i like her a normal amount

( do you really think you know what love is? if you do then let's just overheat together! )

[dearmahiru-archive]

ahaha um mini life update? so i've already noted multiple times i've been feeling awful and dealing with suicidal thoughts (it's gotten annoying tbh) but i'm also at risk of being kicked out by my uncle, so unfortunately it's been kinda struggle city for me. i don't want anyone to worry but i really don't think i can stomach working on any of my milgram projects without seriously wanting to die. i'm probably being overly dramatic and i'll come back soon enough hopefully but for right now i'm probably leaving for a good while again

[dearmahiru-deactivated20260126]

omgggg i totes forgot to mention it but. (*twirls hair*) your favorite mahiru shiina fanblog is baaaaaack

[dearmahiru-archive]

AIRHORN BLAST DON'T BURY ME YET I DIDNT DIE

logging on one last time to refollow all my beloved mutuals in the next hour! i'm going to be a little sad saying goodbye to this account but i'm really really pumped to start fresh (ﾉ^^)ﾉ see you guys later and can't wait to catch up ♡

[dearmahiru-archive]

hops up and down. almost finished with the new blog ♡♡ it'll be linked tomorrow when i can swap urls lmao

( also please feel free to dm me if there's any new mahiru content i've missed since i was gone! im planning on rewriting the shinju theory so any info will be a big help! ^^ )

[dearmahiru-archive]

ahaha um mini life update? so i've already noted multiple times i've been feeling awful and dealing with suicidal thoughts (it's gotten annoying tbh) but i'm also at risk of being kicked out by my uncle, so unfortunately it's been kinda struggle city for me. i don't want anyone to worry but i really don't think i can stomach working on any of my milgram projects without seriously wanting to die. i'm probably being overly dramatic and i'll come back soon enough hopefully but for right now i'm probably leaving for a good while again

[dearmahiru-archive]

haha i thought to myself "oh i should clarify i've been depressed on my milgram account so that's why i've been gone for so long!" but surprise surprise i've already done it. that's... funny isn't really the right word here. what a joke.

sometimes i'll listen to an milgram song, get an itch to come back and work on my current posts, but the feeling fizzles out when i think about logging on. there's times where interactions on here have left me feeling completely stupid and unwelcomed, and it just makes me anxious thinking it'll start up again.

but things have gotten better for myself mentally atleast compared to a few months back. day-to-day life isn't as hard and i've managed to write more often so that's good. i might not do anything for awhile but i would like to catch up what i've been missing atleast

[dearmahiru-archive]

this might be a "don't trust your emotions past 9 pm" moment but fellas i might just move accounts

[dearmahiru-archive]

ahaha um mini life update? so i've already noted multiple times i've been feeling awful and dealing with suicidal thoughts (it's gotten annoying tbh) but i'm also at risk of being kicked out by my uncle, so unfortunately it's been kinda struggle city for me. i don't want anyone to worry but i really don't think i can stomach working on any of my milgram projects without seriously wanting to die. i'm probably being overly dramatic and i'll come back soon enough hopefully but for right now i'm probably leaving for a good while again

[dearmahiru-archive]

haha i thought to myself "oh i should clarify i've been depressed on my milgram account so that's why i've been gone for so long!" but surprise surprise i've already done it. that's... funny isn't really the right word here. what a joke.

sometimes i'll listen to an milgram song, get an itch to come back and work on my current posts, but the feeling fizzles out when i think about logging on. there's times where interactions on here have left me feeling completely stupid and unwelcomed, and it just makes me anxious thinking it'll start up again.

but things have gotten better for myself mentally atleast compared to a few months back. day-to-day life isn't as hard and i've managed to write more often so that's good. i might not do anything for awhile but i would like to catch up what i've been missing atleast

[dearmahiru-archive]

guys i can't express my thoughts on ktk properly in written form so i'm going to make a web weave so not ONE of you look at me

[dearmahiru-archive]

waaah sorry for dying everyone!! i was getting kinda burnt out on milgram again and a new interest claimed me ( i developed a crush on a fictional character) ( said character is a disembodied british sad wet cat voice ) ( i desire him carnally. ) but! i'm working on some things in the background pinkie promise ♡

[milk-ly]

I wanna quickly point out something about Kotoko and Jacques Roulet.

(You can read 1moremilgram-enjoyer’s post for info about Jacques Roulette here)

Something important to understand is that the case of Jacques Roulet actually happened during the Werewolf trials in the 15th-17th century.

If you don’t know what werewolf trials were, they’re linked to witch trials where mainly women were convicted and killed for practicing witchcraft. The werewolf trials however, were mostly men being convicted and killed for being werewolves that ate children. Jacques Roulet’s case specifically happened during the werewolf witch trials, which was a combination of the two.

The reason I bring this up is because this paints another parallel between Kotoko and Fuuta because of his connection to the Salem witch trials. Since his victim (kilcheroy) seems to take on the appearance of a witch, he quite literally sent a witch hunt after her and burned her at the stake. (Fuuta’s fire symbolism)

Witch’s were accused of witchcraft and devil worship but most of them were actually innocent, like how Fuuta’s victim was accused of wrong doing but in actuality didn’t do any thing wrong.

In contrast, Jacques Roulet actually did kill and hurt children, similar to Kotoko’s victim.

Kotoko’s victim was also male, which further adds to the link to werewolf trials of mostly men. Fuuta’s victim was female, and the witch trials were mostly women.

Their pursuits for Justice were witch/werewolf hunts.

And like people have pointed out, they became what they sought to destroy. Fuuta became the witch burned at the stake. Kotoko became the beast that mauled people.

(You could also argue that it kinda ties to both their relationship to gender and masculinity. But I’m not the most well versed in that topic)

[dearmahiru-archive]

Checking in

oh! i'm not quite sure if you're asking for a life update or if i've done smth concerning but overall i'm fine ( just been a little quiet since i'm doing twelve things on different blogs atm but i'm rushing back rn for the ktk interrogation )

[dearmahiru-archive]

ALSO KYAAAAA I HAVEN'T TALKED ABOUT DECO*27 IN FOREVER BUT ROOKIE OH MY GOD . . .??

tbh i haven't been super impressed with nina's recent catalogue — though i'm not one to seriously dunk on him for "all his songs sounding the same" when i genuinely don't care. i just feel songs like volt tackle and blue planet commit the fatal sins of being really boring, and hell i've only recently come around to rabbit hole ( if only because the "love bluh bluh bluh" part is extremely addicting )

BUT ROOKIE AKAIWUEHWJWB the opening with the bass immediately hooked me in. it's been a while since we've had these kinda edgy, high-energy songs from nina and i'm aaaaaall for it. and aaa the song slowly becoming softer to represent her change in behavior is sooo smart !!

ALSO ALSO ALSO the middle bit where miku suddenly switches to english is TOTALLY A HIBANA REFERENCE and it worked like a charm on me. i've been kinda rolling my eyes at the self-referential nature of the recent songs but i loved this one. it shows off nina's growth extremely given the length and complexities of the lyrics, and i'm so happy for him man.

now i'm just hyped for if we'll get a rachie / will stetson cover . . .

[dearmahiru-archive]

I know we've never really spoken before !!!!! But !!!!!!

A bouncy boy for you !!!!!!!!

oh i just realized we really haven't spoken to eachother !! i always sees your .mimiming~ posts on my dash and i feel like i've liked/reblogged sm of your stuff lmao ( <-friendship through osmosis + parallel play )

and :0c a silly seal !! i wonder what my reaction shall be if i were to find its traveled miles from its home and knocked upon upon my doorstep. . .

[dearmahiru-archive]

y'know i was genuinely considering making an account on milgramtwt but oh my god... oh my god that place sucks... i'm staying here guys ♡

[dearmahiru-archive]

guys when i finally remake that shinju theory post with better writing and graphics i'm going to be so strong! trust ♡

(also i made a replycon for myself 'cause it's embarrassing that i used anime gifs... thank you everyone for not bullying me for that)

[harukaenthusiast]

i made milgram blinkies.. f2u ! who cheered!

[dearmahiru-archive]

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⑅ᐢ..ᐢ₎ hello hello hello my name is cinnamon (she/they) and welcome to my dedicated milgram blog! i tend to ramble most about mahiru (i'm very very subtle about my adoration for her) but i genuinely love each character! i don't consider myself much of a theorist or analysist or what-have-you but i like having opinions.

i must ask that you please don't spam like/reblog my posts! i'm very flattered to recieve so much attention but it does make me rather uncomfortable.

blinky created by @.harukaenthusiast

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[dearmahiru-archive]

heads up that i'm going to do some spring cleaning on this blog so a lot of stuff is going to end up being deleted and i plan on rewriting a lot of my discussion posts sometime in the future !! <3 (unfortunately they'll be kept up in the meantime... waaah my shinju theory need a repolish...)

[acrosc]

they didnt have to give her such a look™️ & so much bisexual lighting, but they did, and for that i thank them