Rebirth From The Shadows

Greetings. I am one of Ansem's apprentices, reawakened in Radiant Garden, hoping to put my past behind me. ~M!A status: NONE~ [[Independent DDD!Ienzo and/or Days/CoM!Zexion RP account]]

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[[Depression and anxiety are WAY more managed now, bless you hydroxyzine and sertaline! Once I’m more settled into my new work position/store/apartment in a new city I think I’ll manage to come back.

Thank you to the support from those gave it when I put up my hiatus notice and those who have been helping me while I got medical assistance. I’ll be sure to try and keep you all up to date as I work on returning.]]

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OOC, important

I’m sure it’s obvious to anyone following me, but I’m going on hiatus.

I’ve tried logging in to do replies several times in the past months but my anxiety and depression have been absolutely terrible since like June. As such, I can’t even find an escape here anymore. I have plans on returning once I’m able to see a doctor and get some medication.

Tumblr stresses me out too much, and I worry I’m making people wait too long or I’m wasting their time.

If you’d still like to RP with me I am available on skype or if you prefer something more long-term/long form I find google docs works pretty well.

My skype is unsafebet, feel free to add me just let me know who you are when you do so. I’m always up to RP or plot or even just talk!

Hopefully this will only be a brief hiatus, but I don’t want to leave anyone hanging. Thank you all, and I promise I’ll be back as soon as I can.

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OOC, important

I’m sure it’s obvious to anyone following me, but I’m going on hiatus.

I’ve tried logging in to do replies several times in the past months but my anxiety and depression have been absolutely terrible since like June. As such, I can’t even find an escape here anymore. I have plans on returning once I’m able to see a doctor and get some medication.

Tumblr stresses me out too much, and I worry I’m making people wait too long or I’m wasting their time.

If you’d still like to RP with me I am available on skype or if you prefer something more long-term/long form I find google docs works pretty well.

My skype is unsafebet, feel free to add me just let me know who you are when you do so. I’m always up to RP or plot or even just talk!

Hopefully this will only be a brief hiatus, but I don’t want to leave anyone hanging. Thank you all, and I promise I’ll be back as soon as I can.

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“I think I’ll make Monday my next day off...”

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"My back still hurts. Will you rub it?"

After a pause of disbelief, Even peered down at Ienzo with a look that he might have given to a ham sandwich which had begun to talk to him.  Ienzo was asking him for his help? Not only that, but with a medically oriented problem?  He snapped his mouth closed once again, realizing that he had left it hanging open in surprise at the question at hand.

“Ah, well, of course.” He agreed, the words tumbling from his mouth before he could keep them properly in check.  Part of him really was quite happy that Ienzo was finally seeking his assistance in some way, shape or form, even if it was in the form of a back rub.  The relationship between the two of them had been strained to say the least when they had lost their hearts, but now that they were regained, it was difficult to say exactly where they stood.

He had never once seen Ienzo as an enemy after all, but could he possibly chance thinking the same in return?  Vexen had been quite unforgettable for a great many reasons, after all.  Then again, hadn’t they all been rather trying without a heart to guide them in morality?

“Yes, go ahead and take a seat.” Even continued, gesturing to a few comfortable seats around his study, particularly the stools which lacked a back, making it easier for him to reach the young man’s sore muscles.

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Ienzo figured he could always deny this conversation later, if he needed to, but in all honesty he wasn’t too sure of who else to go to. While Aeleus was excellent for chiropractic work, this required a more of a precise touch.

He removed his lab coat and sweater-vest before sitting on one of the stools, stretching his legs out in front of him and crossing his ankles, acting incredibly casual about this whole thing. It was better to not blow this out of proportion, better to pretend this was a common thing.

Honestly, Ienzo tried his hardest to put Zexion behind him so he assumed that others did the same with their lives as Nobodies. And while he did not see Even as any sort of enemy it was true that they hadn’t really...spoken much since they had regained their hearts. While it was true things had changed, it was also hard to forget when Zexion and Vexen had been like, and how they had been to each other.

But that was then, this was now, and there clearly had to be some level of mending between them. With a sigh, the younger scientist loosened his cravat before untying it and letting it rest in his lap. “My neck and shoulders are the worst.” He finally said after a long moment.

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“How long have you been like this?”

“Depends what day of the week it is,” Marluxia chuckled as he looked up at his young lover, “It’s just a mild fever, Ienzo. I am hardly much better with heat than Vexen or Even are. I might be a hardy rose but even I have my limitations.” this was spoken after handing the thermometer over to Ienzo, only a few degrees more than normal.

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“Ahh, then touch as you please.” He could of course understand that; just being around Ienzo helped calm him down. “Do you honestly think I am complaining? As long as you do not stray your libido is hardly a problem. It does make me want to tease you from time to time, though, but showing you cruelty has never been something I could muster.”

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“I know you’re not but..sometimes I worry.” Even though the other had never complained, he always thought that maybe he could be a bit much at sometimes. “And even before you put a ring on it I never strayed. And I never will.” He tilted his head up to kiss the other’s jaw, not commenting on the idea of the other’s cruelty at the moment, something he couldn’t even imagine.

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“How long have you been like this?”

“Depends what day of the week it is,” Marluxia chuckled as he looked up at his young lover, “It’s just a mild fever, Ienzo. I am hardly much better with heat than Vexen or Even are. I might be a hardy rose but even I have my limitations.” this was spoken after handing the thermometer over to Ienzo, only a few degrees more than normal.

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Marluxia hummed softly and loosened an arm around Ienzo to place a hand over his fiance’s. “It’s okay, love.” his voice was soft and he moved his other hand to pet the boy’s hair, “But you can talk to me, and I’m not that sick. I just felt something might be wrong.”

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“I just wanted to touch you is all. There’s something really...comforting and right in feeling your skin against mine.” Even if it was just palm and side touching, it always made him feel more at ease. “....I am sorry I always want to have sex.”

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“How long have you been like this?”

“Depends what day of the week it is,” Marluxia chuckled as he looked up at his young lover, “It’s just a mild fever, Ienzo. I am hardly much better with heat than Vexen or Even are. I might be a hardy rose but even I have my limitations.” this was spoken after handing the thermometer over to Ienzo, only a few degrees more than normal.

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“Good.” He whispered, closing his eyes for a moment, only to chuckle at the other’s words and the hand against his side. “And you are forever horny, but are you going to tell me what is making you want to put our sex life before my health or am I supposed to just go along like always?”

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To which Ienzo went rather red, curling his fingers against his fiance’s side but not going further than that. “I didn’t...I was just touching, I didn’t mean to press it any further...” Even though he wouldn’t complain if Marluxia felt up to it, but that was just his hormones that were always out of control.

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“How long have you been like this?”

“Depends what day of the week it is,” Marluxia chuckled as he looked up at his young lover, “It’s just a mild fever, Ienzo. I am hardly much better with heat than Vexen or Even are. I might be a hardy rose but even I have my limitations.” this was spoken after handing the thermometer over to Ienzo, only a few degrees more than normal.

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A hum and he resumed pressing kisses to Ienzo’s hair. “I figure we both will, love.” That confession came easy, considering how often the other gave him reason to cry.

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“As long as we both look like total saps. That’s fine by me.” He chuckled, shifting a little beside the other and nuzzling against his chest, slipping the hand around the other’s waist up under his shirt. “Mm, you are a little warm.”

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“How long have you been like this?”

“Depends what day of the week it is,” Marluxia chuckled as he looked up at his young lover, “It’s just a mild fever, Ienzo. I am hardly much better with heat than Vexen or Even are. I might be a hardy rose but even I have my limitations.” this was spoken after handing the thermometer over to Ienzo, only a few degrees more than normal.

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His own laughter easily joined his fiance’s. The boy had almost sinned as much as he had. And it was not as if their friends did not know of their nature, even if Marluxia did do a very good job at keeping their place nice and clean and glitter free for guests. “Then perhaps a nice ivory. I fear things will wind up tacky no matter what.” Considering their hair and his floral habits… well, it would all work out in the end.

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If anyone was aware of their habits (and Ienzo’s libido by proxy) then they were blind or possibly too naive to continue existing. “Mm, no matter what happens, I’m going to end up crying during some point.” He admitted, knowing he was going to get choked up.

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“Hey, snap out of it! There’s nobody here!”

“Then who’s to say you’re even here?” Ienzo snapped in response, desperately trying to ease the rate at which his heart was pounding in his chest.

His vision was blurring and going slightly dark at the edges, his head aching so sharply it felt like this head was going to split in two. “Prove that you’re real and maybe I can believe you!”

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Hallucination Starters!

“Hey, snap out of it! There’s nobody here!” “Don’t be ridiculous, that kind of stuff only exists in bad horror movies.” ”Help me! Someone’s been following me for over twenty minutes now, I can’t shake him/her!” “You must’ve heard that… It was loud a-and it seems to be coming our way!” “I didn’t just imagine it! It was there, I swear!” “No, no, no, you can’t be real! You died!” “You’re seeing things again…” “I’m not making it up this time! There was someone there, I’m sure of it!” “Are you high? What the hell are you on about?” “You’re hallucinating! You need to try to calm down!” “I think you’re seeing things that aren’t there.” “How can I be sure that you’re real?” “That’s it, I’m calling a doctor, you’re freaking me out.” “You’ve got a high fever… You’re going delirious. Let me help you, please!” “So, what you’re telling me is that there’s some kind of ghost murderer following us that I can’t see?” “There’s medication for this sort of stuff, you know? Maybe you should take it.” “I think you might be having a flash back, you’re screaming at a door. Look at me! Ssh, calm down.” “There’s nothing there.” “There’s something there, I swear! You need to believe me or we’re both going to get hurt!” “He’s there… he’s there… I saw him, oh god, oh my god!” “It’s not invisible, it doesn’t exist. That’s a different thing.” “What are you seeing?” “Close your eyes, what you’re seeing is not real, you have to listen to my voice, alright?” “Did you take something? You’re not making sense!” “You have to focus on me, there’s no one else here.” “Who are you talking to?”