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I read your fic and it honestly put me in an embarrassingly big book slump. Nothing I’ve picked up since has hit the same. Your writing feels very poetic but never forced, and there were moments where I had to pause because a line crushed my heart omg. I got embarrassingly emotionally attached to the story, and yes, i SOBBED.
I have such a soft spot for your Y/N. The way you write their emotions feels so human and raw, and it made everything hurt in the best way. Also, Ghost and Y/N need to heal their respective traumas together or I may simply pass away. I trust your judgment, but I am emotionally wrecked by them now.
I hope this isn’t too personal to ask, but have you ever thought about pursuing writing professionally? If that’s something you’ve ever doubted, I just wanted you to know that your voice feels very rare. Like the kind of writing that stays with people long after they close the tab.
Also, quick question. In the last chapter during the panic attack, Vova is mentioned, and I just wanted to check if I missed an earlier reference to him or if that’s something meant to be a bit unclear right now. Totally possible I skipped over it unintentionally.
One last thing (sorry, I know this is getting long) I’ve developed a very sad little headcanon that Y/N would be an incredibly gentle, loving mom, and that thought has not left my brain since. I just had to share it.
No pressure to respond at all. I just wanted you to know how much your work meant to me!!
aaaaaah thank you (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) i can’t say i don’t write completely for myself without other people in mind. deep down, i’ve always wanted my work to impact people the same way the fics & books i read impact me, too. it’s TRULY an honor to know you were able to feel something from my work.
i did consider writing professionally when i was younger. i’d have to look into the process of self-publishing to see how realistic it is for me !
there is an earlier reference to vova and that memory, though it’s teeny tiny *⁀➷
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16. ❝is that an order?❞
If you listened hard enough, you heard the thud of tactical boots drawing near, the never-ending drip of blood, a child’s cry, the sharp hiss of a combat knife withdrawn, the bang of a bullet, and a voice scolding you, “Eto tvoya vina. Ty sdelala eto.”
It’s your fault. You did this.
the memory/flashback happens during the debrief with 141 and graves in alejandro’s office, but the voice scolding her went unnamed.
now, compare it to the most recent chapter:
23. ❝and you will get burned❞
You remembered the hiss of a knife drawing from its sheath. A venomous voice scolding you, “Eto tvoya vina. Ty sdelala eto.”It’s your fault. You did this.
[at the end of the chapter]
It’s my fault. I did this. It’s all my fault.
A knife was forced into your hand. Before you could pull away, Vova closed your fingers around the leather grip and ordered, “Teper’ isprav’ svoyu oshibku.”
Now fix your mistake.
this is the first time she attached vladimir makarov, or more accurately, a common diminutive of his name (vova) to that memory, and it’s also revealed the knife was given to her and not used against her as it might’ve been previously implied.
Hi deft! Sorry for bother, i just want to say that “risk” is my fav work ever, this is the best fanfiction that i have ever read!!! I rly like that you don’t write just about sex and porn, but about tension end TRUE slow burn, i hope that future parts also will be slow burn and full of tension. I hope that u r doing well and that you enjoy writing your work as much as your readers enjoy reading the “risk” Thysm for your efforts !! (Sorry for my English, it’s my second language)
hi luv ! no bother at all <3 i should be thanking you for your sweet words. thank u sm muah ( ˘ ³˘) ♡ i’m so glad you like it !!!
while i do love pwp fics — one of my all-time fav fics is actually smut heavy — a slow burn with tension, messiness, and other forms of intimacy established first (non-sexual physical, emotional, etc) is extremely satisfying. it’s also satisfying as a reader myself when i’m 1000+ pages deep or even multiple books deep and the characters finally have that moment.
RISK is a longfic, so the slow burn has had plenty of time to simmer. we have the tension, messiness, and we’ve even worked our way up to emotional intimacy and vulnerability (though we’re going to get even more here soon . . .) i think we are entering a new phase with RISK where smut can be introduced to the story, but serves to add even more to the tension, messiness, and overall vulnerability without detracting from the slow burn-ness of it all — or i hope so !
if anyone’s interested in how the smut/romance part will likely go, and you’re not averse to spoilers, see these rambles i wrote in the past: [1] [2] ♡⸝⸝
Hi Deft!!! I've reread Risk soo many times, and everytime I reread it, I've always wondered how differently it would've gone it reader didnt speak English. Like I feel it was kind of a gamble for Laswell to have 141 get the reader from prison, cause the prison was in Russia (iirc) and reader IS Russian, unless Laswells source who told her abt Y/N told her abt how she could speak english
ooo good question ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡) the prison was in kazakhstan, though ! and it’s still unknown to us/the audience how much laswell’s source told her about reader.
the start likely would’ve been the same since laswell speaks russian (as shown when she meets with yuri in the deep cover mission) maybe even well enough to hold a conversation. if not, she could’ve found someone with clearance to act as a translator during the interrogation. though, laswell wouldn’t have been able to integrate reader into 141 as quickly if she didn’t already know english—she’d have to work with a cia language instructor while training at the outpost.
Heyyy deft, loved the latest chapter it was sosososo good! The moment between Price and reader? Im literally melting, super sweet.
I also really liked the ghost scene (yk which one I mean 😼). This pathetic man is so sexually frustrated I almost feel bad for him… anyways, I was wondering if you were planning to write anything similar to that scene for reader.
I know she has a lot on her plate, but I think it could be interesting to see her more sexual and lustful (that sounds so biblical, sorry) side, and how she views Ghost in that way. And honestly, I think this girl deserves some stress relief from the shit she goes through.
Unless, of course, you have a reason for not incorporating that part of her character. I can imagine what those reasons might be after the implications of what happened to her while she was locked up…
I think it could be really interesting and complicated, so that’s why I asked!
Anyways, good luck writing and all that. Remember to take breaks whenever you want, and to write when you want to write. You don’t owe us anything, remember that! <3
eeee i’m glad to know you liked it ! and ugh, that moment with price was everything <3 that’s my man
oh luv … you’re right on the money with that one ! no spoilers BUT the next two or so chapters will be pure self-indulgent forced proximity. with a wounded reader, she can’t exactly run away (metaphorically and literally) from her tangled feelings for ghost. things they’ve avoided, denied, didn’t look at or name for fear it’d become all too real—may rear its head.
these next two or so chapters will allow them to just … take a breath for once. with reader’s life not hanging in the balance and the danger cleared, she may be able to acknowledge her physical needs and other stuff too.
interesting things are bound to happen, indeed !!! (｡˃ ᵕ ˂ ) ♡⸝⸝
Hello I am stupid, why does reader say "funny joke" whenever laswell offers her a cigarette?
noooo you’re not stupid (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )
it’s a silly lil callback to the interrogation scene in chapter two when laswell offered reader a cigarette, but her hands were zip-tied and she couldn’t smoke even if she wanted. she didn’t of course. but she perceives the move as a power play, like laswell intended to rub reader’s powerlessness and position (as the captive) in her face. she was unable to do something as simple and mundane as smoking, because she couldn’t move her hands. laswell’s move could’ve been a tactic to get under her skin or a misunderstood gesture of goodwill.
for this recent chapter, reader’s hands aren’t zip-tied (they are in public after all) but she can’t readily move them about. because she’s wounded, she uses underarm crutches and supports her weight through the handgrips. she’s off kilter, tipsier than she thought, and too unpracticed with mobility aids to confidently take her hands off the grips. so reader replies with “funny joke,” because she feels like the situations are similar. or maybe it’s an instinctive response, and she feels on edge, running defense, bracing for laswell’s next move, and perceiving everything as a threat. maybe she’s projecting.
yes there is (｡˃ ᵕ ˂ ) “ptolomæa” is based off of the song by ethel cain. the song and the chapter are inspired by dante’s inferno. there are four divisions/rings within the ninth circle of hell for different types and degrees of treachery: caina, antenora, ptolomea/ptolomæa, and judecca.
(canto xxxiii) ptolomea/ptolomæa is reserved for traitors to friends and guests. it’s believed to be named after ptolemy son of abubus. he invited his father-in-law simon maccabaeus and simon’s two sons to dinner and then killed them. it’s the betrayal of a special bond—the complete and utter violation of another person’s love and trust in you. in dante’s view, the sin is the second most severe, with the first being the betrayal of one’s master, lord, or benefactor.
dante and his guide virgil find the traitors trapped in a frozen lake called cocytus. they’re submerged up to their face, unable to weep as their tears have formed a frozen crust. “and grief that finds a barrier in the eyes turns itself inward to increase the anguish” — a traitor named friar alberigo explains when a soul betrays as he has, they descend to hell immediately for punishment and their earthly body is inhabited by a demon.
i was (and still am) very inspired by dante’s inferno. chapter 21 has that theme of treachery and betrayal and suffering. even this most recent chapter 23 kinda has some parallels to ptolomæa if you squint hard enough -`♡´-
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➢ HERE i will keep you updated with the status of the newest chapter i’m working on, how far along it is, the current word count, and i’ll link any wip (work in progress) teasers / spoilers i post to keep readers in the loop ! ✧･ﾟ: ⇐
│ important: │ while i don’t mind asks about status updates, they may add onto the stress and pressure i put onto myself regarding the output and quality of chapters. i’ll do my best to update this post often — if this post HASN’T been updated in say, two or more weeks, feel free to send me an ask about a status update and i will gladly answer ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
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𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐒 𝐎𝐅 │ CHAPTER 23 │ dec 21st, 2025
➢ stage: completed, will post on tuesday or wednesday. i’ve also finished chap 24 outline and have started writing it
I honestly can't wait to see your portrayal of Makarov
i can already tell vladimir’s gonna be THE hardest character of all time to write (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) but UGH i’m also looking forward to portraying that evil despicable man and diving deep into (my idea of) his characterization & breaking down his ideology.
i feel like as it is now and even with the original games, we still don’t know much about vladimir and why he is the way he is, so it’ll be fun to put my own spin on it !
diva I frequently wonder if you’ll cover MWIII in risk too. specially since the opinions on the quality of its campaign are very… mixed. love your work <3
good question ! ♡⸝⸝ compared to mwii, mw (2019), and ESPECIALLY the original games, i have ... thoughts about mwiii’s campaign & where they’re going with the direction of the reboot but i’ll save that for another day (ᵕ•_•)
i’ll use a few elements and ideas from mwiii, but i’ll mostly draw from the original games and a little from cod bo1 and cold war (yes i know mw and bo are two separate timelines, but i’ve got ideas) throughout the rest of the story <3
Hi, I was wondering if we could get a status update? No stress, take the time you need🫶
hi my luv ! ofc you can get a status update ˚୨୧₊ i won’t drop any teasers though since i’m very close to finishing this chapter ! i’m essentially 99% done with the first draft and it needs a quick round of editing before posting !
the 1% is basically me being hung up on the ghost smut scene … if anyone knows of any EXTREMELY detailed descriptive male orgasms in any fic (any fandom) pls send it to me and help your girl out (。＞＜)
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Ahhh deft I have so many thoughts so bare with me and prepare for a ramble….
When I saw the last ask it got me thinking about how much of a far reaching fan base you have! I’m from the UK and adore your story, it has been on my mind since I first read it a year and a half ago and I always find myself pathetically checking tumblr for any updates on how the story is coming along. If Risk has no fans then I’m dead hahah.
Like I’m not joking I’m a massive fan of ACOTAR, Fourth Wing and the romantasy genre in general and Risk is up there as my favourite! Are u into any of those type of books at all?
I’ve just finished a reread to manifest that the next chapter may be coming soon and that last chapter broke my heart all over again 😭 Ghost really is a self-sabotaging king, whilst it hurts now and I hate it I know it needs to happen because the slow burn is burning soooo good.
Also did I imagine it or did I get stand-off-ish vibes from Price towards reader in that last scene? Is he distrustful because of what happened with Graves?
Anyway I better stop now cause I could ramble on forever with a hundred questions, hope you are keeping well 🩷
omg an uk reader (｡˃ ᵕ ˂ ) hi from across the pond ! you’re so sweet tysm <3 i hope you’re doing well too luv !!!!
i can’t lie i DO indulge in some romantasy on occasion ! though sadly, a lot of popular romantasy authors are controversial, not to mention zionists — plus i find the genre oversaturated atm, so i’ve been leaning more towards historical romance or scratching the romantasy itch by (watching xianxia/wuxia dramas) reading haladriel/saurondriel fics bc i’m obsessed. i’m still at the restauraunt.
but i know off the top of my head, i really enjoyed “we hunt the flame” by my niqabi queen hafsah faizal, and the “folk of the air” series by holly black though i’m not finished with “the wicked king” yet rip. i’ve got my eye on “an ember in the ashes” by sabaa tahir and her other works, and “the atlas six” by olivie blake because i’ve heard sm good things abt it !!! ♡⸝⸝
ghost’s self-sabotaging is so UGHHHHH but it’s very much them. i’m not a fan of the miscommunication trope by any means, but he + reader can’t communicate to save their lives (。＞＜) there’s so much that goes into it. why he switched from oh she’s good to no she’s an evil schemer, why he’s so suddenly pushing her away because he wanted her to get close and it’s easier to be angry than hurt & vulnerable even though his suspicion isn’t totally unfounded.
as for price, you might not have imagined the weird vibes. i think he’s in a very tough position for reasons i can’t say (who knows what laswell might’ve been saying behind the scenes) and feels conflicting emotions about reader: a healthy level of reservation, confusion, maybe a little affection, and unease because he’s dealt with too much loss in this line of work—tried keeping her at a distance but he can’t help but care because his team is his family. he doesn’t know what to do or what to say. we’ll actually see more of price + reader’s dynamic this upcoming chapter ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
saw your latest post about where a reader is from, and just wanted to lyk that your stories has reached the netherlands😋 i’m so excited for the new chapter. do you maybe have a update for how far you are with the chapter, no pressure🫶🏻
the netherlands omg ! (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) i love that !!!! if u look closely with binoculars u might be able to see me waving from over here ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
i’m actually pretty much done with the first draft, but i’m still kinda going over it and adding some finishing touches before officially editing & posting it. i’m at the stage where i might be staring at words too much and overthinking everything <3 often this happens, then i come back to it and am like “wait why did i think this sucks ass, it’s really not that bad” lol
i’m currently debating on whether i should add in a ghost (self) smut scene because imo it doesn’t suit the angsty, crippling GLOOM of this chapter. leaning more towards not having it, and maybe including that in the next chapter …
