Jaywalking Through Life

i used to be a hopeless romantic anarchist. Always changing. Always growing. 🌻

[perrfectly]

Taken in Venice by my friend

[daydreamxnightmare]

Peru 16/01/2020

In the last 2-3 weeks I’ve been lowkey dating a Peruvian dude that I’ve been working with. He’s amaZing, mostly haha.

But it’s crazy in the short time together, we’ve done more than when I’ve dated couples for a lot longer haha. We’ve had some super serious conversations, we teach kids together, we spend almost every minute of the day together, I’ve met most of his family, babysat his niece/nephew, and are currently planning a vacation before I leave haha. Falling in love... super stupid. But I also just want to stay in Peru forever. Maybe we’ll end up together. Probably not. But in my dreams.

I’ve always said I want to marry someone from Latin America and move there with them. Hahah

[daydreamxnightmare]

I don’t know why, but I’ve always wanted to be famous. I’ve always felt that’s where my life should go. Not even for the money.

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10/4/19

I leave for Europe in 2 days.... wtf I’m so underprepared!!!! I am so stressed out. But not at the same time.

Also, I can’t stop thinking about a guy. I wish I could. BeCause I think it’s over. And it was risky from the start. I don’t know. I mean it was never anything. But it was. Ugh. Love is risky. But I also knew I was crossing a line. It was perfect and complicated at the same time.

At least I lost weight haha and had fun. And I think my brain and soul are healed, because the past had some closure. I was loved. I was missed. I’ll never forget how sweet he was and how awesome. We have so much in common and our personalities mix well. I think. This doesn’t have to be the end. Time will tell. You never know what could happen. I just need to totally focus on myself. The better I become, the better life will get. And the right people will come into my life. I need to trust God.

[softwaring]

[milamai]

Midsummer poems (by Milamai)

[we-are-europe]

Finland 🇫🇮

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[daydreamxnightmare]

Sadly. I really need to stop saying sorry.

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[princesconsuela]

my two moods

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CINCO DE MAYO 2019

Omg. Matt called me and told me that he didn’t want to break my heart. And he felt Like he was already doing that... he said he was just so busy. And like he said my age had nothing to do with it. That I was so mature. More than his sister and her friends lol. But that just no time. Ahhh lol. He’s so cool. Cisco told me he bought me the newest fit bit for my bday... lol. But since we weren’t talking he sent it back 😂🙈😂. He also bought all my food and drinks tonight. I literally have two sugar daddies that I won’t sleep with 😂😂😂 wtf is my life. Lol but tonight was crazy but good. I gotta be up in 4.5 hours. So goodnight. Love u

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5/2

I’m going to write a book/movie script, “first and last” where people who lost their virginity to each other, stay friends, go through ups and downs, and eventually end up together. But like you didn’t see it coming.

[gullahch1ld]

I hope y'all are falling deeper in love with yourselves everyday

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4/22 -earth day 2019

Yesterday, Easter, was Jay’s last day at wf. I cried the morning of or night before I can’t Remember. Lots of reasons. First period in 3 months lol. I gave him a dark chocolate bar and a sticky note with a quick note. He gave me a couple hugs. He left. We had a quick thing In the server alley to give him cards and a bottle of Tito’s. I worked for about 10 hours. He messaged me when I got off on snap and eventually got to ask me if I had been doing more squats 😂😂 my work pants are dangerous yo. And I asked him if he’d been working out cause earlier I saw him with just a tee and he looked big lol. Then he asked to comeover 😂. He came over and we talked for a little bit, a little awk lol. We talked about video games and stuff at the kitchen. Then he told me about my ass and how he bet it felt nice 😂. Then he said I was a good kisser and asked if we could do that again. Then we were kissing. He’s so amazing hahah. Like wow such a good kisser. We didn’t fuck. But omg it was hot. I gave him a bj and a few moments after he goes “that chocolate was super good” (I had given him a dark chocolate bar before he left work). Hahah it was funny. Then he kinda held me. We talked about work and relationships and his new situation. He never really asked me any questions about myself. But there was a moment where he had my hand in his, and his head against mine. He closed his eyes and just breathed for about a minute. It was sweet. There’s something about him that makes me weak. But also I know we would never work lol. But ugh if I get and IUD he’s the first person I’ll sleep with 😂🙈. But for real, the person I ever end up with needs to be a good mix of hard working and goofy. And more outgoing than me. Like David, but better lol.

[pharmstudies]

small habits to adopt

wake up early

drink a glass of water as soon as you wake up

meditate or concentrate on your breathing for at least 2 mins

visualize your goals for the day and for the future

make your bed 

do calf raises or squats while brushing your teeth

floss

dry brush

take a cold shower (or end a hot shower with cold water right after for about 3 mins)

put on lotion while your skin is still damp

cleanse, tone, and moisturize your face

apply sunscreen

drink a glass of water before and after every meal

listen to a podcast/ted talk instead of music while walking or driving

park far away from where you’re going

stand up straight

look at people in the eye when talking to them

look straight ahead when walking, not at the ground

smile at strangers

stop complaining (it’s bad for your health)

bring cash instead of credit card

track your expenses

turn off notifications on your phone when doing work

resist the urge to go on your phone and observe your surroundings more

set a timer for 5 mins when scrolling through social media and stop when the time is up

learn at least 5 new vocab words from your target language every day

exercise while watching shows/videos

read at least 10 pages every day

do tasks that can be done in 2 mins right away

drink tea

prepare workout gear the night before

jot down tasks for the next day before sleeping

write down quotes/lyrics that strike a chord

spend 30 mins on a hobby

journal and write down things you are grateful for

aim for 7-8 hours of sleep

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