Shirei Ryū @directivedragon - Tumblr Blog

( family guy death pose in mizuki's guest room. )

She walks in with a tea set- nearly dropping it when she spots him on the floor.

R-Rui??

#monster meshi #trusted soul #dead boy

alive and unwell.

( it is very clearly mentally well. clearly. mhm. it's not in dragon form fucking meme posing because of its brain at all. )

( family guy death pose in mizuki's guest room. )

#monster meshi

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That's it. That's the character.

( there's an annoyingly loud thud outside her bedroom window. and a small dog sized dragon with a suspiciously red wound on his side. just shaking and panicking. )

— @directivedragon

Huh- Jesus…! You poor thing-

She glanced around, making sure nobody else spots the dragon, as she leans over her window and picks up the creature as one may pick up a cat, pulling it into her room.

…Rui? Is that you?

( he it buried its face into her, scared. )

i fucked up, i fucked up, mizuki, she's going to hate me, i c—

She strikes the top of the dragon’s head gently.

Take a breather! I need to patch you up… and tell me what happened, from the beginning.

She spots a box peaking out from under her bed and pulls it out- it contains multiple different types of fabric.

This’ll have to do for now.

She finds the longest piece and shows it to him.

I’ll just wrap this around you like a bandage, alright?

( he carefully shifted his form back to his human one, nodding. )

w-nene and i ended up g-going looking for th-that creepy group... ma-malum ran off an-and...

( a shaky breath in. )

s-some of the monsters must h-have gone rogue. t-tried to hurt nene. she got separated from me an-and i had to show my scales... pulled my wings and tail out to find her faster...

sh-she knows. she know i've been lying to her since we met... she knows i'm not human... she looked so scared and mad an...

She presses her finger to his lips, to silence him.

You’re assuming stuff…

She hesitates.

Not exactly the same, but… there’s been instances at work that people stare at me, and whisper. Their smirks… I can’t help but think, ‘Oh, they can tell. They’re gossiping about what a freak I am’. But then they come over- and instead, ask where I got my dress from.

The point I’m getting at… you can’t tell what someone is thinking. You can assume, but assumptions are not reality. And when it’s a bond that has been developed over years… it takes more than a day for it to fall apart.

Either way… I know she’s worried about you. She texted me explaining her side, and she seems to still care.

but what if sh—

( he held his head tightly, before sitting up with a tired expression. )

⠀⠀ he can panic away from where control of the body is. how are we supposed to handle the pain if we're tense...

⠀⠀ ah. right. nice to meet you, mi— er. akiyama-san.

Huh…!

She jumps back a little, surprised at first by the sudden shift, before shifting back to a calm composure.

Nice to meet you as well. I don’t think I’ve heard about you? Well, I don’t need to introduce myself at least

⠀⠀ not too surprised. you know how rui always talked about this voice in his head? that was me. he's got golden dragon genes, so unfortunately i'm here. though i admit i've been very rude to him trying to get him to let me take over so he can relax a bit...

⠀⠀ the name is kaminari, she/her. i'm... trying to be better. not quite sure how it's going.

I see- well, if you try not to get yourself into trouble… I have no reason to distrust you.

She extends her hand, for a handshake.

If you do something that hurts you, and him by extension though, I won’t forgive you.

⠀⠀ justified, given i was a source for a lot of his. negative desires.

( she shook her hand )

⠀⠀ you said something about kusanagi texting you...? about how long do i have to calm him down?

Ah, right…! Nene… I let them know I’ll message when they can come. But they could easily come here themselves… so I can’t really give an estimate.

#monster meshi #dead boy #trusted soul

⠀⠀ i see. tell her tomorrow then. maybe i can calm him down by then.

The pink-haired woman is peeking from under the doorframe, and yet, seeing Rui sad, she immediately tries to comfort him.

... Rui-san? Are you... Doing alright?

@listening-from-the-inside

( it's once more sitting in a nest of blankets in dragon form, though its far... smaller than what a dragon probably should be. about the size or a german shepherd. golden eyes flick up to the source of the voice, before its whole head shifts to look away. )

. . . luka-san.

. . .

i'm. . .

no. . .

She falls into her heels, and immediately goes up against it.

... Would you want to talk about it? I'm... I'm here to listen.

( it's... far more than quiet than the last time she met with it. barely responsive. )

. . . mm . . .

R- Rui-san? What happened? I- I'm... Worried for you...

nene knows i'm a dragon now. mizuki says she's worried and doesn't hate me but...

( a half-sigh. )

maybe i should just turn myself into the hunter guild...

NO.

... Very strict.

Turning yourself into the hunter guild is basically just throwing your entire life away. I don't know a lot about Kusanagi-san, but from what I've heard about her, she could literally never hate you. you're one of the things that mean the most to her.

... I promise, it will turn out alright.

. . .

( no reply. almost like its ignoring what was said. )

... Listen, I know this may all seem like bullshit through and through, but... I've heard of how much she cares.

... You don't have to answer if you wouldn't like to, but just... Please try to realize that she cares for you.

( . . . its eyes shift again to glance at luka. )

Luka tilts her head curiously, in a friendly manner.

( . . . it's so tired... emotionally. eyes once more move to stare off into the distance. )

... If only to help him.

... Would a hug help, even if just a bit...?

i can't stop you...

You can if you don't want to...

what i want would just hurt everyone.

... Well then, what is it that you want...?

to disappear like i never existed to begin with...

A long silence, and then a slight sigh coming from Luka.

... I get it, I won't lie. I really do. I've hurt so many people that I'll never see again. Sometimes it feels like it'd be better to just stop.

... But I do think that staying is worth it. For the few people that care about you. You can expand that circle further, too. And who knows... Maybe you'll meet some old friends along the way, wishing to reconcile.

... A short silence.

Ah, god, damn it, I'm not good at this sentimental bullshit...

mm...

Point is, people still care about you, and even if it seems hopeless right now... It will get better. I can promise you that.

and i'm supposed to take the advice of someone who won't listen to that themselves?

( a sharp tone. it's eyes very weakly glaring without the head shifting at all. it doesn't want advice about how to handle things, it doesn't want to be sympathised with to get an opinion. and based on the conversation, it can infer luka is trying to speak from experience. )

isn't that a laugh.

Yes, you should. I'm way too far gone for that advice to work, but... You still have your chance. She could never hate you.

... They do hate me. I have nothing to do about it.

if i can't know that she doesn't hate me, how the hell do you know they hate you?

( the dragon's head whipped around, a growl falling out of its muzzle. )

news flash, not everyone can be as sure and confident about that sort of thing. everyone keeps saying she doesn't hate me but i don't fucking know that!

( the growl became smoggy. )

you don't even know nene, so how the hell would you even be able to talk about her? about me? you don't know us, you don't get to talk like you do!

maybe start using your brain before you talk. could help you fucking understand to stay out of business that you have no reason to get into. now leave me the fuck alone.

( it snarled, moving to the far end of the room and curling up on the hardwood floor. the air behind and around it static filled and shocking. it really didn't mean to be mean, to snap and lash out. it was just in pain. both mentally and physically. and it already felt bad for doing so. but it didn't apologise or turn to face luka at all, standing on its ground of trying to avoid help. )

... I'm sorry. All I wanted was to try and help.

i said leave me alone.

( another snarl, this time the air of the room filling with static. )

... Alright.

... I still will be here in you'd need me. As long as you'd need help, I'll be here.

( it curled up, laying its tail over its muzzle. )

She goes to the door, throwing a concerned look at him before leaving.

The pink-haired woman is peeking from under the doorframe, and yet, seeing Rui sad, she immediately tries to comfort him.

... Rui-san? Are you... Doing alright?

@listening-from-the-inside

( it's once more sitting in a nest of blankets in dragon form, though its far... smaller than what a dragon probably should be. about the size or a german shepherd. golden eyes flick up to the source of the voice, before its whole head shifts to look away. )

. . . luka-san.

. . .

i'm. . .

no. . .

She falls into her heels, and immediately goes up against it.

... Would you want to talk about it? I'm... I'm here to listen.

( it's... far more than quiet than the last time she met with it. barely responsive. )

. . . mm . . .

R- Rui-san? What happened? I- I'm... Worried for you...

nene knows i'm a dragon now. mizuki says she's worried and doesn't hate me but...

( a half-sigh. )

maybe i should just turn myself into the hunter guild...

NO.

... Very strict.

Turning yourself into the hunter guild is basically just throwing your entire life away. I don't know a lot about Kusanagi-san, but from what I've heard about her, she could literally never hate you. you're one of the things that mean the most to her.

... I promise, it will turn out alright.

. . .

( no reply. almost like its ignoring what was said. )

... Listen, I know this may all seem like bullshit through and through, but... I've heard of how much she cares.

... You don't have to answer if you wouldn't like to, but just... Please try to realize that she cares for you.

( . . . its eyes shift again to glance at luka. )

Luka tilts her head curiously, in a friendly manner.

( . . . it's so tired... emotionally. eyes once more move to stare off into the distance. )

... If only to help him.

... Would a hug help, even if just a bit...?

i can't stop you...

You can if you don't want to...

what i want would just hurt everyone.

... Well then, what is it that you want...?

to disappear like i never existed to begin with...

A long silence, and then a slight sigh coming from Luka.

... I get it, I won't lie. I really do. I've hurt so many people that I'll never see again. Sometimes it feels like it'd be better to just stop.

... But I do think that staying is worth it. For the few people that care about you. You can expand that circle further, too. And who knows... Maybe you'll meet some old friends along the way, wishing to reconcile.

... A short silence.

Ah, god, damn it, I'm not good at this sentimental bullshit...

mm...

Point is, people still care about you, and even if it seems hopeless right now... It will get better. I can promise you that.

and i'm supposed to take the advice of someone who won't listen to that themselves?

( a sharp tone. it's eyes very weakly glaring without the head shifting at all. it doesn't want advice about how to handle things, it doesn't want to be sympathised with to get an opinion. and based on the conversation, it can infer luka is trying to speak from experience. )

isn't that a laugh.

Yes, you should. I'm way too far gone for that advice to work, but... You still have your chance. She could never hate you.

... They do hate me. I have nothing to do about it.

if i can't know that she doesn't hate me, how the hell do you know they hate you?

( the dragon's head whipped around, a growl falling out of its muzzle. )

news flash, not everyone can be as sure and confident about that sort of thing. everyone keeps saying she doesn't hate me but i don't fucking know that!

( the growl became smoggy. )

you don't even know nene, so how the hell would you even be able to talk about her? about me? you don't know us, you don't get to talk like you do!

maybe start using your brain before you talk. could help you fucking understand to stay out of business that you have no reason to get into. now leave me the fuck alone.

( it snarled, moving to the far end of the room and curling up on the hardwood floor. the air behind and around it static filled and shocking. it really didn't mean to be mean, to snap and lash out. it was just in pain. both mentally and physically. and it already felt bad for doing so. but it didn't apologise or turn to face luka at all, standing on its ground of trying to avoid help. )

... I'm sorry. All I wanted was to try and help.

i said leave me alone.

( another snarl, this time the air of the room filling with static. )

... Alright.

... I still will be here in you'd need me. As long as you'd need help, I'll be here.

( it curled up, laying its tail over its muzzle. )

The pink-haired woman is peeking from under the doorframe, and yet, seeing Rui sad, she immediately tries to comfort him.

... Rui-san? Are you... Doing alright?

@listening-from-the-inside

( it's once more sitting in a nest of blankets in dragon form, though its far... smaller than what a dragon probably should be. about the size or a german shepherd. golden eyes flick up to the source of the voice, before its whole head shifts to look away. )

. . . luka-san.

. . .

i'm. . .

no. . .

She falls into her heels, and immediately goes up against it.

... Would you want to talk about it? I'm... I'm here to listen.

( it's... far more than quiet than the last time she met with it. barely responsive. )

. . . mm . . .

R- Rui-san? What happened? I- I'm... Worried for you...

nene knows i'm a dragon now. mizuki says she's worried and doesn't hate me but...

( a half-sigh. )

maybe i should just turn myself into the hunter guild...

NO.

... Very strict.

Turning yourself into the hunter guild is basically just throwing your entire life away. I don't know a lot about Kusanagi-san, but from what I've heard about her, she could literally never hate you. you're one of the things that mean the most to her.

... I promise, it will turn out alright.

. . .

( no reply. almost like its ignoring what was said. )

... Listen, I know this may all seem like bullshit through and through, but... I've heard of how much she cares.

... You don't have to answer if you wouldn't like to, but just... Please try to realize that she cares for you.

( . . . its eyes shift again to glance at luka. )

Luka tilts her head curiously, in a friendly manner.

( . . . it's so tired... emotionally. eyes once more move to stare off into the distance. )

... If only to help him.

... Would a hug help, even if just a bit...?

i can't stop you...

You can if you don't want to...

what i want would just hurt everyone.

... Well then, what is it that you want...?

to disappear like i never existed to begin with...

A long silence, and then a slight sigh coming from Luka.

... I get it, I won't lie. I really do. I've hurt so many people that I'll never see again. Sometimes it feels like it'd be better to just stop.

... But I do think that staying is worth it. For the few people that care about you. You can expand that circle further, too. And who knows... Maybe you'll meet some old friends along the way, wishing to reconcile.

... A short silence.

Ah, god, damn it, I'm not good at this sentimental bullshit...

mm...

Point is, people still care about you, and even if it seems hopeless right now... It will get better. I can promise you that.

and i'm supposed to take the advice of someone who won't listen to that themselves?

( a sharp tone. it's eyes very weakly glaring without the head shifting at all. it doesn't want advice about how to handle things, it doesn't want to be sympathised with to get an opinion. and based on the conversation, it can infer luka is trying to speak from experience. )

isn't that a laugh.

Yes, you should. I'm way too far gone for that advice to work, but... You still have your chance. She could never hate you.

... They do hate me. I have nothing to do about it.

if i can't know that she doesn't hate me, how the hell do you know they hate you?

( the dragon's head whipped around, a growl falling out of its muzzle. )

news flash, not everyone can be as sure and confident about that sort of thing. everyone keeps saying she doesn't hate me but i don't fucking know that!

( the growl became smoggy. )

you don't even know nene, so how the hell would you even be able to talk about her? about me? you don't know us, you don't get to talk like you do!

maybe start using your brain before you talk. could help you fucking understand to stay out of business that you have no reason to get into. now leave me the fuck alone.

( it snarled, moving to the far end of the room and curling up on the hardwood floor. the air behind and around it static filled and shocking. it really didn't mean to be mean, to snap and lash out. it was just in pain. both mentally and physically. and it already felt bad for doing so. but it didn't apologise or turn to face luka at all, standing on its ground of trying to avoid help. )

... I'm sorry. All I wanted was to try and help.

i said leave me alone.

( another snarl, this time the air of the room filling with static. )

The pink-haired woman is peeking from under the doorframe, and yet, seeing Rui sad, she immediately tries to comfort him.

... Rui-san? Are you... Doing alright?

@listening-from-the-inside

( it's once more sitting in a nest of blankets in dragon form, though its far... smaller than what a dragon probably should be. about the size or a german shepherd. golden eyes flick up to the source of the voice, before its whole head shifts to look away. )

. . . luka-san.

. . .

i'm. . .

no. . .

She falls into her heels, and immediately goes up against it.

... Would you want to talk about it? I'm... I'm here to listen.

( it's... far more than quiet than the last time she met with it. barely responsive. )

. . . mm . . .

R- Rui-san? What happened? I- I'm... Worried for you...

nene knows i'm a dragon now. mizuki says she's worried and doesn't hate me but...

( a half-sigh. )

maybe i should just turn myself into the hunter guild...

NO.

... Very strict.

Turning yourself into the hunter guild is basically just throwing your entire life away. I don't know a lot about Kusanagi-san, but from what I've heard about her, she could literally never hate you. you're one of the things that mean the most to her.

... I promise, it will turn out alright.

. . .

( no reply. almost like its ignoring what was said. )

... Listen, I know this may all seem like bullshit through and through, but... I've heard of how much she cares.

... You don't have to answer if you wouldn't like to, but just... Please try to realize that she cares for you.

( . . . its eyes shift again to glance at luka. )

Luka tilts her head curiously, in a friendly manner.

( . . . it's so tired... emotionally. eyes once more move to stare off into the distance. )

... If only to help him.

... Would a hug help, even if just a bit...?

i can't stop you...

You can if you don't want to...

what i want would just hurt everyone.

... Well then, what is it that you want...?

to disappear like i never existed to begin with...

A long silence, and then a slight sigh coming from Luka.

... I get it, I won't lie. I really do. I've hurt so many people that I'll never see again. Sometimes it feels like it'd be better to just stop.

... But I do think that staying is worth it. For the few people that care about you. You can expand that circle further, too. And who knows... Maybe you'll meet some old friends along the way, wishing to reconcile.

... A short silence.

Ah, god, damn it, I'm not good at this sentimental bullshit...

mm...

Point is, people still care about you, and even if it seems hopeless right now... It will get better. I can promise you that.

and i'm supposed to take the advice of someone who won't listen to that themselves?

( a sharp tone. it's eyes very weakly glaring without the head shifting at all. it doesn't want advice about how to handle things, it doesn't want to be sympathised with to get an opinion. and based on the conversation, it can infer luka is trying to speak from experience. )

isn't that a laugh.

Yes, you should. I'm way too far gone for that advice to work, but... You still have your chance. She could never hate you.

... They do hate me. I have nothing to do about it.

if i can't know that she doesn't hate me, how the hell do you know they hate you?

( the dragon's head whipped around, a growl falling out of its muzzle. )

news flash, not everyone can be as sure and confident about that sort of thing. everyone keeps saying she doesn't hate me but i don't fucking know that!

( the growl became smoggy. )

you don't even know nene, so how the hell would you even be able to talk about her? about me? you don't know us, you don't get to talk like you do!

maybe start using your brain before you talk. could help you fucking understand to stay out of business that you have no reason to get into. now leave me the fuck alone.

( it snarled, moving to the far end of the room and curling up on the hardwood floor. the air behind and around it static filled and shocking. it really didn't mean to be mean, to snap and lash out. it was just in pain. both mentally and physically. and it already felt bad for doing so. but it didn't apologise or turn to face luka at all, standing on its ground of trying to avoid help. )

The pink-haired woman is peeking from under the doorframe, and yet, seeing Rui sad, she immediately tries to comfort him.

... Rui-san? Are you... Doing alright?

@listening-from-the-inside

( it's once more sitting in a nest of blankets in dragon form, though its far... smaller than what a dragon probably should be. about the size or a german shepherd. golden eyes flick up to the source of the voice, before its whole head shifts to look away. )

. . . luka-san.

. . .

i'm. . .

no. . .

She falls into her heels, and immediately goes up against it.

... Would you want to talk about it? I'm... I'm here to listen.

( it's... far more than quiet than the last time she met with it. barely responsive. )

. . . mm . . .

R- Rui-san? What happened? I- I'm... Worried for you...

nene knows i'm a dragon now. mizuki says she's worried and doesn't hate me but...

( a half-sigh. )

maybe i should just turn myself into the hunter guild...

NO.

... Very strict.

Turning yourself into the hunter guild is basically just throwing your entire life away. I don't know a lot about Kusanagi-san, but from what I've heard about her, she could literally never hate you. you're one of the things that mean the most to her.

... I promise, it will turn out alright.

. . .

( no reply. almost like its ignoring what was said. )

... Listen, I know this may all seem like bullshit through and through, but... I've heard of how much she cares.

... You don't have to answer if you wouldn't like to, but just... Please try to realize that she cares for you.

( . . . its eyes shift again to glance at luka. )

Luka tilts her head curiously, in a friendly manner.

( . . . it's so tired... emotionally. eyes once more move to stare off into the distance. )

... If only to help him.

... Would a hug help, even if just a bit...?

i can't stop you...

You can if you don't want to...

what i want would just hurt everyone.

... Well then, what is it that you want...?

to disappear like i never existed to begin with...

A long silence, and then a slight sigh coming from Luka.

... I get it, I won't lie. I really do. I've hurt so many people that I'll never see again. Sometimes it feels like it'd be better to just stop.

... But I do think that staying is worth it. For the few people that care about you. You can expand that circle further, too. And who knows... Maybe you'll meet some old friends along the way, wishing to reconcile.

... A short silence.

Ah, god, damn it, I'm not good at this sentimental bullshit...

mm...

Point is, people still care about you, and even if it seems hopeless right now... It will get better. I can promise you that.

and i'm supposed to take the advice of someone who won't listen to that themselves?

( a sharp tone. it's eyes very weakly glaring without the head shifting at all. it doesn't want advice about how to handle things, it doesn't want to be sympathised with to get an opinion. and based on the conversation, it can infer luka is trying to speak from experience. )

isn't that a laugh.

The pink-haired woman is peeking from under the doorframe, and yet, seeing Rui sad, she immediately tries to comfort him.

... Rui-san? Are you... Doing alright?

@listening-from-the-inside

( it's once more sitting in a nest of blankets in dragon form, though its far... smaller than what a dragon probably should be. about the size or a german shepherd. golden eyes flick up to the source of the voice, before its whole head shifts to look away. )

. . . luka-san.

. . .

i'm. . .

no. . .

She falls into her heels, and immediately goes up against it.

... Would you want to talk about it? I'm... I'm here to listen.

( it's... far more than quiet than the last time she met with it. barely responsive. )

. . . mm . . .

R- Rui-san? What happened? I- I'm... Worried for you...

nene knows i'm a dragon now. mizuki says she's worried and doesn't hate me but...

( a half-sigh. )

maybe i should just turn myself into the hunter guild...

NO.

... Very strict.

Turning yourself into the hunter guild is basically just throwing your entire life away. I don't know a lot about Kusanagi-san, but from what I've heard about her, she could literally never hate you. you're one of the things that mean the most to her.

... I promise, it will turn out alright.

. . .

( no reply. almost like its ignoring what was said. )

... Listen, I know this may all seem like bullshit through and through, but... I've heard of how much she cares.

... You don't have to answer if you wouldn't like to, but just... Please try to realize that she cares for you.

( . . . its eyes shift again to glance at luka. )

Luka tilts her head curiously, in a friendly manner.

( . . . it's so tired... emotionally. eyes once more move to stare off into the distance. )

... If only to help him.

... Would a hug help, even if just a bit...?

i can't stop you...

You can if you don't want to...

what i want would just hurt everyone.

... Well then, what is it that you want...?

to disappear like i never existed to begin with...

A long silence, and then a slight sigh coming from Luka.

... I get it, I won't lie. I really do. I've hurt so many people that I'll never see again. Sometimes it feels like it'd be better to just stop.

... But I do think that staying is worth it. For the few people that care about you. You can expand that circle further, too. And who knows... Maybe you'll meet some old friends along the way, wishing to reconcile.

... A short silence.

Ah, god, damn it, I'm not good at this sentimental bullshit...

mm...

The pink-haired woman is peeking from under the doorframe, and yet, seeing Rui sad, she immediately tries to comfort him.

... Rui-san? Are you... Doing alright?

@listening-from-the-inside

( it's once more sitting in a nest of blankets in dragon form, though its far... smaller than what a dragon probably should be. about the size or a german shepherd. golden eyes flick up to the source of the voice, before its whole head shifts to look away. )

. . . luka-san.

. . .

i'm. . .

no. . .

She falls into her heels, and immediately goes up against it.

... Would you want to talk about it? I'm... I'm here to listen.

( it's... far more than quiet than the last time she met with it. barely responsive. )

. . . mm . . .

R- Rui-san? What happened? I- I'm... Worried for you...

nene knows i'm a dragon now. mizuki says she's worried and doesn't hate me but...

( a half-sigh. )

maybe i should just turn myself into the hunter guild...

NO.

... Very strict.

Turning yourself into the hunter guild is basically just throwing your entire life away. I don't know a lot about Kusanagi-san, but from what I've heard about her, she could literally never hate you. you're one of the things that mean the most to her.

... I promise, it will turn out alright.

. . .

( no reply. almost like its ignoring what was said. )

... Listen, I know this may all seem like bullshit through and through, but... I've heard of how much she cares.

... You don't have to answer if you wouldn't like to, but just... Please try to realize that she cares for you.

( . . . its eyes shift again to glance at luka. )

Luka tilts her head curiously, in a friendly manner.

( . . . it's so tired... emotionally. eyes once more move to stare off into the distance. )

... If only to help him.

... Would a hug help, even if just a bit...?

i can't stop you...

You can if you don't want to...

what i want would just hurt everyone.

... Well then, what is it that you want...?

to disappear like i never existed to begin with...

>> so you don't mean to.

>> nene's smart, isn't she? i think she'll understand. but only if you go talk to her about it.

>> give yourself some time, though

>> don't rush it

>> that'll just get you more stressed

i...

grrr...

what do you know anyway?! you don't know how much it hurt to lie to her! you don't know how much it hurt to see her scared!

even if she does care still and doesn't hate me, aoyagi-kun is supposed to hunt me! and if he doesn't, they'll send someone more equipped! i've been caught before, i won't be able to escape a second time!! all i'm good for it hurting others, so how about you mind your own business for once!

( it's hiding away under the bed now. shaking. )

#monster meshi #showtime

The pink-haired woman is peeking from under the doorframe, and yet, seeing Rui sad, she immediately tries to comfort him.

... Rui-san? Are you... Doing alright?

@listening-from-the-inside

( it's once more sitting in a nest of blankets in dragon form, though its far... smaller than what a dragon probably should be. about the size or a german shepherd. golden eyes flick up to the source of the voice, before its whole head shifts to look away. )

. . . luka-san.

. . .

i'm. . .

no. . .

She falls into her heels, and immediately goes up against it.

... Would you want to talk about it? I'm... I'm here to listen.

( it's... far more than quiet than the last time she met with it. barely responsive. )

. . . mm . . .

R- Rui-san? What happened? I- I'm... Worried for you...

nene knows i'm a dragon now. mizuki says she's worried and doesn't hate me but...

( a half-sigh. )

maybe i should just turn myself into the hunter guild...

NO.

... Very strict.

Turning yourself into the hunter guild is basically just throwing your entire life away. I don't know a lot about Kusanagi-san, but from what I've heard about her, she could literally never hate you. you're one of the things that mean the most to her.

... I promise, it will turn out alright.

. . .

( no reply. almost like its ignoring what was said. )

... Listen, I know this may all seem like bullshit through and through, but... I've heard of how much she cares.

... You don't have to answer if you wouldn't like to, but just... Please try to realize that she cares for you.

( . . . its eyes shift again to glance at luka. )

Luka tilts her head curiously, in a friendly manner.

( . . . it's so tired... emotionally. eyes once more move to stare off into the distance. )

... If only to help him.

... Would a hug help, even if just a bit...?

i can't stop you...

You can if you don't want to...

what i want would just hurt everyone.

The pink-haired woman is peeking from under the doorframe, and yet, seeing Rui sad, she immediately tries to comfort him.

... Rui-san? Are you... Doing alright?

@listening-from-the-inside

( it's once more sitting in a nest of blankets in dragon form, though its far... smaller than what a dragon probably should be. about the size or a german shepherd. golden eyes flick up to the source of the voice, before its whole head shifts to look away. )

. . . luka-san.

. . .

i'm. . .

no. . .

She falls into her heels, and immediately goes up against it.

... Would you want to talk about it? I'm... I'm here to listen.

( it's... far more than quiet than the last time she met with it. barely responsive. )

. . . mm . . .

R- Rui-san? What happened? I- I'm... Worried for you...

nene knows i'm a dragon now. mizuki says she's worried and doesn't hate me but...

( a half-sigh. )

maybe i should just turn myself into the hunter guild...

NO.

... Very strict.

Turning yourself into the hunter guild is basically just throwing your entire life away. I don't know a lot about Kusanagi-san, but from what I've heard about her, she could literally never hate you. you're one of the things that mean the most to her.

... I promise, it will turn out alright.

. . .

( no reply. almost like its ignoring what was said. )

... Listen, I know this may all seem like bullshit through and through, but... I've heard of how much she cares.

... You don't have to answer if you wouldn't like to, but just... Please try to realize that she cares for you.

( . . . its eyes shift again to glance at luka. )

Luka tilts her head curiously, in a friendly manner.