(You Make Me Feel) Like I Am Whole Again
Itâs here! My entry for the @deancastropefestâ 2021 Mid-Winter 5k!
Deanâs relationship with his soulmate was a complete failure. Going to group therapy was supposed to help him move on, but Dean hates every minute of it - until a blue-eyed, gravel-voiced newcomer joins the sessions. As Dean learns more about Cas and his own soulmate troubles, he realizes it just might be worth giving love another chance. (Rated E)
âThe first thing you have to understand,â Dr. Mia Vallens says, "is that thereâs nothing wrong with you.â
Deanâs heard it all before, so he counts the dust motes floating in front of him to keep from letting his irritation show.
Dr. Vallens takes her time studying the roughly ten people gathered around her in a circle of hideously orange plastic chairs. When she gets to Dean, he shifts impatiently in his seat until she moves on.
âJust because you couldnât make it work with your soulmate,â Dr. Vallens continues, âdoesnât mean that youâre broken.â
Dean doesnât mean to scoff, but it comes out anyway. Ever since he and Nick broke up, heâs gotten about a hundred less-than-sincere versions of âthereâs no guarantee, even with soulmatesâ or âat least you had some good years together, right?â
Of course, Dr. Vallens hears him, because sheâs got some kind of fucked-up super hearing. âAnything you want to share with us, Dean?â She gives him that look: the one where she dips her chin and narrows her eyes, as if to say, Do as I tell you or face awful consequences.
She missed her calling, Dean thinks grumpily. Shouldâve been a middle school teacher, instead of a therapist who specializes in counseling people with failed soulmate relationships.
âItâs just,â Dean says, licking his lips as he revs up for his pet speech. âPeople say thereâs nothing wrong with fucking it up with your soulmate, you know? But they donât mean it. They get to go home to their perfect marriage or relationship or whatever, and pity that poor, miserable bastard who couldnât even make it work with the one person the universe specifically picked for him.â
Dean doesnât have to look at the rest of the group to feel the force of the collective eye roll. Heâs come to expect that reaction, because itâs not the first time heâs gotten on his soapbox during one of these sessions. Not by a long shot.
What he doesnât expect is a gravel-deep, heartfelt, âExactly.â
His head whips around, eyes snagging on the guy who showed up to the support group for the first time today. Heâs not a chore to look at â nice, sharp jawline, messy dark hair, and the most striking blue eyes. Something about the way his suit is just a little big on him and his tie is just a little loose at his neck is working really well for Dean, too.
Dr. Vallens turns to address the newcomer. âCastiel. You agree with Deanâs assessment?â