Write Your Heart Out

My names Desiree. I’ve been using tumblr for nearly 9 years for enjoyment purposes. Here I’ll share some of the writing I’ve been making lately. Everything on here is mine unless otherwise stated.

[desireesmind]

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Hell is loving you in my sleep and waking up alone

[lilpieceofmyworld]

[desireesmind]

Winona forever

[lilpieceofmyworld]

[lilpieceofmyworld]

[desireesmind]

I guess I won the “I love you more” game.

[desireesmind]

5.10.18

No, I don’t want to be “your friend” and you want to know why?

I won’t know how, we never were just “friends,” we never went through that stage.

I saw you and started to adore you as a whole. You moved differently and carried yourself differently. You smiled this stupid crooked smile that make my stomach turn. Your would laugh so loud and those dark brown eyes would just light up.

After 4 nights talking and getting to know you I knew it was you... I knew no other person could make me feel the way you did. It was like someone created you and placed you here for me and only me.

You made me fall for you faster than I have for any human before.

We talked for hours upon hours about everything. Our lives, where we’ve been, what we’ve done, it was so honest and amazing. You made my life light up again.

After 4 weeks you told me you loved me... you made that move. You made it happen. Everyone saw what we had. This odd light between us. The way you looked at each other. The way we talked to each other. The way we were. We made each other better.

I wanted everything with you and you told me the same.

I thought you were 100% honest about everything.

I wanted to marry you every day we spent together.

Once I realized I found someone who made me exactly feel at home... I wanted everything and all with you.

I wanted to make more humans with you.

Share our outlook and develop it into more minds.

I would have gone anywhere if that meant I was able to be with you.

What we had was so special...

Or so I thought... after 4 years of what I thought was an honest amazing relationship. You walked away from me easier than anyone had before. You let me leave and kissed me goodbye. You held the door and let me leave.

After everything.

Everything giving you literally my all.

Never stopping short for you.

You lied to me the entire time.

Betrayed me for 4 years.

Let me literally spend years with someone you know I wouldn’t have, had you been honest.

You broke me down and made me build myself back up.

That is why I cannot be “your friend.”

Friends don’t do that to each other.

🐞

[desireesmind]

[desireesmind]

[desireesmind]

[desireesmind]

[desireesmind]

not mine

[thegoodvybe]

[desireesmind]

You need to know not I’m done. I’m not waiting anymore. I’m not staying up late wondering where I went wrong. Those late nights have taught me, it was never me at all. I’m not to blame for my sadness. I’m not going to sit around and wish for you any longer.

Just know this is it.

I’m cutting the cord you’re hanging on by. I’ll hold onto the memories. I’ll keep them close. I’ll remember the good from you and try my best to forget the bad.

But I’m done missing sleep and meals. I’m done giving you control over my life. This is good bye. This is it.

The door to my life is closed for you. I’ve hung out for longer than I should have. I’ve given you more control than I should have.

This is it.

You’ve lost your window to be mine.

[desireesmind]

I’m trying to erase something I thought was written in permanent marker..

-forever then never