wishful thinking
pairing: steve harrington x fem!reader
word count: 3.4k
18+ smut mdni protected p in v sex (yay!), unprotected p in v sex (donât do this), fem masturbation, dirty talk.
a/n: two of my favorite tropes (friends with benefits to lovers, unrequited requited love) with my favorite character (steve!) i hope you like it if you read!!Â
The beamer sits at the edge of Loverâs Lake. Steve pulls you back into him from your hips. Each thrust jolts you forward. He leans over to put an arm around the front of you. You feel his bicep curl around your throat. Pulling you up against his chest.Â
Your hand fumbles against the door. A foggy imprint of your hand is left behind on the humid glass.Â
âDoing so good for me. Taking it so well.â Steve mumbles praises against the shell of your ear. His breath tickles. You turn your head to capture his lips. The hand gripping the side door comes up to tangle in his hair. Itâs difficult in this position, but you manage a disorganized, chaotic kiss. Steve takes your bottom lip between his teeth, tugging lightly, before pulling away. You whimper at the action. Bringing his hand down, he pulls the top of your dress down. His fingers run over your sensitive nipple. Soft lips press against the back of your neck. Itâs a stark difference to the rough thrusts of his hips. He pushes in and out of you quickly. The drag of him inside you makes pressure rise in your body. The tip of him is hitting so far inside you, itâs like you can feel him in your stomach. The sounds falling from his pink lips make your head spin.Â
His arm drops from its position around your shoulders. He curls his hand against your thigh, dragging his nails along your skin as he pulls it under the fabric of your dress. It finally finds its place between your legs. He presses on your clit, rubbing it in broad strokes. Your hand flies down to his wrist, gripping it. Youâre not sure whether to push his hand away or bring it closer. The influx of sensations is bordering on overstimulation. You gasp and throw your head back onto Steveâs shoulder. He fits his face into the crook of your neck.Â
Steve coos at you. âShh, itâs okay, baby. You can take it. Be a good girl, for me.â He lessens his thrusts, dragging his hips back slowly. Itâs torturous. You try to push yourself back onto him, but he holds your hips in place.Â
You whine at him. âSteve, come on. We donât have much time. Everyone is waiting.â The huff of your words displays your irritation.Â
âYouâre so bossy, you know that?âÂ
Your rebuttals die on your tongue as he picks up his pace again. He drags along inside of you. Itâs not long before you feel your orgasm building back up. Steveâs little huffs and whines against your cheek, helping you further along. His fingers are back on your clit in an instant. The push of his hips becomes sloppier and less rhythmic as he also nears the edge.Â
âNeed to feel you come. Squeezing me so good. Such a good girl for me. Just mine.â Steveâs rough voice cuts through the sound of your skin meeting. The words fall from his lips so easily. Itâs hard not to let them go straight to your head.Â
âMhm. All for you, Steve.â You nod with your eyes closed. The back of your head lulls back onto his shoulder. Steve groans as though he were in pain. His fingers and hips pick up speed simultaneously. Heâs hitting a spot inside of you that makes stars dance behind your eyelids. He drags you along his cock. He presses just a bit harder on your clit and times a particularly harsh thrust into you. With that, you feel the tight band of pressure snap in your lower stomach. You gasp and lurch forward. Hips pushing back onto Steve. He follows you into the new position, his thrusts never ceasing and his hold never faltering.Â
âSo good, Oh- Fuck. There she is. I got you, baby.â Steveâs words are slurred. You feel him twitch inside of you as he continues his movements. The sensations heâs dragging from you prolong your pleasure. He pumps two more times before he stills and moans languidly. The sounds he makes as he comes are muffled into the skin of your neck.Â
All that can be heard in the car is the combination of your and Steveâs heavy breaths. He places a quick kiss on the back of your right shoulder and pushes himself up. Pulling out gently, he taps your hip. You turn around as he ties the condom off. He sets it on the ground and picks up his discarded shirt. You pick up your straps over your shoulders.Â
Steve smiles at you, and you can feel your chest tighten. Blush rises in your cheeks. He leans over you to push the car door open next to you.Â
âLadies first.â His hand brushes a stray hair out of your face. The burning in your cheeks doesnât fade as you step out into the open air. The cool night breeze feels amazing on your heated skin. Steve fumbles around getting out behind you. You can hear his light curses, and you bite your lip to suppress a giggle. You follow him as he walks around to the passengerâs side to open the door for you. You settle into your seat, and the door shuts behind you.Â
Steve sits in the driverâs seat. âAll good?â He turns to check on you.Â
You smile at him, though you can feel it doesnât reach your eyes. The confusing mix of emotions that seems to follow every moment with Steve lately settles in.Â
âYeah, letâs go. Everyoneâs probably there already.â You nod at him. He flicks on the radio. The soft sound of The Cars fills the space. He backs out of the spot and follows the path out to the main road. Nancyâs house isnât too far of a drive, and Steve made sure to stop for popcorn and some candy beforehand. A good cover for your little detour before movie night. The silence between the two of you is comfortable. He pulls up to the side of the Wheeler house. You can't help but think of how many times he had done just this when he was with Nancy. Parked in this exact spot in this exact car. Walked the same driveway up to the door. Your brow furrows as you try hard not to think of how fragile your arrangement is. Something born out of a late night and a few too many drinks. Your feelings for him sit tight at the top of your heart. It all feels so temporary in comparison to this reminder of him in a real relationship.Â
âHey, you okay?â Steveâs soft voice draws you out of your thoughts.Â
âYes. Yeah, Iâm sorry. All good.â You smile at him and go to open the door. His warm hand on your thigh stops you.Â
âYou can talk to me, you know that. Right?â He lifts his other hand to caress your face. His thumb is rubbing lightly against your cheekbone. His hazel eyes reflect the warmth he always seems to emanate. You feel yourself getting lost in them. âWeâre friends.âÂ
With those words, your feelings dull. You pull away from him and go to step out. His hand falls slowly.Â
âI know. Thank you, Steve. Iâm alright. I promise.â Your lips form a tight smile. You donât wait for his response as you shut the door and go wait for him at the edge of the driveway to walk up with you.Â
The awkwardness between the two of you is apparent. No more words are shared. At the door, you feel the back of his fingers brush yours. The touch is fleeting as the door bursts open. The pair of you are startled. Steve pulls his hand back and takes a large step away from you. You try not to let how the action affects you show on your features.Â
Robin is exasperated. âWhere were you guys? Youâre over an hour late. We were this close to sending out a search party.â Her hands grab the microwave popcorn box Steve holds.Â
Steve holds it up and away from her.Â
âHello to you, too, Robin.â Steve pushes past her into the foyer. Robin follows him, still fighting him for the box. You take a minute to gather yourself before heading inside, preparing for another night of pretending you donât know what Steve Harringtonâs lips taste like.Â
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The WSQK radio station gives you no respite from your feelings. You sit on the couch adjacent to the sound booth. Steve sits on the floor to your right. His shoulder brushes your knee lightly with every move. He chews on his sandwich as Robin recounts her latest date with Vickie. You absentmindedly curl your finger around a strand of Steveâs hair, only listening with half of your attention. You had forgotten your lunch in a rush to get out the door this morning, so you had nothing to quell the hunger in your stomach.Â
As though he could read your mind, Steve suddenly puts half of his sandwich in a napkin on your lap. He doesnât even look your direction as he turns back to take a sip of Gatorade, but the action warms your chest. You smile as you lift the sandwich to your lips and take a bite. His hand falls subtly to wrap around your ankle. Thumb stroking softly at the exposed sliver of skin.Â
These moments in between make you wonder if there could be more. You wonder about Steve taking you on dates. Telling your friends about the two of you. Holding his hand and kissing him publicly. These thoughts are all that fill your mind as you chew. Robinâs voice suddenly pulls you out of it.Â
âWhat about you, Steve? Arenât you gonna ask that girl from the cafe on another date?â Robin picks at her nail polish, not looking over to either of you.Â
Youâre sure Steve can feel the way you tense up. He yanks his hand away as if touching you burned. A lump forms in the back of your throat. Steve clears his.Â
âHm, yeah. Was just thinking about taking her to dinner.â Steve mumbles. He picks at the frayed carpet.Â
You stare at the bitten sandwich in your lap. Your appetite is gone, just as the warm feeling from Steve is. Itâs all crushed up in the pit of your stomach.Â
Standing up, you drop the sandwich back into Steveâs hands. Smiling tightly, you give him a small nod.Â
âGonna go sort some records in the back, if you guys need me.â You donât wait for a response and hurry out of the room. When you round the far corner, you press your back against the wall and look up at the ceiling. Tears threaten to spill from behind your closed eyelids. Shaking your head, you straighten. Itâs no use. Steveâs not yours. Youâre not his. Heâs made that perfectly clear. Those tender moments you hold on to are just that. Fleeting moments that stem from friendship and proximity, not romance.
The back room offers some space and comfort away from the boy who twists up your thoughts. Youâre pulling records from the boxes and sorting them. You feel his presence before you see him. Your body was so attuned to Steve, you would know him blindfolded.Â
âHey, uh, I just wanted to check if you needed any help or,â He trails off. You look up to see him rubbing his neck. You hate that he knows you were upset.Â
âNo, Iâm okay.â Reassuring him was second nature. Itâs not his fault you donât know how to take only what he offers. Knowing this doesnât stop the pain, but itâs not his pain to bear. His head bobs.Â
âDo you think I could come over tonight?â The question hangs between you two. He moves his head to try to catch your gaze. You make quick eye contact before looking away. You know exactly what he is asking. You so badly wish you had it in you to decline. To say no to him. But your mouth forms the word before your heart can catch up.Â
âYes,â Your voice catches a bit at the end.Â
âCool. Iâll come by around 8.â An awkward beat passes. âIâll uh leave you to it. Let me know if you want help.â He lingers at the door. Itâs almost as if he wants to say more, but at the last minute changes his mind.Â
The rest of the work day goes by without a hitch. You manage to avoid any awkwardness with Steve.Â
These complicated feelings for Steve sit at the forefront of your mind on your drive home. Maybe itâd be best to take a break. Youâd give it tonight, and then youâd stop. Only until you can have your brain talk some sense to your heart.Â
Steve shows up at 8 oâclock on the dot. His knock at your door makes your heart jump. His lips are on yours as soon as you open the door. Walking you backwards into the apartment, he shuts the door behind him with his foot.Â
âMissed you.â He says against your lips.
You pull back to give him a look. âItâs only been like 3 hours.âÂ
âToo long.â He takes his coat and shoes off. Pulling you back into him, heâs desperate with his kiss. He strips you of your clothes as he leads you both to the bedroom. His lips only leave yours to allow the layers to fall to the floor.Â
Gently, he lays you onto your bed. His kisses sweeter than usual. You donât think too much about it. Itâs all just wishful thinking. He finds little resistance as he presses into you. Pulling his hips back, he shallowly thrusts back into you. He moans loudly.Â
âYou feel so incredible wrapped around me. So good.â You whine at his praise. He kisses you slowly. Tongue mapping your lips and licking into your mouth.Â
Something about this feels too intimate. Too tender. Your heart beats so quickly. It feels like it wants to escape the confines of your ribs to get closer to Steve.Â
He places his forehead on yours. Sliding a hand down your thigh, he takes it at the knee to bend it towards your chest. Your hips open wider in this position, allowing him to slide deeper. Your nails run along his back. The rhythm he sets is hard and fast. The pressure is building at your core. It feels like too much and not enough.Â
The words fall from your mouth before you can stop them. Theyâre soft and slurred. âSteve, I love you.âÂ
Steve freezes instantly. His thrusts cease. Your brain finally processes what youâve just said.Â
âWhat?â Steve pulls back to look at you. His expression is a mix of disbelief and shock.Â
âI- Itâs- No, Iâm sorry. I didnât mean-â You struggle to form a sentence. This is your worst nightmare realized. Time slows as you push him off of you. He winces as he complies and pulls out. You turn, scrambling for something to cover yourself with.Â
âHey, Hey. Slow down.â Steve holds his hands up in appeasement. Heâs cautious, like any small movement would send you running out the door. Heâs not wrong in his assumption, but the softness in his tone keeps you rooted in place. You pull the covers up and over your body. Steve covers himself with the other end, keeping a small distance between the two of you.Â
You stare at your folded hands. Embarrassment burns your cheeks.Â
âDid you mean it? Or was that like a heat of the moment thing?â His question leaves you with a golden opportunity to backtrack. To tell him to forget about it. That it was nothing. But you canât bring yourself to lie. Not to him and not about this.Â
âI meant it. Iâm sorry, Steve. I know what this is. I just maybe need some space to get over it.â Youâre solemn in your delivery, still refusing to meet his gaze.Â
âHey, look at me. Please?â He steadily grasps your hands in his warm ones. Slowly, you look up at him. His hazel eyes move across your features.Â
âI love you, too.â He whispers. âLike a lot. I really love you.â He repeats, almost as if to confirm it for himself. The corners of his mouth lift into a bright smile.Â
âYou- what?â Youâd never considered this possibility. Youâd have resigned yourself to a lifetime of accepting any piece of Steve Harrington you could get.Â
âIâm in love with you. I have been for so long. Youâre my favorite person in the world. This was all so stupid. I got it backwards. I just didnât think youâd want me as more than just this.â He gestures at the space between the two of you.Â
You shake your head. âI want you. All of you. Iâve always wanted you.â Surging forward, you bring him in for a kiss. Steveâs quick to wrap his arms around your frame to bring you in closer to him.Â
âI love you.â You pull away to say. âI love you.â A kiss lands on one cheek. âI love you.â Another one lands on his other cheek.Â
His soft laugh lights up your chest. He kisses you tenderly. He holds you like something precious.Â
You feel him through the thin white sheet around his waist. Mumbling against his lips, you speak. âYouâre still hard?âÂ
âAre you kidding? Iâve got the prettiest girl ever naked in my bed telling me sheâs in love with me. How could I not be?â He cradles your face in his hands. The expression on his face is so tender, your eyes well up with tears. âIâm so lucky.âÂ
You laugh at his sweetness before pulling him down on top of you. Your kisses grow needier. Feeling drunk off his affection, you canât seem to get enough.Â
âI want you. Want you inside me.â You pant into his open mouth. Your hands are pulling at his hair.Â
âYou have me, baby. Iâll take care of you.â He assures you. His hand slides down your side. Grasping himself, he lines up and pushes in once again. You push your hips up, making him bottom out quickly. You both gasp. He resumes his quick thrusts from before. The tip of him hits deep inside you, making you moan with every move. You squeeze around him, causing Steveâs hips to stutter.Â
âIâm never gonna let you go. My best girl. I love you.â He rambles almost incoherently against the skin of your chest. âIâm so close. Can you touch yourself, baby? Please? Wanna see you. Wanna feel you come on me.â He begs with a whine. The wet sounds between the two of you grow filthier. Your hand reaches down to press on your clit. Immediately, you circle the bud with exact pressure. Steve canât tear his eyes away. The sight of you touching yourself as you take him makes his stomach pull tightly.
âMy pretty baby. Youâre such a good girl for me. You gonna come?â He looks up at you. You nod your head vigorously.Â
âYeah, gonna come. Youâre so good, Steve. Feels so good.â You babble out. Your fingers speed up on your clit as his thrusts grow rougher. A clear indication of his impending finish.Â
âCome for me. Let me feel you. Be a good girl. Come, baby.â Steveâs words shoot directly between your legs. You feel yourself fall over the edge. Your orgasm hits you. Your muscles tense as you arch into Steve. He holds you to him at the small of your back. The pulsing of your walls around him sends him following right after you. He works you through your highs. He continues to thrust until you both feel the overstimulation.Â
Pulling out of you, he rolls over. His arms pull you with him. Exhaustion takes over your body. Your skin is sweat-slicked. You nuzzle your head into the crook of his neck. His fingers trail lightly up and down your back. Both of you settle into the silence. The mess between your legs begs for a cleanup, but you canât bring yourself to move just yet. Steve presses a lingering kiss to the top of your head.Â
âI love you. I love you so much.â His warm breath ghosts over your hairline. You press a light kiss to his chest, sighing contentedly. Youâd stay here for as long as Steve wanted. Forever, if you could. Judging by the way his arms wrap around you to hold you tighter to him, you imagine he feels the same.











