delusional

23 | german | text me TW and shit bla bla you know the deal

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Just relapsed a couple of weeks ago and a few days ago i did again. Pissed that I don’t have my plugs anymore, but maybe it’s good because I can’t buy my own shit again. Just have to resist the urge because I know if I want to I’ll find another plug.

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Soo… my friend is a … moron and that’s why there is no rave today for me yeahh

So only me, drugs and music :)

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Oh dear Molly, the biggest love / hate relationship I’ll probably ever encounter

Lets see how good my internals are working rn, 32h up, did approximately 1.5-1.8 G of speed, and now this bitch, some more speed and a rave pretty far away :)

Ahhh I’m feeling alive again

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body update 15/03/22

lost some weight again despite eating more, I’m starting to fall in love with my appearance but it’s always so off-putting when I get told I look unhealthy but I always get over it pretty quick, for now at least

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accidentally cut myself pretty deep while sharpening one of my knives like 3 hours ago, just took the bandage off and it’s still bleeding hmm

if it won’t stop bleeding until tomorrow I think I’ll have to go to the doc lmao

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i’m so tired

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saw some friends for the first time in a month, so many of them came up to me concerned and asked how I lost so much weight

best compliment I’ve gotten

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oh if I’m consistent? hell yeah I take drugs and gaslight my mom into thinking I don’t every day

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hallucinations, techno and cigarettes on the balcony on a 3 day bender. haven’t felt this good in a while

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baby i‘d ruin your life

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kinda embarrassing for myself when I answer the voice behind me and realize 5 second later that it was a hallucination and I’m talking to myself

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idk why but i have the constant urge to take pictures of my body, I’m in a phase of liking my body but i know it’ll end soon fml

[thoughtsaretoomuchforus-deactiv]

no one will be able to hate me more than I hate myself

[havenodes420]

i hate having to get better like bitch just let me die 😫

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a knife is only evil when the wielder is

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suddenly opening your eyes and not remembering the last 5/6 hours is a real fun game, my own little detective case

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the smell of death is so so familiar