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deadnow-deactivated20250507

"what are your goals for 2025" honestly, to not kill myself but I don't wanna bring the room down lmao

flaglore

Normies would be shocked, but for a BPD, that's a basic, fundamental goal. Keep it simple, you know?

animentality

homesickfawn

if there really was someone out there, wouldn't they have helped me?

toastbutteregg

i-will-recover-tomorrow

dreaming-through-smoke

I’ve missed seeing these marks on my skin.

I’ve missed the burning and the itching

that made me feel like I was worth something.

I’ve missed the dark thoughts telling me

to go deeper, to feel more.

I’ve missed the way the red looks

against the paleness of my arm.

They’re back, and it kills me

that I want them to stay.

satansassbutt

This needs to be promoted more

depression-healthy-carrier

Having depression and anxiety is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends but hate socializing. It’s wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It feels everything at once so it’s like you numb.

sleeping-sorrows

Suddenly the only person I had left to vent to, wasn’t a person at all, it was ink on paper, no one to call. So I sit alone in my room writing letters that I’ll never send because the only friend I have left is a pen.

y0u-never-caared

Why won’t they let me leave? I just want I do the world a favor. No one needs me. All I do is hurt people. I’m annoying, I complain about everything, all I do is talk about myself. I’m just gods mistake. I break everything I touch and I want to fix it. I deserve it. I don’t deserve to be happy, I deserve pain and suffering. I deserve to die slowly and painfully with no one there to say goodbye to. I don’t deserve that kind of closure.