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disintegration /dɪsˌɪntɪˈɡreɪʃn/ n. the gradual loss of cohesion, by which something breaks apart and is destroyed. false beliefs and the hope of sincerity only delay the disintegration.

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implode /ɪmˈpləʊd/ v. To fall towards the inside with force. At the end of a dying star's life, its core implodes under gravity and a black hole is born.

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struck /strʌk/ v. Past tense and past participle of strike. I was struck by lightning while crossing a field in a storm. Had no business being out there, I'll admit. They say I came out a different person. Well, eventually I quit my old job and became a botanist. Bits of the old life come back to me now and then, but I'd rather not remember. I swear the flowers sometimes speak.

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catch-22 /ˌkætʃ.twɛnˈtiːtuː/ n. 1. A paradoxical situation from which an individual cannot escape because of contradictory rules or limitations. 2. An illogical or self-contradictory regulation or requirement that prevents resolution or escape. She needed the one thing she most feared. To be seen. But that was the catch-22. Engage, and you've overstepped; withdraw into silence, and you are already the enemy.

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solace /ˈsɒlɪs/ n. Comfort or consolation in a time of distress or sadness. She had been playing with her friends at school until the game turned into a quarrel. Crying, she climbed through the spiked fence at the edge of the yard and ran. She ran so much that the way home became dreamlike. And then she was already there. Sliding down her bedroom door with her knees folded to her chest, a small girl in her rumpled uniform, skirt wrinkled, blouse untucked in places, black hair fallen loose around her face. Outside the window the trees move slowly, their branches rising and falling with the quiet rhythm of breathing. Her hands find the dolls on the floor. She gathers them close and begins to arrange them gently while the tears continue. And just like that, the little girl finds solace.

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fana /fəˈnɑː/ n. The annihilation of the individual self or will in the pursuit of union with the source. The word names not a failure but a price—dissolution as the only form arrival can take. In the end, the fana was complete. What had sought the source was no longer there to find it.

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kenopsia /kɛˈnɒpsiə/ n. The eerie, forlorn atmosphere of a place usually bustling with people but now empty and quiet. The building had not changed. Same corridors, same fluorescent hum, same doors. But on one floor, the parquet was charred and a chalk tracing marked where someone had been. Whatever happened there left kenopsia in its wake—and no one to explain it to. Note: This word originates from The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows, a compendium of coined words for unnamed emotions. I do not typically select entries from invented lexicons for this project. However, kenopsia struck me as linguistically sound—its construction from Greek roots (κενός, 'empty' + ὄψις, 'seeing') follows the same morphological patterns that have given rise to established words in languages. Meaning, after all, is socially negotiated and maintained through shared convention; a word enters a language when enough speakers decide it belongs. Kenopsia, I believe, can earn its place in that negotiation.

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ineffable /ɪnˈɛfəbl/ adj. Too great or extreme to be expressed or described in words. What I feel is ineffable—not for lack of language, but because some things exist only for as long as they go unnamed.

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enmeshed /ɪnˈmɛʃt/ adj. Entangled or caught as if in the threads of a mesh; in psychology, describing a relational pattern in which personal boundaries between individuals become diffuse, leading to over-identification with another person's emotions, needs, or identity. Somewhere along the way, her worries became his insomnia and his silence became her doubt. Enmeshed—two systems sharing the same memory, neither able to run cleanly without the other.

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penumbra /pɪˈnʌmbrə/ n. The partial shadow between full darkness and full light, as in the outer region of an eclipse; figuratively, a zone of uncertainty or partial obscurity. I sat in the barren penumbra, looking at the bleeding hole in my chest. Drowning in a pool of blood, dying—and yet the very soil somehow became full of life, love, and understanding. Embracing me. Gathering me into its arms.

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susurrus /suːˈsʌrəs/ n. A whispering or rustling sound. The mind, when it refuses sleep, is all susurrus—a low rustling of thoughts that won't resolve into language, won't quiet into rest. A sound like pages turning in an empty room.

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unmoored /ʌnˈmɔːd/ adj. Cut loose from moorings; of a vessel no longer held fast to its anchor; figuratively, left without stability, bearing, or fixed point of return. The radio went quiet. And in the silence that followed, he came unmoored. The dissociation settled into him, shaping his voice, his silences, his very posture in the world, until the wandering was no longer something that had happened to him but something he was.

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mamihlapinatapai /ˌmɑːmiːˌlɑːpiːnɑːtɑːˈpaɪ/ n. (Yaghan) A look shared between two people, each wishing the other would initiate something they both desire but which neither wants to begin. You know that moment when you lock eyes with someone, both of you waiting for the other to speak first? The Yaghan people didn't just notice that moment. They named it. Mamihlapinatapai. The restraint you both wear without agreeing to.