Oml wow, your gains are trully impressive!! That belly alone is a big glowup, shows how motivated & determind u are (stretchmarks are showing it too xP). I mean its def not easy for everyone to just gain with a snap of a finger. It's a long process instead and thats why I love gaining!!
The belly is like a shelf with trophies, the collection grows with more work you put in it, couldn't think of a better example but yea xD, thats just how it'd feel to me. You carry the shelf with you on your stomach so you can be proud of yourself everywhere you go. Side effects in our case include love for food & indulgence xP. I personally always had a thing for bigger shapes on people, not necessarily big but anyway it was more about the shape & mindset the person brings into their life as they gain.
Have you always been on a heavier side in your life or always rather toned? When did you realise that you can identify yourself with gainers and change your mindset? Did it have sth to do with your self-esteem?
What do you feel like now as you picked up on gaining habits, do you like them? Can you see yourself going far with them or plan on maintaining at some point?
Just remember whatever you do you'll always have people to support you like all of us Tumblr dwellers ❤️
Okay, first of all, thank you so much for this message!! Genuinely made me smile 😭🫶
I completely agree with you on pretty much everything you said, gaining is indeed a long process
Now, to answer your questions…
1. I’ve always been rather “pudgy” rather than toned or big, pretty much always in between
2. I think i’ve always had a thing for fat ever since i was a kid. I remember always wanting to be as fat as my other family members whenever i’d see them and, after growing up, i realised i was genuinely really into feederism and gaining in general (probably around 13/14).
3. I developed my current mindset at 16/17 i think, when i started trying to eat more and move less everyday. I now am just going with the flow rather than trying hard to gain a single pound.
4. I don’t think it’s because of my self-esteem, i think that was more of a secondary thing for me.
5. Now that i’m starting to adapt to the first gaining habits, i gotta say it’s incredible! I absolutely love eating ‘till i can barely breathe, or hearing my own pants after just a round of stairs, or even when I bump into things because of my size. Obviously, it is a bit of a chore even at my size (which i don’t find particularly big tbh), which just makes me even more excited to when i’ll be even bigger in the future.
6. I personally don’t think i’ll ever be able to fully “maintain” my weight. Although i stopped intentionally hardcore gaining, i still do find myself gorging on all kinds of food or eating very unhealthy at times… Plus, I’ve never been a sports person at all, for the exception that i go jogging sometimes, but even that is becoming a big struggle since i can barely do a 3 minute jog anymore (mind you, my absolute best was 15 minutes-ish).
Thank you so much for the sweet words and support, these are the kind of messages i love to receive and to respond to 🫶