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okay ive been straight binging for the past like week but im gonna start a fast either tmr or sunday!! either way ill restrict tmr

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I will reach my ugw this Christmas, it will be the perfect present! <3

PSA: DON’T WRITE ABOUT EATING DISORDERS IF YOU CAN’T ACCURATELY PORTRAY THEM

you don’t just “choose one day” to have an eating disorder, and you can’t make it go away whenever you want. you write about them because you want an angsty plot point that can be resolved quickly, but EATING DISORDERS ARE NOT FIXED IN A DAY.

just because a member of your family tells you to eat, doesn’t mean you’re suddenly cured of your eating disorder, body dysmorphia and self-hate. don’t omit the ugly parts of an eating disorder just because it doesn’t fit your story.

SO IF YOU CAN’T INCLUDE ALL THE REALISTIC THINGS ABOUT EATING DISORDERS, DON’T WRITE ABOUT THEM.

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me, after a binge: it started out with a chip how did it end up like this

it was only a chip

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i dont care if u never listen to me ever again just let me be ur internet dad for just one second: dont start cutting yourselves please ever

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ok im gonna reblog this again bc i want more ppl to see it?? ive compiled a (by no means complete) list of the things u can expect if u start:

- u cant stop. its a legitimate addiction. there is no ‘seeing what its like’. its soso hard to stop it and believe me, because that was me. i thought i would sate my curiosity but all i did was make my life miserable - everything can become a trigger. someone carved things in a table?? trigger. u get a scratch by accident?? trigger. see something sharp?? yup. - the scars dont go away and if people see them (and no matter how hard you try, people will see them) they get this awful fucking look on their face like a mixture of disgust and horror and pity - u have to sit through people making shitty fucking jokes and calling people like you (real, struggling people like you) edgy emos looking for attention and it makes you feel sick but you have to sit there silently - in fact, any conversation about self harm becomes thoroughly uncomfortable because they’ll talk about it like no one in the room has ever gone through it (or, if they know, they’ll glance at you out the corner of their eye when they think you cant see) - any emotion can give you the urges- not just negative. ur body associates the happy feeling with the pain so ur brain is like ‘????? u cant have one without the other??’ - it can have been years. years. you can have stopped and got better and you’ll still feel the urge to hurt yourself and it makes you feel like you haven’t improved at all and you’re still fourteen and hating yourself - (maybe this is just me) but some part of you misses it?? you stopped and you know its horrific but its so difficult to get rid of your blades or whatever you use because you feel so weirdly attached to these things that are so awful and you dont even know why

god damn i just want yall to understand that you dont have to hurt yourself ever, okay?? just. don’t. trust me.