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Hiii!! I donโt usually use Tumblr, but I felt like Iโd regret it if I didnโt say something.
I read your fic and it honestly put me in an embarrassingly big book slump. Nothing Iโve picked up since has hit the same. Your writing feels very poetic but never forced, and there were moments where I had to pause because a line crushed my heart omg. I got embarrassingly emotionally attached to the story, and yes, i SOBBED.
I have such a soft spot for your Y/N. The way you write their emotions feels so human and raw, and it made everything hurt in the best way. Also, Ghost and Y/N need to heal their respective traumas together or I may simply pass away. I trust your judgment, but I am emotionally wrecked by them now.
I hope this isnโt too personal to ask, but have you ever thought about pursuing writing professionally? If thatโs something youโve ever doubted, I just wanted you to know that your voice feels very rare. Like the kind of writing that stays with people long after they close the tab.
Also, quick question. In the last chapter during the panic attack, Vova is mentioned, and I just wanted to check if I missed an earlier reference to him or if thatโs something meant to be a bit unclear right now. Totally possible I skipped over it unintentionally.
One last thing (sorry, I know this is getting long) Iโve developed a very sad little headcanon that Y/N would be an incredibly gentle, loving mom, and that thought has not left my brain since. I just had to share it.
No pressure to respond at all. I just wanted you to know how much your work meant to me!!
aaaaaah thank you (ห หฬฃฬฃฬฅโหฬฃฬฃฬฅ ) i canโt say i donโt write completely for myself without other people in mind. deep down, iโve always wanted my work to impact people the same way the fics & books i read impact me, too. itโs TRULY an honor to know you were able to feel something from my work.
i did consider writing professionally when i was younger. iโd have to look into the process of self-publishing to see how realistic it is for me !
there is an earlier reference to vova and that memory, though itโs teeny tiny *โโท
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16. โis that an order?โ
If you listened hard enough, you heard the thud of tactical boots drawing near, the never-ending drip of blood, a childโs cry, the sharp hiss of a combat knife withdrawn, the bang of a bullet, and a voice scolding you, โEto tvoya vina. Ty sdelala eto.โ
Itโs your fault. You did this.
the memory/flashback happens during the debrief with 141 and graves in alejandroโs office, but the voice scolding her went unnamed.
now, compare it to the most recent chapter:
23. โand you will get burnedโ
You remembered the hiss of a knife drawing from its sheath. A venomous voice scolding you, โEto tvoya vina. Ty sdelala eto.โItโs your fault. You did this.
[at the end of the chapter]
Itโs my fault. I did this. Itโs all my fault.
A knife was forced into your hand. Before you could pull away, Vova closed your fingers around the leather grip and ordered, โTeperโ ispravโ svoyu oshibku.โ
Now fix your mistake.
this is the first time she attached vladimir makarov, or more accurately, a common diminutive of his name (vova) to that memory, and itโs also revealed the knife was given to her and not used against her as it mightโve been previously implied.
Hi deft! Sorry for bother, i just want to say that โriskโ is my fav work ever, this is the best fanfiction that i have ever read!!! I rly like that you donโt write just about sex and porn, but about tension end TRUE slow burn, i hope that future parts also will be slow burn and full of tension. I hope that u r doing well and that you enjoy writing your work as much as your readers enjoy reading the โriskโ Thysm for your efforts !! (Sorry for my English, itโs my second language)
hi luv ! no bother at all <3 i should be thanking you for your sweet words. thank u sm muah ( ห ยณห) โก iโm so glad you like it !!!
while i do love pwp fics โ one of my all-time fav fics is actually smut heavy โ a slow burn with tension, messiness, and other forms of intimacy established first (non-sexual physical, emotional, etc) is extremely satisfying. itโs also satisfying as a reader myself when iโm 1000+ pages deep or even multiple books deep and the characters finally have that moment.
RISK is a longfic, so the slow burn has had plenty of time to simmer. we have the tension, messiness, and weโve even worked our way up to emotional intimacy and vulnerability (though weโre going to get even more here soon . . .) i think we are entering a new phase with RISK where smut can be introduced to the story, but serves to add even more to the tension, messiness, and overall vulnerability without detracting from the slow burn-ness of it all โ or i hope so !
if anyoneโs interested in how the smut/romance part will likely go, and youโre not averse to spoilers, see these rambles i wrote in the past: [1] [2] โกโธโธ
Hi Deft!!! I've reread Risk soo many times, and everytime I reread it, I've always wondered how differently it would've gone it reader didnt speak English. Like I feel it was kind of a gamble for Laswell to have 141 get the reader from prison, cause the prison was in Russia (iirc) and reader IS Russian, unless Laswells source who told her abt Y/N told her abt how she could speak english
ooo good question ( หอ แต หอโก) the prison was in kazakhstan, though ! and itโs still unknown to us/the audience how much laswellโs source told her about reader.
the start likely wouldโve been the same since laswell speaks russian (as shown when she meets with yuri in the deep cover mission) maybe even well enough to hold a conversation. if not, she couldโve found someone with clearance to act as a translator during the interrogation. though, laswell wouldnโt have been able to integrate reader into 141 as quickly if she didnโt already know englishโsheโd have to work with a cia language instructor while training at the outpost.
Heyyy deft, loved the latest chapter it was sosososo good! The moment between Price and reader? Im literally melting, super sweet.
I also really liked the ghost scene (yk which one I mean ๐ผ). This pathetic man is so sexually frustrated I almost feel bad for himโฆ anyways, I was wondering if you were planning to write anything similar to that scene for reader.
I know she has a lot on her plate, but I think it could be interesting to see her more sexual and lustful (that sounds so biblical, sorry) side, and how she views Ghost in that way. And honestly, I think this girl deserves some stress relief from the shit she goes through.
Unless, of course, you have a reason for not incorporating that part of her character. I can imagine what those reasons might be after the implications of what happened to her while she was locked upโฆ
I think it could be really interesting and complicated, so thatโs why I asked!
Anyways, good luck writing and all that. Remember to take breaks whenever you want, and to write when you want to write. You donโt owe us anything, remember that! <3
eeee iโm glad to know you liked it ! and ugh, that moment with price was everything <3 thatโs my man
oh luv โฆ youโre right on the money with that one ! no spoilers BUT the next two or so chapters will be pure self-indulgent forced proximity. with a wounded reader, she canโt exactly run away (metaphorically and literally) from her tangled feelings for ghost. things theyโve avoided, denied, didnโt look at or name for fear itโd become all too realโmay rear its head.
these next two or so chapters will allow them to just โฆ take a breath for once. with readerโs life not hanging in the balance and the danger cleared, she may be able to acknowledge her physical needs and other stuff too.
interesting things are bound to happen, indeed !!! (๏ฝกห แต ห ) โกโธโธ
Hello I am stupid, why does reader say "funny joke" whenever laswell offers her a cigarette?
noooo youโre not stupid (ห หฬฃฬฃฬฅโหฬฃฬฃฬฅ )
itโs a silly lil callback to the interrogation scene in chapter two when laswell offered reader a cigarette, but her hands were zip-tied and she couldnโt smoke even if she wanted. she didnโt of course. but she perceives the move as a power play, like laswell intended to rub readerโs powerlessness and position (as the captive) in her face. she was unable to do something as simple and mundane as smoking, because she couldnโt move her hands. laswellโs move couldโve been a tactic to get under her skin or a misunderstood gesture of goodwill.
for this recent chapter, readerโs hands arenโt zip-tied (they are in public after all) but she canโt readily move them about. because sheโs wounded, she uses underarm crutches and supports her weight through the handgrips. sheโs off kilter, tipsier than she thought, and too unpracticed with mobility aids to confidently take her hands off the grips. so reader replies with โfunny joke,โ because she feels like the situations are similar. or maybe itโs an instinctive response, and she feels on edge, running defense, bracing for laswellโs next move, and perceiving everything as a threat. maybe sheโs projecting.
yes there is (๏ฝกห แต ห ) โptolomรฆaโ is based off of the song by ethel cain. the song and the chapter are inspired by danteโs inferno. there are four divisions/rings within the ninth circle of hell for different types and degrees of treachery: caina, antenora, ptolomea/ptolomรฆa, and judecca.
(canto xxxiii) ptolomea/ptolomรฆa is reserved for traitors to friends and guests. itโs believed to be named after ptolemy son of abubus. he invited his father-in-law simon maccabaeus and simonโs two sons to dinner and then killed them. itโs the betrayal of a special bondโthe complete and utter violation of another personโs love and trust in you. in danteโs view, the sin is the second most severe, with the first being the betrayal of oneโs master, lord, or benefactor.
dante and his guide virgil find the traitors trapped in a frozen lake called cocytus. theyโre submerged up to their face, unable to weep as their tears have formed a frozen crust. โand grief that finds a barrier in the eyes turns itself inward to increase the anguishโ โ a traitor named friar alberigo explains when a soul betrays as he has, they descend to hell immediately for punishment and their earthly body is inhabited by a demon.
i was (and still am) very inspired by danteโs inferno. chapter 21 has that theme of treachery and betrayal and suffering. even this most recent chapter 23 kinda has some parallels to ptolomรฆa if you squint hard enough -`โกยด-
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โข hey, you there ! -` โก ยด- are you curious about the progress of an upcoming RISK chapter and want to know when itโll be posted? look no further !!! (๏ฝกห แต ห )
โข HERE i will keep you updated with the status of the newest chapter iโm working on, how far along it is, the current word count, and iโll link any wip (work in progress) teasers / spoilers i post to keep readers in the loop ! โง๏ฝฅ๏พ:ย โ
โย important:ย โ while i donโt mind asks about status updates, they may add onto the stress and pressure i put onto myself regarding the output and quality of chapters. iโll do my best to update this post often โ if this post HASNโT been updated in say, two or more weeks, feel free to send me an ask about a status update and i will gladly answer หสโกษห
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๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ โ CHAPTER 23 โ dec 21st, 2025
โข stage: completed, will post on tuesday or wednesday. iโve also finished chap 24 outline and have started writing it
โน 0โ100% completed: 100%
โข current word count: 9,700
โน wip teaser / spoiler: [1]
ยฉ 2025 deftinesia โ (do not translate, copy, reproduce, or reupload my work)
I honestly can't wait to see your portrayal of Makarov
i can already tell vladimirโs gonna be THE hardest character of all time to write (ห หฬฃฬฃฬฅโหฬฃฬฃฬฅ ) but UGH iโm also looking forward to portraying that evil despicable man and diving deep into (my idea of) his characterization & breaking down his ideology.
i feel like as it is now and even with the original games, we still donโt know much about vladimir and why he is the way he is, so itโll be fun to put my own spin on it !
diva I frequently wonder if youโll cover MWIII in risk too. specially since the opinions on the quality of its campaign are veryโฆ mixed. love your work <3
good question ! โกโธโธ compared to mwii, mw (2019), and ESPECIALLY the original games, i have ... thoughts about mwiiiโs campaign & where theyโre going with the direction of the reboot but iโll save that for another day (แตโข_โข)
iโll use a few elements and ideas from mwiii, but iโll mostly draw from the original games and a little from cod bo1 and cold war (yes i know mw and bo are two separate timelines, but iโve got ideas) throughout the rest of the story <3
Hi, I was wondering if we could get a status update? No stress, take the time you need๐ซถ
hi my luv ! ofc you can get a status update หเญจเญงโ i wonโt drop any teasers though since iโm very close to finishing this chapter ! iโm essentially 99% done with the first draft and it needs a quick round of editing before posting !
the 1% is basically me being hung up on the ghost smut scene โฆ if anyone knows of any EXTREMELY detailed descriptive male orgasms in any fic (any fandom) pls send it to me and help your girl out (ใ๏ผ๏ผ)
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Ahhh deft I have so many thoughts so bare with me and prepare for a rambleโฆ.
When I saw the last ask it got me thinking about how much of a far reaching fan base you have! Iโm from the UK and adore your story, it has been on my mind since I first read it a year and a half ago and I always find myself pathetically checking tumblr for any updates on how the story is coming along. If Risk has no fans then Iโm dead hahah.
Like Iโm not joking Iโm a massive fan of ACOTAR, Fourth Wing and the romantasy genre in general and Risk is up there as my favourite! Are u into any of those type of books at all?
Iโve just finished a reread to manifest that the next chapter may be coming soon and that last chapter broke my heart all over again ๐ญ Ghost really is a self-sabotaging king, whilst it hurts now and I hate it I know it needs to happen because the slow burn is burning soooo good.
Also did I imagine it or did I get stand-off-ish vibes from Price towards reader in that last scene? Is he distrustful because of what happened with Graves?
Anyway I better stop now cause I could ramble on forever with a hundred questions, hope you are keeping well ๐ฉท
omg an uk reader (๏ฝกห แต ห ) hi from across the pond ! youโre so sweet tysm <3 i hope youโre doing well too luv !!!!
i canโt lie i DO indulge in some romantasy on occasion ! though sadly, a lot of popular romantasy authors are controversial, not to mention zionists โ plus i find the genre oversaturated atm, so iโve been leaning more towards historical romance or scratching the romantasy itch by (watching xianxia/wuxia dramas) reading haladriel/saurondriel fics bc iโm obsessed. iโm still at the restauraunt.
but i know off the top of my head, i really enjoyed โwe hunt the flameโ by my niqabi queen hafsah faizal, and the โfolk of the airโ series by holly black though iโm not finished with โthe wicked kingโ yet rip. iโve got my eye on โan ember in the ashesโ by sabaa tahir and her other works, and โthe atlas sixโ by olivie blake because iโve heard sm good things abt it !!! โกโธโธ
ghostโs self-sabotaging is so UGHHHHH but itโs very much them. iโm not a fan of the miscommunication trope by any means, but he + reader canโt communicate to save their lives (ใ๏ผ๏ผ) thereโs so much that goes into it. why he switched from oh sheโs good to no sheโs an evil schemer, why heโs so suddenly pushing her away because he wanted her to get close and itโs easier to be angry than hurt & vulnerable even though his suspicion isnโt totally unfounded.
as for price, you might not have imagined the weird vibes. i think heโs in a very tough position for reasons i canโt say (who knows what laswell mightโve been saying behind the scenes) and feels conflicting emotions about reader: a healthy level of reservation, confusion, maybe a little affection, and unease because heโs dealt with too much loss in this line of workโtried keeping her at a distance but he canโt help but care because his team is his family. he doesnโt know what to do or what to say. weโll actually see more of price + readerโs dynamic this upcoming chapter หสโกษห
saw your latest post about where a reader is from, and just wanted to lyk that your stories has reached the netherlands๐ iโm so excited for the new chapter. do you maybe have a update for how far you are with the chapter, no pressure๐ซถ๐ป
the netherlands omg ! (ห หฬฃฬฃฬฅโหฬฃฬฃฬฅ ) i love that !!!! if u look closely with binoculars u might be able to see me waving from over here หสโกษห
iโm actually pretty much done with the first draft, but iโm still kinda going over it and adding some finishing touches before officially editing & posting it. iโm at the stage where i might be staring at words too much and overthinking everything <3 often this happens, then i come back to it and am like โwait why did i think this sucks ass, itโs really not that badโ lol
iโm currently debating on whether i should add in a ghost (self) smut scene because imo it doesnโt suit the angsty, crippling GLOOM of this chapter. leaning more towards not having it, and maybe including that in the next chapter โฆ
