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Cameron O'Rielly | Mudblood Games Competitor, Captured Innocent, and completely lost.

[fyeahefrongifsdeactivatedforgoo]

[itsjust-thebonesyoure-madeof]

I-I know you wouldn’t hurt me Cameron..I know it’s just…with saying “I love you” means… marriage, and with marriage means children…and…I was scared..because…my mom died years ago… and it ruined my dad…and my sister and… I was scared of saying I love you because I didn’t want to have to be married and have kids…and have you die because I couldn’t be ruined like my father was…not with our kids… 

[doityourselforielly]

Well me saying I love you...and you saying it back...it isn't a...contract for the rest of our lives together. I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought about it. I do love you Penny, more than you probably realize. And if that means we could spend our lives together after the war...well that would be great...but if that's not what you want, or you're unsure..it's fine. 

[itsjust-thebonesyoure-madeof]

I-I…I love you…too. I love you too…. I didn’t say it before…because I was scared….but I love you too…

[doityourselforielly]

I'm glad to hear it. I'm sorry I ran out like that..I just didnt know what to do.

There's nothing to be afraid of...I wouldn't hurt you.

[itsjust-thebonesyoure-madeof]

Ca-Cameron…I-… I wanted to know…if I could talk to you for a moment…

[doityourselforielly]

Uh, sure, whatever you need.

[darling-dahlia-greene-blog]

Yeah… I suppose that is true, but I just… hate to complain about things too much. I had a rather privileged life. I should appreciate it…

[ smiles ] It does, doesn’t it? And you don’t have any idea what you want to do?

[doityourselforielly]

Well- don't worry about it. I hear complaining is good for the soul sometimes.

I..well I would love to live with my girlfriend, im not sure where. I'm not sure if she'll want to do the same. Maybe go back to Hogwarts. Maybe move somewhere warmer...next to the water. There are too many options really.

[darling-dahlia-greene-blog]

Oh, it’s okay, I’m  sure loads of people have had it worse than me! I don’t mean to complain so much.

What I want to do when I get off the island? I want to probably go back and work as Divination TA in Hogwarts if I can. Or get my very own flat and work in a shoppe somewhere. I can’t decide.

[doityourselforielly]

You're not complaining. You just stated your position and I questioned...Everyone has their problems I'm sure..but..that doesnt mean yours are less valid.

That sounds like a nice way to live afterwards.

[darling-dahlia-greene-blog]

My parents, unfortunately. I had to be Little Miss Perfect all the time.

Yeah, same! You can just, like, float there, and it’s silent… I love it. When everyone gets off the island you should go to some place tropical or warm. Swim everyday.

[doityourselforielly]

Oh...I see...I don't understand the feeling but...

Maybe....I-I dont really know what I'll want to do. It'll depend on things...Do you know?

[darling-dahlia-greene-blog]

Yeah, the Polizei weren’t really my problem, but I’m sure it’s lovely to be safe from them.

I love swimming! We used to have a pool, I was the only one who used it, but it was really fun. I’m sure if you tried you’d freeze, but if you would like to give it a shot I suppose nothing is stopping you.

[doityourselforielly]

*his eyebrows crunch sympathetically* Who took your freedom?

I love it too. Its relaxing- helps clear my mind. I'll...just stay on land then.

[darling-dahlia-greene-blog]

Well they’re crazy, because it’s so beautiful! And free, the freedom here is amazing.

Of course the beach is almost as amazing. Even though it’s cold, it’s fantastic.

[doityourselforielly]

Freedom...it is nice not to be constantly watched or beaten on by the poliezi...

I've started to wear a jacket sadly...before I could even swim in the water. Well...Maybe I still could...

[darling-dahlia-greene-blog]

How could anyone not think this place was amazing?

[doityourselforielly]

I..I dont know. People who don't appreciate nature I assume..

[darling-dahlia-greene-blog]

Oh, yes I’ve only just arrived a few weeks ago, I believe. Time is so hard to keep track of. It’s a very beautiful place, wouldn’t you say?

[doityourselforielly]

Oh yeah...its very pretty. Lots of people dont appreciate it though.

[darling-dahlia-greene-blog]

Oh it’s okay, like I said it’s really easy to scare me. It’s nice to meet you! I’m Dahlia. Dahlia Opal Greene. [ smiles ]

[doityourselforielly]

Are you new here, Dahlia? I..don't think I've seen you around...

[darling-dahlia-greene-blog]

  Oh goodness! That’s so embarrassing… thank you for pointing that out. I would have never noticed. Definitely worth the fright. [ laughs ]

[doityourselforielly]

I didn't mean to scare you...sorry about that. I'm....Cameron by the way.

[darling-dahlia-greene-blog]

Phew, oh, it’s okay I just- get startled rather easily.

[doityourselforielly]

Sorry...I just saw you had your shirt tucked in funny....

[itsjust-thebonesyoure-madeof]

She studied his face… and she knew that she hurt him and she felt her heart begin to crack and she didn’t like this feeling. She didn’t like knowing she probably hurt him. She pulled away from him and looked away. She couldn’t look at him anymore, she didn’t want to feel guilty for not saying something she know she should say back. 

"I-I’m sorry……if I hurt you…I’m sorry, Cammie..so sorry.."

[doityourselforielly]

Cammie jumped off the bed, and stood at the door way. He didn't mean to act so abruptly but he didn't know what to do with his hurt feelings.  

"It..It's fine. We don't have to worry about it." 

[itsjust-thebonesyoure-madeof]

Penny pulled away from him and stared, not really knowing what to say or what to think, or even how to respond to him. She didn’t know if she loved him, she knew that everything without him would be utterly painful and so abnormally boring. She couldn’t see any day of her life with out him, but…she didn’t know if she was in love with him…she simply didn’t know.

"Re-really? You love me?"

[doityourselforielly]

Cammie stayed silent for a minute, unsure what do with her response. There was no denying that he wouldve loved an 'I love you too' but if she didnt well.. he wasnt going to pressure her.

"Yes."

[itsjust-thebonesyoure-madeof]

Penny smiles and puts her book down, face down, on the bed and kisses him back; running her fingers of her free hand through his hair. When she pulled away, she smiled at him and ran her finger along his jaw line. “I l-..I really like you Cameron…Like….five really’s…” 

[doityourselforielly]

Cammie stayed jarringly silent for a second. Her words had him thinking...well her words always had him thinking, but this time was different. He had thought it before, but now- now he just had to say it. It wasnt often that he spoke his mind, or spoke at all, but now he just couldnt keep it inside. The way she looked next to him, the way her eyes shown in the lights, the way her hair fell so perfectly, so soft. Her gorgeous smile, and the way that her voice spoke to him.

"I love you Penny."