(I tried adding these to AO3 firstāthen I realized I no know how to put picture in where words normally goā¦ so I gave up, twas pathetic, twas very quick.)
These are my fills for RetroWriMay26ās (@retrowrimay) prompts 3+12+24
Prompt 3: Gratuitous Self-Insert
Prompt 12: Daemon Fic (dƦmon??)
I numbered the doodles so that I could give a description for each. When making these fills, I thought about the questions: what animal(s) get to be a daemon? The Daemon is the soul of the human, but aside from that, what does the daemon represent? The personās passions/interests? Deepest darkest thoughts and desires? ā¦ mental heath????
These drawings are basically my answers to questions like that šš½
Here are the descriptions for each:
1: thatās a quetzal, the quetzal is a vibrant green bird with a red belly (that got a lil legend to it as to why, bathed in the blood of its enemies or the last Aztec emperor or something, I forget, donāt got my book with me so donāt ask). For this one, I was thinking of one of the questions, what does a daemon represent? Peopleās past? Culture? ā¦ preverbal trauma of what was lost before they were adopted and now might kinda be longing to reconnect with??? (Ignore that one, is a rabbit hole I have yet to save myself from.) The quetzal bird is the national bird of Guatemala, where I was born and adopted from, I do love the bird, is a cool bird. I also like music, and birds make music.. sometimes they can be annoying, but still!
2: thatās an Irish Wolfhound. Why an Irish Wolfhound? Cause I was thinking of like.. 3 things.. 1) What if the daemon represented your mental health??? Or something similar to that like your troubled thoughts or something?? 2) which follows up after 1, there was this thing I saw, once, about how this black dog, long ears, kinda lazy and weighing down on its owner by acting like it was a lap dogāthe black dog to represent depression.. I would not say I have depression, but I also wouldnāt say I donāt have it, either. I definitely got some anxiety issues, and anxiety can occasionally lead to depression.. also, 3) Irish Wolfhound, cause I was thinking of the Skyrim dogs, I like them, theyāre cool, part of me wishes I did a Basset Hound as well, but, Iām already late on my fills, I need to catch up.
3: Thatās a Chimeraā¦.. I thinkālook, the point is, why just one animal? People are complicated things, if an animal represents anythingāis that people really canāt truly be described āif I was an animal, I would be____ā I WOULD BE A SHAPESHIFTING SOMETHING OR OTHER, SO, CHIMERA! šš½ because people do be changing with time! ā¦ Also, imagine if, in this world.. all those magical/fantastical animals did existā¦ as peoplesā daemons and such.. thatād be kinda cool (if the other signs werenāt clear, this one should be the one to tell youā¦ I have not read the book, and itās been a long while since I even seen the movie so I am not aware of the ādaemon rulesā šāāļø). Also, this one would be my answer to the question, āwhat if your daemon represented your deepest, darkest thoughts/secrets/desires?ā As someone who has been considered a āgood/easy child,ā my deepest darkest thoughts (AKA: my intrusive thoughts) occasionally scare me.. took me a while to finally laugh at them, but if I saw it manifested as a daemon.. a chimera??? ā¦ yeah, I dunno, I really dunno.
4: Originally I wanted to do a classic MCU Gratuitous self-insertā¦ it was gonna be cringy (I would bet money on it, one of the cringiest), I donāt think itād be considered much of a āclassicā self-insert, cause I wasnāt gonna ship myself with anyone, I admit I was just gonna low-key kinda crash out about real world happenings and how all the superhero movies have a happy endingā¦ among other things.. anywaysāwhen thinking about a self-insert, Iām thinking about.. what would I do, in this world exactly?? Well, in the MCU, Iād spoil everything, cause I would time travel myself to a specific spot, and in this one with Daemons and suchāIād more or less just be keeping a low profile, doing some sightseeingā¦ mostly cause; there are some worlds Iād like to interfere in, and there are others I would notā¦ and others in which, if I do not know what is best, I rely on my default answer, which is always āno,ā I would be a bystander, probably contemplating staying, cause I do indeed like the idea of a daemon, one to represent me/my soul/personality or whatever.
5: (Ignore the numbers on these last two, I kinda messed up)ā¦ this is my fill for Prompt 24: Vampire AU. Why? Cause if there be witches, it stands to reason there ought to be some vampires too, right? Right??ā¦ right??? ā¦ twas a gratuitous self-insert, first, so, sorry that this is the only oneāitās Dracula from Castlevania, that one cartoon/anime something or other, š¤·š½āāļø. I donāt consider this one my fill for bizarre crossover, though, I got different plans for that one. I thought Dracula was like a badger, kinda mean-lookingā¦ but the mean-looking is not as bad as when actually trying to be meanāholy crap, that show was a bit wild. I swear I was lulled into a false sense of security more than onceā¦ After a while of thinking about it, though, I was wonderingādo vampires even have a soul???? Then I was like, screw it, Iām halfway through this doodle, and I need the fill, so. Here we are. I thought Draculaās daemon would be a badger, cause not many people like badgers (foxes occasionally team up with them, though), and I thought daemons for vampires would be like they are for witches. Able to wander far away, if they so pleaseā¦ also, Iām 100% certain Draculaās daemon would not be on board with the choices he made in the show, okay, Iām done.
6: ā¦ I donāt love my self-portrait drawing(s, especially) in this one. It was a little difficult, and honestly, I kinda wish I just gave it up, but also, I needed a better one for the daemon in doodle number 4ā¦ one of my final questions was.. āwell, if it truly must only be one, and it cannot be a chimera, what would it be, to represent me, really?ā And a north American porcupine was the answer. Why? Cause.. well.. porcupines very clearly do not want to be touched. I got an aversion to touch. š¤²š½ yāsee what I mean??? Also, that doesnāt mean a porcupine is all prickles, they got a soft belly with no quills. Then they got a special ability to produce their own medicine (donāt ask me about specifics, the memory fails me) in case they poke themselves. They lose their quills, if I remember correctly, they do indeed shed. And they can regrow and suchā¦ what Iām trying to say, is that I think they are resilient.. which is not.. exactly something I would say about myself, but.. something Iād say I try to be, at least. If this guy was my Daemon, thatās it, Iām staying in the world, no one can convince me otherwise. Thatās me, just contemplating how to start a new life with my accurate soul-defining daemon. Thatās it. (Iād more than likely stay for the Quetzal, too, but, thatās it, thatās really it, no other animal will doāexcept maybe one of the many hummingbird moths, okay Iām done.)
(Also, donāt talk to me about the inaccuracies of any of these drawings, Iām much more confident in drawing animals than I am with people, and I confess I tracedānot very wellāwith Dracula, my expertise is in doodling and definitely not people.. and the chimera was weirdly harder than I thought it would be, I blame the lion, that thingās head would not cooperate. š¤§)
