •

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February 3rd is really weird/awful day for me. It's the anniversary of the worst day of my life. Terrible fact: I'm a survivor of domestic violence. Another terrible fact: Most of my followers (male, female & all things between) have been as well. I'll never forget the night I almost died. I'll never forget being pulled into seclusion from my friends & family. I'll never not have a panic attack when I hear a door bell because of the times he hunted me down like an animal to pull me back into his world. But I'll never let it happen again. I had to show where he had stolen money from mine and my parent's bank account to get the justice I deserved as a victim. Not from the bruises or blood that covered my entire face and body the night I finally escaped and found a county sheriff. Domestic Violence & rape laws across America barely protect the victim. What in the actual fuck, right? I lost, if you ask me. Hardly getting the correct protective orders and therapy I needed. We have to promote awareness and speak out. We have to come out of the woodwork and be vocal about what's happened, stop pretending it didn't and that it's in the past now. Don't be silent. #vday #domesticviolence #PTSD #feminist #onebillionrisingforjustice #survivoranniversary

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Sometimes I really doubt myself and feel really strange about the way I look. I know that sounds really ridiculous coming out of a selfie queen like myself. I'm always really nervous to see photos of me take by other people, then I find a group photo where I look like this and I remember that while we're all goddesses gracing the earth, I can serve face like a mother fucker.

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I felt very beautiful today & I hope you did too.

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I made a secret rule not to share the poems from my #thingaday postcards but I really love this one and can't help myself.

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#thingaday #2 • 02.02.16

7 of Pentacles, ink & acrylic • Hidden in this piece are 7 pentacles, for me it's a heavy representation of my life at the moment. This card, holding the element of earth, is a stark reminder & warning against seeking perfection. It speaks to practice self-love, relax and to sometimes just step back and let go.

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forever and always my favorite thing on the internet

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notes to self; don’t read this it’s not important

I’m on more daily medication at the moment than I have ever been in 28 years of life. Latuda- are you working? Is the point of you to keep my nerves on edge  and mood switchy-witchy? If so, you’re totally working. Vistaril for panic attacks as needed, aka daily. Gabapentin, three times a day for nerve damage, anxiety and depression. Ambien, also and yet again daily,  to sleep through the Latuda side-effects and hey ps, I figured out that I require a ton of Ambien to go to sleep.

A long string of emails back and forth with my Doctor today. I like her a lot, actually and I’m glad she’s casual enough with me to just deal with in between visits through email. 

I don’t feel like myself. I’m binge eating again and all the joys that come along with that. I’m scared. I’m exhausted. I just want to feel like a person again and less like giant alien wandering the earth.

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typical me.

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Cat.Mother.Moon - ink & acrylic • #thingaday 02.01.16