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New Blog

I have set up a new recovery blog - one that focuses on my own recovery with two different anxiety disorders and how I’ve recovered from my eating disorder.

Link is here.

I also have a WordPress, which is where I have been spending most of my time these days, so please can you also check that out here.

I’ll be following back all non-triggering blogs.

New Blog

I have set up a new recovery blog - one that focuses on my own recovery with two different anxiety disorders and how I've recovered from my eating disorder.

Link is here.

I also have a WordPress, which is where I have been spending most of my time these days, so please can you also check that out here.

I’ll be following back all non-triggering blogs.

New Start. New Me. New Blog.

It has been a long time since I logged in.

It’s been a long time since I posted anything.

I’m doing well. I have my life in a place that I’m quite content with... finally!

My goal now is to inspire, motiviate, support, and encourage people - as many people as possible - to recovery; to get them to a place where they feel content, happy, and peaceful for where they are in life.

I have created a new tumblr - attackingthisanxiety (link here) because I feel like I cannot do that with this blog. I’m not the same person I was when I created this one. I was seventeen then. I’m twenty-two now. I’m a different person - a better person. My new blog is (hopefully) inspiring and educational (well it will be once I get it started properly). It’s linked in with my wordpress - attackingthisanxiety (link for that is here), which is where I have been spending most of my time lately, and that blog seems to be doing quite well when I think of all the responses I have had.

Anyway, please feel free to follow my new blog. I will be following back ALL inspirational/positive/recovery blogs (I’m sorry, but in order for me to stay in the place that I am, I will not consider anything remotely triggering - it’s for my own health and safety that I’m doing it)

Much love to you all.

Goodbye...

I have had this blog since I was seventeen. I'm now twenty-one.

I am a completely different person. I have suffered and screamed and cried until I could no longer speak, only gasps of air, unable to breathe; and I have hoped and dreamed and laughed until tears streamed down my face and I could no longer breathe from the joy of it all.

I have fallen in love. I have grown up.

Looking back over the past year and all the times I was struggling deeply, trying to remain in touch with who I am as a person, and provide myself with a constant reminder of all the things that make me see my life as worth living with a purpose, and I realised those times were in connection to the time I spent on this blog.

It no longer serves a purpose to me. I see the pictures of people recovering, from buying new clothes to fit their recovered bodies to struggling to find clothes to fit their sick bodies; the selfies with healthy glows and the ones with sunken in cheeks and weary eyes. I am so incredibly proud of everyone who has ever attempted and achieved recovery - you are so deserving and courageous. Perhaps you don't even see it. But the sad truth is that it triggers me. Both the good and the not so good. I compare myself to those people who have recovered and wonder why I haven't been able to feel that at ease with myself, then I compare myself to the other end of the spectrum and wonder why I'm not that sick again, not that thin... It's unhealthy. It's damaging to my mental, physical, and emotional health. I feel happier, more at ease, and comfortable surrounded by friends and family and people who are going to build me up. I am not 100% recovered. I am not even close to that, but I know that being around on Tumblr in the recovery community will not serve any purpose other than to destroy the best parts of me. It helped in the beginning, but now this blog is nothing more than damaged goods.

I wish you all the best in your recovery - keep fighting, keep going, and keep believing in yourself, because you're worth the world, and the only person who doesn't see it is yourself.

flxrs

My body knows its natural shape and fighting against it isn’t healthy and, ultimately, could never make me as happy as self-acceptance will.

extract from my journal, 14/12/15 (via flxrs)

zahraaxix

rjamme

whispers-of-the-rain

Reasons why you are beautiful:

You are beautiful because you are you.

You don’t need any reason.

prostheticfortheamputatedspirit

wildwritings

“Looking after yourself” isn’t always getting up at 6am to run 10 kilometres and then eating kale for breakfast. Sometimes looking after yourself is as simple as brushing your teeth and washing your hair. Sometimes it just boils down to getting out of bed and changing your knickers. (even if you do put your three week old pyjamas back on top.)

“Lessons I wish I learnt sooner” R.R-P (via her0inchic)