[deflous]

what if i came back as the very original iris damn

[deflous]

My dear Naeun, Korra, sister, best friend, soulmate,

I know you’re probably disappointed in me, but I couldn’t help it. You told me to hold on but there was nothing for me to hold on into. I’m sorry, though. I’m sorry for every bad thing I’ve done. I’m sorry for all the drama I’ve dumped on you. I’m just sorry that you had to put up with me and my shitty problems. You’re truly an angel, if you weren’t around, I wouldn’t even last this long. I remember how we once met and how it felt like we had already known each other for years. That’s what they call a soulmate, right? We had our fights but we made up and got even stronger. It’s such a shame that I had to leave you like this. You were the person I treasured the most in this whole world. I hope that you try to make yourself happy before anyone else. You deserve the best, princess, and I’m not kidding when I say that. I hope that you someday find someone who makes your world spin and makes you forget about all the bad in your life. 

I’m not sure what the afterlife looks like, but I hope that it’s better than life itself. I wish I could be happy and have a trouble free life, but I’ve been bad. I’ve sinned, I’m a sinner. I deserve to be punished. I don’t believe in hell and heaven, but I believe in eternal darkness, surrounded by all your baddest memory. I hope that I don’t fall through my own worst memories, though. I don’t want to relive them. 

Anyways, I hope you do well with your girls and that you become bigger and more known in the world. Even if I can never be with you physically, I’ll always be in your heart. Don’t forget about me, okay? Come visit me, I’ll visit you in your dreams. Don’t cry for me, okay? I’m not worth them. I hope that in another life, I get to be your best friend again. 

Take care, I love you.

Love, Iris.

[deflous]

Dear Holden,

It’s funny how you’re always the person I think about first. Whenever I wander off in my daydreams, my train of thoughts always lead me to you. It’s such a shame that it was never the same with you. It’s such a shame that I only found the meaning of happiness with you, it’s such a shame that I only called your arms home. There was nothing more I wanted than to be with you, just looking at you made me happy. Too bad you took that happiness away from me. Too bad that I was too stubborn to realize that nothing lasts forever. Not even you. But it’s okay, I got over it. I got over those looks you used to give me, the feeling of your lips against mine, the way you held me tight at nights, the way you got jealous over the only idol I liked. Our plans, our love for pizza, our pets … your house, our home. It was all fun while it lasted. But the day you left, you took one part of me with you. It was my heart. You took it with you but you quickly threw it into the big ocean, where I couldn’t find it. You quickly moved on but I didn’t. However, I hope you’re always happy. I want you to be so happy that you forget how it is to be sad, I want you to be so loved by the one who’s by your side that you forget how it is to be alone, all by yourself. 

I know what I said to you on that voice mail, but I couldn’t keep myself from writing this letter to you. One part of me will always love you, and one part of me will always hate you. So, it balances it all out somehow, it makes everything neutral. I forgive you for all the things you did to me, but I hope you also forgive me for the things I’ve done. Forgive me for loving you and trusting you, for putting my everything for you. Despite all that, though, I never once regretted you. I’m glad it happened. I learnt a lesson.

I do hope that you come and visit me sometimes, bring me flowers. Bring me Irises and put them on my grave and make it pretty. That’s all I wish for, I hope you can do that much for me. 

Take care, okay? Don’t forget about me.

Love, Iris.

[wlwsupport]

i can’t wait for the mornings where i wake to you holding onto me like you never want to let me go

[numberx9-archieve]

open.

“You know what? I’m going to get a pet and no one’s going to stop me!”

[deflous]

     ‘ Fine, fine. Do whatever you want. But can you really take care of a pet? ’

[aniimvs-deactivated20200225]

@deflous

   “Please, do enlighten me with something I should probably CARE about, darling. Maybe I’ll LISTEN for once, if you’re lucky.”

[deflous]

     ‘ You should care about fixing that attitude, darling. You ain’t going anywhere with that sarcasm. ’ And it was a snort that followed her words before she spoke again, ‘ Just kidding. But unfortunately, I have nothing to tell -- nothing that would spark your interest and make you listen. ’ It was only the truth, she really had nothing to talk about. For so many times, she had heard that she was boring and had nothing interesting to say. So, she had taken that in and believed that she, indeed, was one of the most boring persons one could meet. But let’s be real here, she was fine with that, because then she wouldn’t have to talk. Only listen. ‘ I don’t really entertain people with words. ’

[andxril]

She is Art. What the fuck do you expect from her, other than confusion, beauty and goddamn soul?

(via seovlitaire)

[alcoholixsocialitx]

I DARE YOU TO ANONYMOUSLY GIVE ME A NICKNAME

[deflous]

i love you, you're such a precious human being. i couldn't pick anyone else listening to my bickering. irreplaceable.

     ‘ I love you more, beautiful. I’m more than happy to listen to your bickering, because it makes me feel special for some reason. You’re amazing and you deserve the whole world, Noel. You’re worth more than anything in this whole universe. I’m glad we met and I’m blessed to have you as my bestest friend. What would I be without you? Probably dead. But hey, your own little flower, Iris, a.k.a me, loves you a lot. ’

[deflous]

does thy haveth the bootay?

     ‘ Oh, yeah. I really do. You’ve seen it, don’t even deny it. ’

[deflous]

"Baby, I’m a sociopath."

❀ ; @midnathe​ – ‘ Are you my sweet, sweet serial killer, baby? ’ The corner of her lips twitched up into a lopsided, yet wicked smile as she allowed the words to fall past her lips. It was weird, it felt as if she had something inside her that made it easy for her to be so calm when mentioning such words. Serial killer. Why was those words so familiar for her? Never had she put her hands on something dirty, but it felt as if her inner had some … connection with such thing. No, she was wrong. However … if she was pushed to that point, she surely wouldn’t think twice and just do it. The question is, though, who wouldn’t? 

Fingers ran through the long, blonde hair of hers as she just looked over at the other with an eyebrow raised, ‘ What does sociopaths do? Do they always kill? Can they love? They can’t, right? They have no feeling. Ice cold, stone heart, no different from a psychopath. Or am I wrong? ’ 

Head tilted backwards slightly, a hand came up to be placed over her mouth as soft laughters escaped those peachy tiers of hers. ‘ You would be a hot serial killer. Pretty sure some would love to be killed by you. But then again, you probably already kill them with those looks. ’ And now she was just talking nonsense. Like always. Anyways. ‘ Just kidding– ’ Scarlet snorted, ‘ Where were we and what were we saying? ’

[fuckmuir-deactivated20161206]

Anonymously tell me something you could never tell me to my face

[queenxcersei]

STARTER SENTENCE MEME: LANA DEL REY EDITION.

Send a $ for a sentence.

Over 100+ starter sentences based on Lana Del Rey lyrics. (death cw, sex cw, drugs cw, alcohol cw) —— Feel free to tweak sentences for ease of RP.

[deflous]

Be a good baby, do what I want.

We were born to die.

I feel so alone.

Don’t make me sad.

Don’t make me cry.

Sometimes life gets tough, I don’t know why.

Let’s go get high.

The road gets long, we carry on, try to have fun in the meantime.

You like your girls insane.

Choose your last words.

I can see, but once I was blind.

Take a walk on the wild side.

Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain.

You’re crazy.

I need you to come here and save me.

Kiss me on my open mouth.

I’m sorry that I’m misbehaving.

I’m not afraid to say I would die without you.

They would rue the day I was alone without you.

You have never looked so beautiful as you do now.

You walked into the room and you made my eyes burn.

You’re so fresh to death and sick as cancer.

You fit me better than my favourite sweater.

Love is mean, and love hurts.

I will love you ‘til the end of time.

Promise you’ll remember that you’re mine.

No, please, stay here.

When you walked out the door, a piece of me died.

Get over here and play a video game.

It’s all for you, everything I do.

Heaven is a place on earth with you.

Tell me all the things you want to do.

I heard you like the bad girls, honey, is that true?

They say that the world was built for two.

I’m seeing stars.

This is my idea of fun.

You’re no good for me.

You’re no good for me, but baby I want you.

Do you think we’ll be in love forever?

Baby put on heart-shaped sunglasses ‘cause we’re gonna take a ride.

I’ve been waiting up all night.

I’m gonna teach you just what fast is.

Let’s take Jesus off the dashboard; got enough on his mind.

We both know just what we’re here for.

Money is the anthem of success.

Before we go out, what’s your address?

God, you’re so handsome.

Can we party later on?

Tell me I’m your national anthem.

Money is the reason we exist.

Everybody knows it, it’s fact.

Don’t you know who you’re dealing with?

I need somebody to hold me.

Keep me safe and inspired.

You will do very well.

All my friends tell me I should move on.

Loving you forever can’t be wrong.

There’s no remedy for memory.

Your face is like a melody, it won’t leave my head.

I wish I was dead.

No one compares to you.

I’m scared that you won’t be waiting on the other side.

Your soul is haunting me.

I don’t want to wake up from this, tonight.

I see you in my sleep.

I feel you in my dreams.

Not even they can stop us now.

Their heavy words can’t bring us down.

I finally found you.

How do you like me now?

Wake me up and take me like a vitamin.

I heard the streets were paved with gold.

You’re lying to yourself.

It’s alarming, honestly, just how charming you can be.

You don’t want to be like me.

You don’t to have seen all the things I’ve seen.

You don’t want to get this way.

I’m lying to you.

The boys, the girls, they all like _____.

It’s alarming, truly, just how disarming you can be.

I’m dying.

Baby’s all dressed up with nowhere to go.

I don’t have a problem lying to myself.

You said I was the most exotic flower.

Hold me tight in our final hour.

What you do is unbelievable.

I don’t know how you get over someone as tainted and flawed as you.

I love you, honey.

I’m ready to go.

How did you get that way?

You’re screwed up and brilliant.

You got the world, but baby at what price?

It isn’t that hard, to like you— or love you.

I’d follow you down, down, down.

I’d follow you anywhere.

I got that summertime sadness.

Kiss me hard before you go.

I just wanted you to know that you’re the best.

Nothing scares me anymore.

I’m feeling electric tonight. 

Let’s go cruising down the coast.

I know if I go, I’ll die happy tonight.

I think I’ll miss you forever.

Late is better than never.

This is what makes us girls.

Remember how we used to party up all night?

You’re my new best friend.

Don’t cry about it.

It’s all gonna happen.

I was drinking on the job. With the boss.

Let’s go table dancing at the local dive.

Get me while I’m hot.

You know something? You’re the only friend I’ve ever had.

I’m being sent away.

I’m never coming back.

It’s something I’ll die for. It’s my cause.

Everything I want, I have.

I think I found God in the flash of the pretty cameras.

Am I glamorous?

Hello? Can you hear me?

You’re so dumb.

You’re so dope.

Your love is deadly.

They all think I have it all.

I’m nothing without you.

Can you picture it?

Can you picture it? The life we could’ve lived?

Tell me life is beautiful.

Life is nothing if I can’t have you.

Would you be my baby tonight?

It’s you that I adore.

Kiss me in the D-A-R-K tonight.

Kiss me in the P-A-R-K tonight.

Hey lolita, hey.

It’s you that I adore, though I make the boys fall like dominoes.

Just you and me feeling the heat, even when the sun goes down.

I could be yours.

I could be your baby tonight.

Do it my way.

Whistle all you want, but I’m not gonna stay.

I want my cake and I want to eat it too.

I know I’m a mess.

I don’t care what they say about me.

You make me happy.

I never listen to anyone.

Let’s get outta this town.

Everyone around here’s supposed to be going down.

If you stick with me, I can take you higher.

It feels like all of our friends are lost.

I got so scared.

I thought no one could save me, then you came along.

Could it be that you and me are the lucky ones?

I saw your face and you blew my mind.

Finally, you and me are the lucky ones, this time.

Get into my car, got a bad desire.

You know we’ll never leave if we don’t get out now.

You’re a careless con and you’re a crazy liar.

Nobody can compare to the way you get down.

I tried so hard to act nice like a lady.

You taught me that it was good to be crazy.

Love is blind.

It feels like falling in love.

It feels like the first time.

I’ve been driving too long.

I’ve been trying too hard.

Been trying hard not to get into trouble.

I’ve got a war in my mind.

Just ride.

I’m dying young and playing hard.

Let’s drink all day and talk ‘til dark.

Don’t leave me now.

Don’t say goodbye.

Don’t turn around.

Leave me.

I’m tired of feeling like I’m fucking crazy.

I’m tired of driving until I see stars in my eyes.

Put my favourite record on.

You’re so pretty.

You make me crazy.

You make me wild.

Just like a baby, spin me around like a child.

Be young, be dope, be proud. (Like an american).

Drive fast.

I can almost taste it now.

I don’t even have to fake it now.

Honey put on that party dress.

Everybody wants to go fast, but they can’t compare.

I don’t really want the rest, only you can take me there.

I don’t even know what I’m saying.

I’m praying for you.

My pussy tastes like pepsi cola.

We can escape to the great sunshine.

Don’t treat me rough, treat me really nicely.

We don’t need nobody, ‘cause we got each other.

Let’s get down tonight, dancing and grinding in the pale moonlight.

I’m on fire.

Diamonds are my bestest friend.

Opalescence is the very end.

My clothes still smell like you.

I pretend I’m not home, and go about the world like I’m having fun.

In the land of gods and monsters, I was an angel.

Screwed up, scared— doing anything I needed.

You got that medicine I need.

Give it to me slowly.

Me and god, we don’t get along.

No one’s gonna take my soul away.

It was a fucked up holiday.

Fuck yeah, give it to me.

This is heaven, what I truly want.

I was an angel, looking to get fucked hard.

Life imitates art.

Straight to the heart, please.

I don’t really want to know what’s good for me.

You’re making me crazy.

If I get a little prettier, can I be your baby?

Don’t tell me life isn’t that hard.

Life isn’t that hard.

I was born bad.

You made me nice for a while, but my dark side’s true.

You never cared what I did at all.

I did what I had to do.

I’m a femme fatale, always on the run.

I gotta get drunk.

Get over here, pour me a cold one.

Baby can’t you see that I’m danger?

Time to give in to the kindness of strangers.

Is it wrong that I think it’s kind of fun when I hit you on the back of the head with a gun?

My daddy’s in the trunk of his brand new truck.

I really want him back.

I’m kind of out of luck.

Tell me you’re mine, let’s get it on.

I’m deranged, yeah.

You were too nice for this world.

I wish I may, I wish I might, find my one true love tonight.

Do you think that it could be you?

Let’s get into a fake bar fight.

If I lay really quiet, I know what I do isn’t right.

I murder love in the night.

Do you think you’ll love me, too?

Baby, I’m a sociopath.

I’m on the warpath.

I love you just a little too much.

You know I love the thrill of the rush.

Do it for the thrill of the rush.

Oh god, I think I love her.

My black fire’s burning bright.

Maybe I’ll go out tonight.

We can paint the town in blue.

I’m so hot, I ignite. 

I’ll sneak up on you really quiet, whisper in your ear what your heart desires.

I’ll keep you safe and inspired.

Baby let your fantasies unwind, we can do what you want to do.

Just have fun.

I want to play you like a gameboy.

I don’t want one.

Lie down.

It’s a real killer.

Will you still love me when I’m no longer young and beautiful?

I’ve seen the world, done it all, had my cake now.

Will you still love me when I got nothing left but my aching soul?

Tell me if you can.

I know you will.

[jxffrey-woods-deactivated201502]

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[deflous]

ɴᴀᴍᴇ: Cho Iris Scarlet Wilson. ᴀʟɪᴀs (ɴɪᴄᴋɴᴀᴍᴇs): n/a. ɢᴇɴᴅᴇʀ: Female. ᴀɢᴇ: 21 ᴅᴀᴛᴇ ᴏғ ʙɪʀᴛʜ: June 6th,1994 sᴘᴏᴋᴇɴ ʟᴀɴɢᴜᴀɢᴇs: Korean, English and conversational french. ᴏᴄᴄᴜᴘᴀᴛɪᴏɴ: Model. ᴄʀɪᴍɪɴᴀʟ ʀᴇᴄᴏʀᴅ: None. ᴅɪsᴏʀᴅᴇʀs: None. ᴇʏᴇ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀ: Hazel brown. ʜᴀɪʀ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀ: Blonde. ʜᴇɪɢʜᴛ: 168cm. sᴄᴀʀs: On her lower back, across her left hip and one on the inside of her thigh. All covered up with tattoos.  ʙᴜʀɴs: barely visible. ᴏᴠᴇʀᴡᴇɪɢʜᴛ: No. ᴜɴᴅᴇʀᴡᴇɪɢʜᴛ: No ғᴏᴏᴅ: Pizza. ʜᴀᴅ sᴇx: Yes. ʜᴀᴅ sᴇx ɪɴ ᴘᴜʙʟɪᴄ: No. ɢᴏᴛᴛᴇɴ ᴘʀᴇɢɴᴀɴᴛ: No. ᴋɪssᴇᴅ ᴀ ʙᴏʏ: Yes. ᴋɪssᴇᴅ ᴀ ɢɪʀʟ: Yes. ɢᴏᴛᴛᴇɴ ᴛᴀᴛᴛᴏᴏs: Yes. ɢᴏᴛᴛᴇɴ ᴘɪᴇʀᴄɪɴɢs: Yes. sᴍᴏᴋᴇᴅ/ᴅʀᴀɴᴋ/ᴅᴏɴᴇ ᴅʀᴜɢs: Yes/yes/yes. ʜᴀᴅ ᴀ ʙʀᴏᴋᴇɴ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ: Yes. ʙᴇᴇɴ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ: Yes. ɴᴇᴇᴅᴇᴅ sᴜʀɢᴇʀʏ: Yes. sᴛᴀʏᴇᴅ ᴜᴘ ғᴏʀ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ 24 ʜᴏᴜʀs: Yes. ᴀ ᴠɪʀɢɪɴ: No. ᴀ ᴄᴜᴅᴅʟᴇʀ: Yes. ᴀ ᴋɪssᴇʀ: Yes. sᴄᴀʀᴇᴅ ᴇᴀsɪʟʏ: No. ᴊᴇᴀʟᴏᴜs ᴇᴀsɪʟʏ: No. ᴛʀᴜsᴛᴡᴏʀᴛʜʏ: Barely. sɪɴɢʟᴇ: Yes. ᴄᴏɴsɪᴅᴇʀᴇᴅ ᴍᴇᴀɴ: No. ʜᴀʀᴍᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇᴍsᴇʟᴠᴇs: No. ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ᴏғ sᴜɪᴄɪᴅᴇ: Yes. ᴀᴛᴛᴇᴍᴘᴛᴇᴅ sᴜɪᴄɪᴅᴇ: No. ғᴇᴀʀs: Abandonment, fire. sɪʙʟɪɴɢs: An older brother. ᴘᴀʀᴇɴᴛs: Deceased. ᴄʜɪʟᴅʀᴇɴ: None. ᴘᴇᴛ(s): A puppy names Pearl.

[kimchitae-deactivated20161208]

Yah, how do you make it seem like you have a butt in pictures? *huffs, arching my back, putting my hands on my hips* Still looks flat.. 

[deflous]

Well, maybe because I have a butt? (` she scrunched her nose up and chuckled a bit out of amusement afterwards. ) You gotta stop sitting so much and squat a little more. Maybe if you got some extra proteins in your body, you could get a slightly bigger butt. (` she tilted her head slightly, looking over at the other. ) It’s not that flat, you know? It’s flat but it’s not flatter than some people’s chests. (` and she rolled her eyes, knowing how rude she sounded but, really, who cared? Anyways. ) Don’t be so hard on yourself. Your butt is … cute. (` she nodded, giving off a bright grin as she reached down to pat her bottom playfully. )

[femaleidols]

[deflous]

if you were to date any of your girl friends, who would you date?

                            Pssttt, I’m bored. Send my muse anons about            anything you’ve ever wondered about them or the people in their life.

     ‘ Hm, if I could date any of my lady friends it would be Noel, Jidam and Bella. Especially Noel because I already own her ass and all. I mean, she’s basically my girlfriend … fake girlfriend. I love her so. ’