hi, i’m sorry in advance if this post is considerably long.
i just wanted to share with you that i’m finally feeling like myself again, i’ve lost myself in the deep several times, went through the toughest times. i was always anxious during gatherings and such, i studied online for a whole year in my college because i was too afraid to interact with people, i didn’t go out much, i lost a lot of friends who couldn’t bare with me in those times. i felt like i was an outcast, like a terrible disease that everybody would run from once they know of it. it hurt, it hurt terribly, i tried to find myself again, i was in despair, it felt like i could never be happy in my life again.
that was until i decided i don’t want to be like this, i don’t want to live like this, i want to achieve all my dreams that i worked so hard for, i wanted to catch up with what i missed. i became respectful for my own happiness and inner peace, i started going out and enjoying myself alone, i bought my favourite novels, i began writing again and regained my passion, i started getting in touch again with my childhood friends, i have come so far.
the broken luna is no longer here, only this time a stronger version of her is in control, the one that if she falls down she would get back up on her feet ten times stronger, the one that vowed no one would be able to take away her happiness again. and i’m fucking proud of her and how far she’s came.
i’m saying this because yesterday, i was let down by own best friend, unexpectedly and it almost brought back the broken luna alive, she chose to dump me even and god knows how much i’ve tried to change her mind so i don’t lose her, i stepped on my own dignity for not to lose her but she has already made up her mind. she left me without an explanation. again it hurts, but like i said i wouldn’t let this bring me down.
if you see this and you’re in a smiliar position like mine, know that you’re strong, stronger than you think, you will overcome any circumstances in your life, you will find the real you and fix yourself step by step again. do not let others take away your happiness and do not give up. you’re strong and i’m so fucking proud of you, you got this and mark my words. ❤