dearest jonghyun,

save me a spot on the moon

[dearestjjong]

I hope you're doing well shawol.

I also hope everyone is doing well ♥️

[dearestjjong]

I just wish people who stop pretending to love jonghyun and shinee just because it’s relevant...

[dearestjjong]

It has been a while since I’ve come to check on this blog as I have not been feeling well enough to keep up. When I came back this morning I noticed there are over 1 thousand followers on this blog! I cannot thank you all enough. I hope you all can find some sort of comfort here!

[dearestjjong]

this blog has nearly 1k followers and all i do is put my feelings on a screen... it means so much to me that every one of you has stuck with me this long - even as i am becoming increasingly less active, with all my heart - thank you.

[dearestjjong]

i listened to a full episode of blue night last night and even though i wasn’t looking at the subs it still made me feel super happy and at ease, it's nice to know that even though jjong isn't here with us he still has an impact <3

Hi my love. I apologize for such a late response to this. I know exactly what you mean. Every time I watch something with him in it, or listen to music that I can hear his voice I feel so at ease and comforted. I agree that the impact he has even though he is no longer with us, is remarkable. I'm so glad you can find comfort through him!

[dearestjjong]

07.04.18 - 10:37 am

i wore an aqua pearl sweater today without even realizing it..... my dove you truly are the sneakiest! thank you for showing me, and many others today, that you are still very much with us.

[dearestjjong]

07.04.18 - 10:21 am

happiest of birthdays my dearest dove. you deserve the rest you’re getting. i just hope you’re getting a cake to the face in heaven! it’s been months since you’ve gone home and i miss you so terribly. there are no words to describe the empty feeling i get when i miss you most, but just know that, today, your beauty and grace shine brighter than ever.

[dearestjjong]

01.04.18 - 1:52 pm

im stuck with everything reminding me of you. this is neither bad nor good, i just desperately wish it didn’t hurt.

[dearestjjong]

23.02.18 - 10:45 am

I want you to know there is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about your laugh, your smile. Not a damn day goes by that I don’t miss you.

[dearestjjong]

14.02.18

it’s been a while since I’ve written you last. It feels a bit silly now. I know I promised to fill you in on what is going on in my life, but i haven’t had the strength to even do anything with it..... I haven’t written lately because I’m ashamed of the person I’ve become. ignoring myself and my responsibilities. im just so exhausted with myself and my life.

[dearestjjong]

I apologize on how inactive I’ve been.... my mental state has not been very good to me as of late... I so appreciate all the new followers this blog is getting... thank you for all of your love. I will return to you all shortly.

[dearestjjong]

01.02.18 - 12:12 am

My birthday has just passed and I wanted to let you know that it is because of you I was able to be happier today than any other day. I was able to smile, laugh and cry today without a trace of sadness. It’s the happiest I’ve been in years, but now that it’s over the feeling has gone along with it and I am back where I was before. Ahhh what to do, dove?

[dearestjjong]

25.01.18 - 1:22 pm

i wish you would have taken me home with you.... every passing day just gets more difficult and I’m not doing very well handling my emotions.... I thought it was getting better, but it’s the calm before the storm I suppose, right dove?

[dearestjjong]

I have seen so many of these posts but I feel very inclined to make one of my own. I can never thank @fyjjong enough for the strength they’ve shown and the kindness they’ve given. Throughout this entire process they’ve taken but one (1) - as far as I’ve seen - day for them self. They have posted frequently and quite rapidly at that. I’ve never once seen them show any weakness but in juxtaposition have only seen them show strength. Whether that be calling out the people using Jonghyun’s name because it’s edgy/trendy or my personal favorite are the times when they don’t care and are forward with their beliefs, never once disregarding anyone else’s opinions or emotions. Anyway, this post was written as not only a thank you from myself, but a thank you from every person who frequents your blog or relies on you for the quickest, most comforting updates. You’ve given me so much strength in these past few weeks... for that I can never thank you enough.

[dearestjjong]

When the time comes... if you feel you need to remove yourself from social media please do so. Know that I, and many others, will not think less of you. Your comfort comes first - always.

[dearestjjong]

22.01.18 - 12:19 am

the hardest part of this whole process is watching everyone break down all over again. at the same time. unable to deal with it. this is the impact your life has left, dove. you are forever so deeply loved.

[dearestjjong]

Hello dear, I'm a new blog that wants to spread positivity and care and reach out to everyone in need. If you are experiencing something that troubles you or anyone else, know that I'm here and I will support you. You can send me a message anytime and I will reply for sure, please take lots of care. I see you suffering and I won't let that sink, I care and I will always. Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Thank you for your support, dearest. My inbox and messages are always open for your thoughts as well 💕