Calista

You’re hungry, but I’m starving.

[digitansdiaries]

COOL AWESOME DIVIDERS MADE BY @elarawandahoi !!!

About me!!!! 🎉

My names Calista! (open to nicknames) Pronouns she/her, and I’m 18. Currently single, not too interested in anyone at the moment.

I’m a bit Menhera and a little explosive….NPD, bipolar 1, PTSD, and Anxiety…but I don’t ever let that stop me! I tend to be a bit clingy and very excited when I talk to people, especially for the first time…

My DMs are always open for literally anyone! I love making new friends and interacting with people!

I guess I don’t really have a DNI…as long as we don’t make each other uncomfortable than it’s a-okay!

Likes:

Umamusume, MICO, PJO, Mythology, Lacey’s games, Imigrantes road, Bug Murders, GhostTundra, reading, DIY, crafting, beading, collecting, tea and coffee, jewelry making, Dystopian Novels, visual novels, writing, fanfiction, and a whole lot more!!!

Dislikes:

P0rn blogs, homophobes, racists….

My dearest son: @heirofailure

If any of you fucks are mean to him I’ll kill all of you with a hammer

TAG SYSTEM!!!

Original posts: PurifyMyFilthyHeart💖

My child: PreciousTelemachus<3

Reposts: YuriQueenApproved!

Freaky posts: BiteMeMore!

Yuri posting: ThisIsLove!IminWuv!

Favorite person: IntensifiedFixation<3

Targeted: HeavensLight

Rambling: DigitansPoorLittleHeart</3

Asks: SimpsAfterMyOwnHeart!

Anons: Fanstuff:p

Leaving already? Well, feel free to come back!! I’m always here!

Previous username: Thornedblossoms

Anons: 🪳

[digitansdiaries]

I wish I could just die already imso fucking pathetic. Everyone just ignores me all the fucking time the second someone better shows up. Whatever, ignore me all you fucking want I guess. Ignore everything I gave you and just walk the fuck away from me after I ripped my heart out for you just to make you happy. I’m not good enough for anyone or anything and I never will be. I hate waking up cause the second i open my eyes it jsut feels like my chest is being crushed by how terrible I feel.

And what a fucking attention seeker I am for posting this shit on here. Boohoo some bitch on the Internet is depressed again so cry and cvt yourself about it attention seeking skank. People like me don’t live past their 20’s anyway so maybe I should just blow my brains out against the ceiling and become just another statistic sob story.

[digitansdiaries]

“Ooo that’s bad for you don’t do that it’ll kill you faster”

Well obviously it’s not fucking fast enough if I’m still here

[digitansdiaries]

My existence is a humiliation ritual

[digitansdiaries]

Hallllo how are ya doin todey

🫥

Hi anon

Not good

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AGHHHHHH

Okay! Everything’s too much! I need something to fill the void!

I need more friends!

I literally don’t care about anything! I’m very nice! I will have conversations with you all the time! I’m desperate and lonely! It’s okay if you abandon me once you’re bored too cause I’m used to that as well!!!

MOOT ME UP!!!

[digitansdiaries]

Lowkey forgot how amazing cvtting felt….like seeing the blood seep out and poking at the skin…aaaghhh and the way they sting and itch after…it gives me such a rush.

[n0tpochi]

When someone says "im always there for you",

💔💔💔

[digitansdiaries]

I wish I could go deeper. Wider. I can only do like the tiniest little slicelets or else someone might see.

[musemochi]

being obsessed with someone who doesn't reciprocate that feeling is driving me insane. i'd rather someone slice me open and spill my guts than not be mutually obsessed.

[kissedbyblades]

When I see some of the sweet angels on here are only 12-14 my heart aches . . . I know I’ m only 17 (yeah yeah comfort yourself unc) but I just feel so upset and maternal because what do you mean life’ s already being so harsh on you ?!

I really hope everyone on here has an amazing morning, day & night. Especially you younger ones : (

And please, please, pleaaaseee be careful ! Especially on Tumblr . . . There’ s so many people (ehem older men) seeking out youngins to literally ruin. This is life-altering. Remember, if you ever need someone to talk to, not only problems but a simple conversation as well, I and so many others are here. Please never feel like you need to isolate yourself because you’ re a “burden”. I’ m the first person to tell you, you aren’ t and never will be a burden for seeking human interaction and attention.

I love you all so so so much.

[digitansdiaries]

Ok

I’m back

Never getting better so may as well crash out on tumblr and shit!

[digitansdiaries]

Fuck this stupid appI’m not evet comigg back here again

I’ll talk to oomfs I guess but nothing else

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Me crashing out

Trigger warning for like

Everything possible I guess I don’t even know

Everything just feels like way too much lately, I have to force myself to just get out of bed. I feel like nothings working anymore and I’m just ready to die. I keep messing up and I can’t do anything right. I feel so useless. I keep getting upset over everything and anything, no matter how small. I don’t even feel like I’m myself anymore, just some stupid piece of shit loser who doesn’t do anything right. Cause I don’t. I’m worthless as a friend and I’m nothing. Not to anyone. I can’t do anything for them so what am I even good for anymore. Nobody wants or loves me unless I can be useful in some way and now that I can’t even do that I don’t deserve love or anything.

I keep screwing up everything, my clean streak of almost 7 years, my job, my relationships. I genuinely don’t even know why I’m here anymore. I just need to man up and finally end it since I’m not good enough for anything.

My stupid ass chomo molester uncle is also back living with me so that just makes things worse. I hate being home, I hate being at work, I hate being anywhere. I don’t want to exist anymore.

I’m a chud friendless dumbass who should just throw herself off a building since I can’t provide anything to anyone anymore. No one will ever care about me like how I care about them. I’m just a tool. A tool for people to use and discard as they fucking please.

That’s all I’m good for

[digitansdiaries]

No one will evet wnat me they jsutwant the vetsion ofms fhat will help wifhs whatsvwd theywanf nosone wantsthe browksn pievses theydwanr the fake me

[digitansdiaries]

Icant fucking do thios I neds to die

[digitansdiaries]

I’ve picked a day

It’ll be like I never existed

And no one will know or miss me