This... feels like I’m a ghost speaking to myself in a cemetery but, I recently hopped onto tumblr again and realized that the links I said I’d be active on in the future are in fact.. void. I’m so not on instagram it’s hilarious.
But neither am I posting any writing so I get to be shot twice. But to stay on track, if there’s anyone still on here who’s, uh... still interested, I guess, I’m now regularly on twitter on my personal account @sogakino (writing account also abandoned because I am awful at social media). It has shenanigans, not exclusively writing nor Haikyuu focused, but I’ll be posting a lot more with the sudden time-skip arc in the manga and the upcoming season of Haikyuu in 2020!
The real reason why I’m back here is because I saw the time skip and I just--I’m still actually writing Ringleaders on my days off (which I hope to actually release before the new season comes out and have a backlog of at least 10 chaps), for those who remember it from eons ago, and I feel like a prophet. No joke. That’s it. Post over. Back to the grave I go. See you all! (Spoilers below because I just need to shout somewhere)
I freaking KNEW Daichi was gonna be a police officer I am going to pat myself really hard on the back cus damn
And Kenma’s a programmer in Ringleaders. ding ding ding ding
Well, this is it! To close everything off I thought I’d make a final, final post on this blog as its writer.
Thank you everyone, the people who’ve been there from the start, the people who’ve hopped on the wild ride in the middle and to the people who will continue to pop by in the future--thank you all for spending time with me, and giving me so much support. (Also to those who’ve replied to my previous announcement, I’ll be leaving a response via reply. Since tumblr still won’t let me reply directly to comments.) [Edit: I also want to apologize for all the prompts I never managed to write and thus letting some of you down. I’m thankful for every single one of them, and perhaps in the future, one day, I might remember one and come back to it. But, until then.]
I’ll still be writing, and you can find me on twitter and ao3, but this scenario blog will be coming to a close. It’s been an absolute pleasure.
As of today, right now, this blog is officially closed.
It's certainly been a while, and for all those who're still here to read this small letter, I'm truly grateful from the bottom of my heart. I'm sorry for the long absence and the silence in general on both this and my personal blog.
As you guys know, tumblr has changed a lot, very suddenly, after the banning of explicit material a few months ago, and since then the site hasn't been quite the same. I found myself on social media less, and tumblr even more so, with half the content vanished and several controversies regarding fic authors and such. It was kind of a mess. But of course, I can't simply set that up as an excuse for the fact that since the beginning of this year, things have changed for me too. I usually don't put my personal baggage onto this blog unless it's someone asking for my opinion or advice, but I thought after all this time and silence I owe the remainder of you guys some explanation.
Although the whole of 2018 was an absolute shit-show for me, things really began to change starting last Christmas, and only recently (relatively) finalized about three days ago. Mostly, it was family issues. As an East Asian, where from I think I've mentioned in some post or another, we're mostly expected to live at home until we get married (just for clarification for those from the West who're wondering what sort of bum I am for still living with my parents), so I've more or less had to live with those issues every day, every night. Divorces, weddings, financial disputes, you name it. And with all those things, came incredible financial instability in one of the top five most expensive cities to live in worldwide. So, along with that, my lovely friend called depression I'm sure you're all familiar with, I could no longer afford to sit around and pick up freelance to sustain myself whilst writing fic. Honestly, the biggest issues was that I was more or less completely dead inside, which surprisingly doesn't do much for one's creativity.
And now, having reached this time of year and this stage of supreme resignation, I don't think that I will be continuing this blog anymore.
Perhaps some of you might actually think that it's been a long time coming, and I'd agree with you, but I do want to say that it's not a spur of the moment thing--I've been mulling over it very seriously for about half a year. This blog, and all you guys, ALL of you, have been one of the very few things that kept me going in my worst years. I began this in 2016, the worst year of my life to date, and received so much support from you all that I have actually been reduced to tears. I've disappointed quite a few of you, I know, but you never gave me any shit over it and for that I'm eternally grateful. Sometimes I look back at the things I used to write, and although I can easily point out the mistakes now, I miss the person I used to be, even at my worst. I miss how all I lacked were the ideas, and had you all to help me with that. I'm sorry to have to repay all your kindness with me like this, right now. But I think that leaving you hanging in eternal hiatus is in some way worse.
I'm trying to get myself together now. To admit where I can't continue, but not to run away from its conclusion. I won't stop writing because I'm emotionally incapable of losing my final coping mechanism, and I want to return to social media again to at least find some lost joy in seeing art and fic and other people being happy about things. I'll be moving almost completely to AO3 as haruun, where I'll be able to stop worrying about exposure or followers or reblogs. Also, I'll be shifting to instagram as ‘@haruunhere’. If you don't mind some personal posts along with sparse writing, please follow me there. Although I'm more quiet there I already check instagram frequently, and I welcome all DMs.
This blog will be officially closed in two days time, on the 22nd of March 2019. I'll keep it up, nothing here will be deleted, but I will no longer be checking asks or messages here.
Finally, I just want to thank you all one last time for how much you've all given me. Thank you for talking to me, thank you for reading my things, and thank you for all the messages you've left and the comments that have honestly kept me going when I loathed every word I came out with. You are the only reason why I dared to pick up freelance, to pick up real life part time jobs as I told others that I could write. Thank you for giving me the confidence I never had in something I thought I was never good at. It changed my life.
I won't stop writing, ever. I won't disappear from fandom either, especially with Haikyuu's season 4 announced, and maybe then I'll be returning to my personal blog to fangirl with you all. But for now, this is goodbye here, and hopefully, I'll see you all around.
Thank you, and I'm sorry.
(P.S. Around two months ago, after a convo with one of you, I was motivated to tackle Ringleaders once again. So, I’ve re-plotted it completely, and have the framework basically all ready to go. It’s the project that interests me the most right now so if you’re interested in how it’ll be redone, it’ll be updated and continued on my AO3.)
hello everyone, i honestly don’t know what’s happening with tumblr at all anymore but i just wanted to mention that
if you see me start reblogging any adverts or very strange things, it isn’t me.
i don’t think it’s happened to me yet, but i have adblock on absolutely everything so i might not be able to see it on my own. please let me know if you do see something like that from me and i will immediately remove it from the premises.
good evening, all! as a follow-up to this post saying that i won’t be deleting either this or my personal blog and will remain primarily active on tumblr (the pages and layouts and things are simply too well designed for me to leave for twitter word limits), i’ve also created new pages on both instagram and twitter for my writing. those pages will contain, of course, every sort of profanity imaginable. i’ll mostly be equally active on twitter as i will be on here as all the artists have moved.
requests accepted through tumblr and twitter only (if i ever open them). instagram will contain updates only. however, i’m open on all three platforms for conversation and will not cross-post chats or quick headcanons. links to all of these will be added to my ‘about me’ page, in case.
writing twitter - @idothewrite (’i’ before dothewrite, since it was, amazingly, taken. you’ll know you’re at the wrong page when it’s all in arabic. i do not speak arabic.)
writing insta - @dothewrite
ao3 - haruun
personal twitter - @sogakino
personal tumblr - @qrinon
the new twitter and insta pages are currently empty as i made them about eighteen minutes ago, but i’ll fill them with something soon. ao3 will also be updated with all the scenarios i’ve done here in the next few days. thanks for sticking around with me, and i wish you all a great day! (there may be things i’ve forgotten to include, so please feel free to shoot me an ask for clarification!)
Hello Haru! It's my birthday today and I just wanted to say that you're one of the greatest gifts life has given me. Thank you so much for living and for sharing your talent to us humble beings.
Helloooooo, you beautiful being! I cried reading this, in little dribbles. Thank you so much for leaving me such a beautiful message, and whatever goodwill left for me this week I wish to you, to have the best birthday so far in your years. It must be lovely, to have a birthday so close to Christmas!
And let me just add—you deserve all the gifts in life, and I hope you come across many more. :) Happy Birthday!
WHAT'S YOUR AO3 USERNAME I CAN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T KNOW THIS ALSO YOUR WRITING AND ANALYSIS IS A++++++++++++++++++++++++++++(and an infinite more plus) ☆☆☆☆
hellooooo! i’m not as active on there (’cus i naturally think that i need to upload longfic and that’s just… i’m trying….) but i will be now that tumblr’s got new stuff going on. i’ll be backing up all my writing on this blog to ao3.
it’s haruun, cus haru is more or less always taken. i should have some other links on my ‘about me’ pages both on dothewrite and my personal blog. thanks for asking~!
haru have you heard about tumblrs new adult content ban its horrible and if youre planning to move to somewhere else take me with you. I do know your ao3 account tho, but are you on any other website as well
oh gosh, i certainly have. if there really is an exodus, the company deserves it for this blatant laziness. we’ll be a blue neopets from now on, apparently.
but! i won’t be deleting this blog or my personal one (unless i get banned then ain’t much i can do about that). i’ll still be answering asks and filling requests here, but i will also be making a new page for myself somewhere. i’m currently torn between instagram and twitter (neither of which are good for writers, but there isn’t much choice), but i’ll be making an update if i do come to a decision before dec 17th. i’ve heard things about pillowfort? i might move there, but it’ll be slightly hard on you guys since it requires a donation, if i’m not wrong. we’ll see.
my account on AO3 will most likely remain until armageddon, no fear, and from now on i’ll be posting all my writing on there as backup. if i’m suddenly vaporized without warning by tumblr, i’ll have updates and things on my ao3 profile.
i hope all your blogs are doing alright–evading the nipple gestapo–and thanks for asking me about this!
p.s. obviously, to save my hide, any nsfw fills will now be posted on ao3 exclusively. i laugh, because it’s not as if i ever write any. i suck. but nsfw chat replies however, will be answered with immense big dick energy right on this blog as usual, filled with exciting new euphemisms to dupe those pesky bots. long live the eggplant emoji.
Hey there! I just wanted to ask you what you thought about school; I'm in the middle of university and lately I've just been feeling so unmotivated and indifferent towards my major. Even with finals season lurking about I don't feel stressed, just apathetic. I've definitely felt like this before in the past, but it's been lingering for quite a bit now and it's gotten me thinking about if I want to continue pursuing a higher education. I know it's a common mood people catch, but I don't know.
Hello! Honestly speaking, I’m the type of person that parents hate because I always answer with less than ‘you got this! keep working! make everyone proud!’ answers, so I’m a bit worried that this won’t be the encouraging thing you wanna hear. I’ve personally failed an entire quarter/semester because I was depressed and apathetic, and skipped all my finals. I understand.
I think most of it is to do with how much the joy and satisfaction of learning something for pure curiousity is sucked out when you’re starting to grade things and make marking schemes. Just like conditioning, when there’s pressure each time you achieve something, it stops becoming fun and you associate that process with all negative emotions. It’s the same reason why you can go through Wikipedia links like a crack addict but it’s literal hell to wake up at 10am to get to a lecture that you’re not gonna study until the week before your finals. It’s not your fault. And I think, maybe, that it might be the system that you’re disinterested in and not the learning itself. You might need more time to pull yourself away from the GPAs and job searches to… more or less, remember that you’re a human being with a functional curiosity that has survived evolution.
Also, a lot of people aren’t interested in going further (as in, Masters, PhD, etc.) after their bachelors. Because, simply put, academia is not for everyone, and truthfully you have to be a specific brand of insane to enjoy it. Unless you’ve a specific goal in mind (e.g. 100k salary with a Philosophy degree–doable, but you gotta keep studying or get really lucky with a job) I don’t think it’s really necessary to make yourself miserable over more studying. If you want to continue it in the future when you’re in your 40s, go for it. There’s no rush now.
But I’m worried that if you do what I do, and just…flunk your finals, you won’t be satisfied afterwards. I don’t want you to regret it. The advice I can give is to take some time soon to sit and think it over, if you want to either drop out of university and find a job, take a year/several years off, or to finish and never touch academia again. If you feel like you need a break right now, it’s okay for you to calculate how many credits you need to graduate or to keep your GPA from dropping past suspension, and see if it’s alright for you to skip your finals this semester. If you don’t have that luxury, and you want to finish your degree on time, I’m afraid you must power on. Whatever you choose, I want you to be sure that you know it’s what you want, it won’t damage you in the long term, and that you can take the time to heal up. Once you’ve decided what you want in your future, then you can see what sort of steps you can take to firstly, prioritise your mental health, and to slowly make your way to your new goal.
I typed a lot because I feel veeeeeeery strongly about academia LOL but I hope you found something in it that helped!
ohh i see. that's actually a pretty interesting way to look at it; i agree with what you said! i guess it all boils down to how you personally sort characters, whether it be by core traits, their ability to make choices, or what traits they value most. i guess hayama would be hufflepuff for the first one and slytherin for the other two (imo). this was fun! can we send in more hp discourse? whether they be from hq or another series?
‘i guess it all boils down to how you personally sort characters, whether it be by core traits, their ability to make choices, or what traits they value most.’
yeah, i pretty much agree with all that. technically we could get extremely in depth and analyze each character in the books and cross reference them with the pottermore quizzes and all, but let’s be honest, i bet rowling just went with her gut. and of course, the best characters and the best people, have endless multitudes to them, which is what makes them fascinating. compare voldy and draco for example–one’s pretty much a crybaby, and the other is uh, definitely not a wuss. imagine if voldemort was sorted into gryffindor. that’d be hilarious.
and most certainly you can send more discourse! i love answering asks of all sorts, and i’ll be tagging them appropriately so that people who aren’t interested can block whatever they want. you’re also welcome to continue asking over at my personal blog instead, if we want to keep things relevant.
evilcarpaccio replied to your post “Ooh, I got a food wars one! Most people put Tadokoro in Hufflepuff...”
People always have underrated Hufflepaff. Even though J.K.Rowling once said that the most of the students at the final fight night were from Hufflepaff. I think Megumi fits it very well, she is kind, loyal and brave at the same time❤️
absolutely! honestly although i’m completely proud and satisfied with my house, if i were to be really, brutally honest with myself, i think hufflepuff would be the one house i secretly wish i were, i secretly envy. because i’ve never thought of a more difficult trait to embody than kindness, and acceptance. in this world we have plenty of fighters, thinkers, climbers--but to meet someone who would sit and talk to a stranger and love them like they would themselves, that’s almost unheard of. i think that takes true strength. and hufflepuffs are severely, severely underestimated in that regard.
Ooh, I got a food wars one! Most people put Tadokoro in Hufflepuff given her homeliness, but am I the only person who sees her as gryffindor? She is so so brave! Taking charge against Eizan's goons, going up against the third seat of her own accord, standing up to Azami... And she's always down to do whatever crazy plot Souma's cooked up (heh) even if she complains about it at first. Idk. What do you think?
i think she’s got a serious hufflepuff feel not just with her homeliness but her quiet kind of support for souma no matter what, but she can definitely fit in gryffindor! honestly she strikes me as incredibly neville longbottom-like brave, and that’s no joke. she’ll pick up that big ass sword and chop some snake heads if need be. she’s a difficult one to pick for, and if only i were the sorting hat ;_;
just a small warning- i’m going to answer all the long lost asks in my inbox, so there’s gonna be an influx of posts. as always, i tag my talk posts as i do the speak/conversations in the dark/anon speaks, so please feel free to block those on your dash if you don’t want them cluttering you.
there’s also a new tag with the influx of headcanon questions, and that’s the original character tag. that tag is specifically for my own characters, and if you’re not interested, and are only here for the fics, please feel free to block this tag.
also, a small explanation for my chat tags! [i do the speak] is for asks and comments i’m replying to individually, [conversations in the dark] is for when i’m actively inviting discourse/chatter on a particular subject. [anon speaks] is rarer, when anons refer or talk to each other through me. i really do welcome people blocking tags, because i absolutely do not want to burden others with things they’re not interested in.
my friend and i were debating this and since you watch food wars too, i wanted your opinion on it: do you think hayama should be slytherin or hufflepuff? i get that slytherin's the obv choice, but imo hayama's ambition, which is the source of his character, largely stems from his loyalty to jun & the shiomi seminar. almost everything he does is in jun's name, so to me, hayama's loyalty is his core trait. and as we all know, loyalty is big hufflepuff energy
-rubs hands together- my man you better know what you’re getting into before engaging me in potter discourse because i Will Not Shut Up about it
this response will include mild spoilers for shokugeki, but it’s not like i’m super updated so just a mini warning
sooooo i kinda, mostly, feel like hayama’s a slytherin. ‘cus the thing is, the way i differentiate houses isn’t what traits they have (contrary to canon maybe sorry) but how, for example, they go about achieving their goals. so for example, i fully believe that every person is capable of valuing loyalty, but where gryffindors are more likely to be defending your honour with their fists, hufflepuffs will mostly likely be the type to stand up for you if you’re badmouthed, and if pull comes to shove will stand on your side even against the world. slytherins are loyal as all hell, with a elitist streak. so whilst pansy parkinson feels absolutely no loyalty to mr potter at all and will gut him for voldy, she (imo) is likely to impale herself on a pike for her family. or draco. you get what i mean?
so i think that the venue which hayama chooses to prove his loyalty to shiomi is pretty slytherin. and also not very emotionally intelligent, but still slytherin. he doesn’t care who he serves, as long as it gets him what he wants--which is the longevity of the spice department (if i’m not mistaken). he doesn’t care if shiomi is hurt, upset or anything, because he feels like he knows better, he’s the cynical one, and he will do anything, even if it means giving up his pride working for the wrong side just to get her what he thinks she deserves. compare it with some death eater kids, or even draco, for example. he let death eaters into his school because his family were in danger. i’m pretty sure if you held narcissa at wand-point, he would be willing to commit genocide for her. same goes with hayama.
lemme know if you disagree though, cus i’d love to hear!
are you up to date on the manga? i've only watched the anime so far but i really wanna start the manga bc s4 is taking forever to come and i just wanna meet bastardboy suguru already!!
oh god, i’m so far from caught up on the manga that i can’t even call myself a fan seriously
i’m like the impatient type? where if i’m caught up i really can’t bother with waiting another bloody week, so i let it ferment and hopefully maybe the manga can finish so that i wont have to be patient again LOLOLOL so im stopped at somewhere near the… nationals? idk the big one where the big 3 are all showing up at and akaashi finished talking some really emotional stuff about bokuto and there i gave up waiting
(also i just cant take suguru seriously cus i call him daisho in my head and it just reminds me of daiso, the japanese dollar store equivalent LOL)
(cont) scenarios :)) thanks for the fast reply too!! can't wait to see your next piece and will always pop in every now and again if you ever need words of encouragement ahaha :) - ghost anon
i’m afraid i didn’t get the first part of your message, it didn’t seem to appear in my ask box D: but there’s absolutely no need to thank me! i’m hoping to pick up my game on replying to people too hahaha
and again, thank you so very much :) it’s thanks to encouragement like yours that i’m digging up motivation to get my ass in gear
