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Northern Lights

Society and the everyday way in which we think is being taken away from us, we go to school where we walk through the doors with a mind completely free to every idea and creativity that storms into it, they brainwash you into thinking that you must go down one path and thats it, you must do everything as they say. This is not the way you should live your life, if you want to live it, I have been brainwashed and I'm now trying to get back to who I am the old me the creative me. It is becoming all too difficult and I can't deal with it anymore. I can't live my life this way anymore. I don't want to live my life. To my family: I'm sorry I didn't turn out the way you wanted me to, I know your not happy with my life choices, I am going to end this life and leave this life behind me. I did this entirely out of my own choice and please do not feel as if I am blaming yous. I'm sorry for everything. The hospital and the therapy didn't work I'm sorry I must leave you now I will not see you again after tonight you will see me but I will not be breathing, my heart will not be pumping. Its time to leave this world behind, it's time to touch the northern lights.

My mind is spiralling out of control

Help me please

If I get drunk will that make the sadness go away

Here I go

Loads of people have been asking me what's the story like am i bisexual, pansexual, straight or gay and you all want the truth well here you go! I'm gay and very very very proud of who I am. I am also going to be posting this on my social media thingys so Yeh people will get to see exactly what else I'm hiding in 'the closet' it's not just my sexuality that I'm hiding that people don't know about me! I have Bipolar Disorder, I cut myself with razor blades and burn myself with cigarettes all on purpose, i have attempted suicide many times and somehow I'm still alive, I was dead at in point where I overdosed and was flat lining on the ecg for 4 minutes and 37 seconds, i spent time 3 months in a psychiatric hospital through admission to the hospital where I was section by the guards. Im just another one of the fuck up human beings that walk this planet and I'm proud of who I am and don't what people think this is who I am.