As I Remove My Mask

We're all actors in our own lives. Pretending to be who we want people to think we are

[palmpetals]

not sure about anything anymore

[awesomeunsername]

She was aware, aware of the shit that he talked behind her back to his friends, that she was a mistake, a drunken mistake and that he actually hated her. She was aware of how he thought it was funny. Funny how she fell for him, for his hair, for his smile, for his eyes and for the way he kissed her when he was drunk. She was aware that he was an asshole who just used her when he wanted to and ignored her when he didn’t. She was aware of all that. But she just couldn’t get him out of her head. Him, and all the things that promised different. All the looks and gestures, all the nights where everything was okay. She knew that she would always fall for this asshole, no matter how hard she tried not to.

Except from a book I’ll never write (via awesomeunsername)

[deepinthisleeplessness]

I'm tired of always being everyone's last choice

[starryeyedhowell-blog]

Depression isn’t always sadness

It’s also feeling numb at 3am but smiling and laughing with friends at 3pm

It’s also not being able to get out of bed even though you were fine the day before

It’s also not eating because you aren’t hungry or can’t be bothered, but also over eating because you’re bored and feel empty

It’s also loving too hard or not at all

Depression isn’t a constant feeling of sadness, depression can be hidden in happiness.

Your depression is valid even if people say it’s not just because you smile

[deepinthisleeplessness]

For once, I want someone to be afraid to lose me

[deepinthisleeplessness]

Does anyone else have sad days where you just feel like shit for no reason and when someone asks what's wrong you don't know how to reply and you get that feeling in your throat like you're gonna cry and you can't stop it