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[1skinny-pig1]

Thinspoo

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

soaking in the sun⋆｡𖦹°‧

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these bitches would be so done if i had a small ribcage. in another universe.

[dark-moon-mythology]

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feeling sad and empty all the time and just consuming food in hopes that the momentsry contentness will last only to ve let down and spiralO_O im losing my marbles man.

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

walking with intention one moment and suddenly feeling as though you are about to slip into another universe after 2 monsters and an americano on an empty stomach>>>

like yes, please universe, give me a new story line im begging

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

when you're severely lactose intolerant but the only meal you have time for morning and night is probiotic yogurt with a honey drizzle🥹it truly is a love hate relationship we have😪

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

so much fat. so much fat. so much fucking fat. i could quite literally cut it all offf. so much fucking fat. so much gucking gmfat. why do i let myself get so fucking fat. i cant handle it. i pull at it and squeeze it so hard wishing i could just sever it clean off. its fucking disgusting. i hate my fucking body. i hate it so much. its so ugly. genuinely nothing about it is fucking nice. i really got the absolute worst fucking genetics. hips dips on both sides AND theyre uneven asf. massive rib cage. small boobs. wide shoulders. and what do i do to soothe myself? fucking eat. eat so much i feel sick yet cant pvrge.

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

when youre literally crashing tf out on 3 hours of sleep, working a double and both ur bosses r breathing down ur neck over sum miniscule bullshit🧎🏻‍♀️‍➡️

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

hiding in the bathroom on ur lunch break bcuz ur literally locked and confined in a massive building full of loud noises and drunk people🥲i hate it here. i just want to sleep. fighting myself from looking at the time praying it goes by in a flash.

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

i hate that i crave male validation. and tgat its so soecific too. like i just want to hear it from people that i know ill never be enough for. they have no interest in me. im so lame.

i need to work on myself so badd i just want to isolate and come out being my peak self. but that takes so much work;'>

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

^w^My server book i received today! I sticker bombed her so that it can b a litl piece of comfort throughout the work day!<<33

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

UGH i forgot how fucking good a crisp cold white monster feels on an empty stomach🥹she really has my heart forever, i always come crawling back to her😪

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

B0d33 ch3ck1ng nearly 24/7 and constantly being reminded of how i let go of myself, but keeping in mind that i must continue on. Could be the busiest day at work and im still pinching my waist and pulling at my skin. I probably look psychotic to the people around me but i cant help it. Im always fearing what i look like to those around me, though its usually 'average and healthy' it still makes me hate myself. i want to b small again;'>

feeling a litl proud of myself for seeing just a little improvement<3 trying to be gentle and considerate w myself>.<

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

Laying in bed for hours out of fear of having a munch if i leave>>>

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

As i watch what seems to be everything around me crumbling to bits, i cant help but grasp for what once hurt me. I want to go back, fully aware of how much hurt was there, i miss those days. To relive the sheer joy and excitement of what was to come after, bringing me from nothing to the purest form of contentness and more. It all shattered away long ago, so short lived. But i pray to the planet i meet that beautiful girl once again, and that i can find peace between her and her newer self.

[decrep1tfl3shmvncher]

parking ur car in a whole dif shopping center for the steps and then riding the shopping cart all the way back to the store after dropping the groceries off just feels so freeing. i felt like i was on the titanic, just a free bird soaring thru the empty lot🐦‍🔥