Discovering Myself

I want to be able to express my true self with no reguards to others expectations of me. Truthfully, I want to learn to love myself for who I am. 

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JIMIN ‘봄날’ teaser

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About a year ago I went through one of the toughest battles of my life. I found out I had a disease that was hurting me from the inside. Too little, too late the doctors recommended emergency surgery. They had found a tumor in my body that was too big to ignore. Going through surgery put me and my family through so much stress. Trying to hide my fear I held it in as much as I could, but the day before surgery my eyes were full of tears and puffy. Due to the stress, I decided to only tell my parents and siblings about my health condition. I didn't want to put my family through so much burden and kept everything to myself. Cancer, Death, misfortune, were all things my family had been fighting through last year. Unfortunately, my mother told my uncle about my surgery and then it spread like a wildfire within my family circle. Before surgery my family surprised me by showing up and supported me with prayers. My faith was being tested and I needed a little support. I couldn't grasp everything that was going on. It was all a blur and I can't remember most of it. Thinking to myself, I kept asking why me? Why did it happen to me? Again? I've been sick all my life and I'm back in a hospital room. All I remember is crying most of the time and being upset. To be continued….

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So my experience begins with me saying, "Holly Crap,"I still can't even believe I saw my Bias group live. The emotions I had that day were ridiculous. The best part was that I got to spend it with my brother and sister. The one thing I was very bummed about was that my Bias Kai wasn't going to be there to, due to Visa issues. I actually feel special that Dallas was the first show because now I can say I was apart of the first people to see EXO in North America. The line to get into the venue was crazy chaotic and no one knew where to go but we made it in on time. It worked out in the end, due to the show running late. Also, I made a new best friend here on KA and I met her right before the concert. We were waiting in line and we ended up being in the same area. Adriana is one of the coolest chicks I've met from KA so far. She was very sweet and so beautiful Okay so from this moment on my fan-girl will pop out.....embrace it lol Super happy that I finally was able to be apart of an Ocean. It was beautiful. When EXO first came out it was like the doors of Heaven opened. I wasn't in the Pit but I still had a good view. Point blank my experience was one crazy ride, but one of the best days of my life so far. I made a lot of new friends, got to be apart of an ocean and lost my voice due to all the screaming and singing. If you made it this far Thanks for reading post.

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When I first heard about the Show coming back my heart was pounding with excitement. Happiness spread through my body and all I could do was scream with Joy. I remember running to my brother’s room and telling him all the details. The two of us are some real hardcore fans of the TV series.  We grew up watching the series with my mother and have fallen in love with the babbling skills of our favorites characters. How can you not admire those skills? It could have been annoying to some, but the amount of effort that is out in is genesis in my opinion. I believe that the fast-paced babbling skills gives the show its, “PIZZAZZ.” 

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If you have seen the movie, “Spirited Away” then you would definitely know where this art work is from. 

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JAYYY

its actually such a joke that jay park isnt nominated for any MAMA awards……he deserves it for how much work he puts in to everything….

we need to create a new award for him or something lol

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#preach

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This peace of art gave me an unwanted feeling in my heart. The girl in the picture is Hae Soo from the Korean drama, “Scarlet Heart Ryeo.” The final episode was one of the most heartbreaking endings I have seen so far in a Korean Drama. If the fact, that Hae Soo has a daughter isn’t shocking enough we all have to see her die without any happiness. . 

Something I predicted from the beginning of this series wasn’t far from what I had in mind. After, Hae Soo dies in the past she returns to the modern day Seoul. Watching Hae Soo remember everything at the end of the episode was hard to swallow and not what I wanted to see.  With her distress, she was having a meltdown for leaving her true love all alone in the past. 

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