hi darke! just wondering if you're going to continue the fic anytime soon? i need to know what happens next !
Hello, love! 🖤🖤🖤
This is a difficult question...but I know everyone is wondering where I've been, so I might as well answer it as best I can.
The easy answer is I've found a new hyper-fixation that has made me incredibly happy [unlike Marvel has made me in the past few years]
The hard answer is...I haven't enjoyed writing at all in the past year. That's not to say that I won't be back—I have every intention of finishing BS:A [and TS&TS + BS:O]—but when I dread sitting down to write, I know there's a problem.
This probably stems from a couple things.
1-Burnout. I've been going at BS:A hard for nearly three years. I put more hours into BS:A than I have my job. And I didn't have any breaks. Which, at the time, I didn't feel I needed but, boy, am I feeling it now and I felt it for most of 2023.
2-I've lost my love for the MCU. Now, this one's not on me [jk it's totally on me] I haven't enjoyed a Marvel project in a long time and it's where I draw a lot of my inspiration from [obviously] I still have hope in a few upcoming projects but the hater in me is already pre-disappointed. As I've watched the MCU devolve into chaos these past few years, I can't help but feel I subconsciously pulled those vibes into the BS:U and I hate it; which leads me into...
3-I've lost confidence in my writing. Fuck. That stings to write. With most of my projects, I can look back on them with pride. TS&TS S1 and S2, TRR, any chapters of BS:A I did pre-2023 are all things I'm super proud of and love to death. But, all of 2023, I felt as though I was just slapping words into a Google Doc and calling it good. And I don't like that feeling. Y'all deserve better.
Mix that together with a few other things [real world problems accidentally seeping into projects and making them more complicated, personal issues, and other writer trouble] and you have a pretty shitty cake.
All that to say, I will be back. I promise. But I won't be back until I'm in a place that I feel like writing for the fun of it again and that I can deliver chapters and content that y'all deserve and that I can say I'm proud of.
—Darke
