When I look into the small rectangle, I see a face looking back at me but I don’t recognize it. It doesn’t look like me
Steve Harmon - Monster by Walter Dean Myers
Let’s start off by recognizing how powerful the story is from the start; this quote is on page one. It makes you wonder why doesn’t Steve recognize himself, what did he do? Maybe its just the shock of seeing himself in this dirty, old, prison cell mirror, wearing an orange jumpsuit. I can’t imagine all the things going through his head, I probably would not be able to hold the tears back. I probably wouldn’t be able to look at myself. It would just be a reminder of what I did (assuming Steve committed a crime). Or it would be a shock to understand that I could possibly spend the rest of my life here even though I did not commit a crime (assuming Steve is innocent) and I would not want to even consider that.
(via vivianneplasencia)
I like that this is something that was carried on throughout the entire book. At the end, Steve writes in his journal that the reason why he likes to film and continues to film himself from all sorts of different angles is because he sees himself and he doesn’t know who he is, and he thinks that by filming himself he might be able to finally see and recognize himself. I don’t think that he will ever be able to see himself or recognize himself ever again though, because being in jail and being on trial was something that changed him entirely and probably left him more confused about himself and his identity, especially as a teenager, than he was before.












