THE DouJin Paintbrush

Why is this still here? Whatever. I voted for Gavis Bettel. Support Holostars.

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Damn, can't believe Octavio whipped out his peacock live on stream. Best 3.0 showcase ever. 10/10 no notes

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I found something cute today

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It's over. It's done and it's over now. They're gone. And we will never, ever have to go through this ever again. Right?

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With the last picture I posted, I'll be taking a quick break for my mental and physical health. These last few months have been difficult. I think I need to take some time to take care of myself.

(of course, I will still be participating in the voting. feel free to call for me when there's an important update.)

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This one was harder for some reason. Sorry, Shien-San. At least I wasn't late.

All of Holostars in Lingerie part 10

[most-adoptable-grown-man-contest]

Most Adoptable Grown Man Contest - Round 4, Poll 12

Which grown man is more adoptable?

Aziraphale - Good Omens

Danny Motta - Youtuber

Voting ended onJun 26

It's been too long since I've gotten a pair of images where it looks like one is reacting to another...

Anyways, Danny may have lost after one round in the sexyman contest, so let's see if he'll lose after two rounds in this one or if he'll actually persist! I genuinely do not know at this point; this contest has taught me to never try to predict who'll win things

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A Ruzader said to get Danny Motta to the end to pit him against Ruze. Do your thing Starmin.

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Rio-San, thank you for being the person you are. Please don't disappear.

All of Holostars in Lingerie part 9

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I'm sorry I was so late. I hope that you're happier now. I hope you're free.

All of Holostars in Lingerie part 8

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I'm sorry I was too late. I did my best, Rikka-San.

All of Holostars in Lingerie part 7

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Do people feel better when they say what's on their mind?

I found Hakka first. That little bird was just a fun person who made me smile and laugh. I heard him sing for the first time when he released Omen of Crows. I gathered the courage to look into him more. To listen to him sing, watch old streams. He started streaming on twitch, and for a while I haven't missed a single stream. And in meeting Hakka, I met a whole world of people I didn't know about, not just Holostars, but the Starmin as well.

I joined them, and I feel so comfortable here. I've met all the Holostars EN members through their streams. And then, I started to know the JP members, as well.

When the first announcement happened, I was shocked. I was angry. I felt hopeless. How could people so talented and kind and loving be treated this way? I was scared for their futures, and I wanted to help. I wouldn't say I'm usually the optimistic type, but this time I was. I thought there was still time to change it. I told myself I was doing everything I could to help them, to be there for them. I lurked in streams, I spread their names, I supported their every loss and triumph. In doing so, I grew more and more attached to them. Why wouldn't I? They're such amazing people. I even revived this old account to cheer for Bettel. I know we were all having fun, but I truly thought we had done something. I thought we made that difference.

That second announcement was made. The graduations. And I haven't stopped crying. I'm not sure if I've smiled. I became absent, even in Hakka's streams. I leave the occasional comment. I always say hi in the streams I catch. I didn't stop making the art I promised. I just changed the order. Why did I have to meet people so great just to lose them so quickly?

I will cherish you. I will love you. Always. Do your best out there, and please don't give up. Take care of yourselves, Holostars. All of you. Especially the ones that are staying with us. Because I know it hurts more for you than it does for us. And I hope that, as you live your lives, you still see us and know how much we will always love you. No matter where or who you are.

But please let me keep crying for a while longer.

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This one hurt to make, too. It's the final details that have been making me sad.

I made sure you matched with him.

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I forgot.

All of Holostars in Lingerie part 6

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This one hurt to make, too. It's the final details that have been making me sad.

I made sure you matched with him.

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With all of these, I try to be respectful. I'm not objectifying. I'm not sexualizing. It's appreciation. This one needed something more... I rushed a bit to get done in time.

I'm sorry this happened.

All of Holostars in Lingerie part 5

I don't know when I'll feel okay again. I haven't for a while now.

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What is your favorite humorous Holostars moment?

This is a difficult question to answer. There's a lot of good moments, and if I go based off of what made me laugh the hardest, it's the most recent Gartic Phone that didn't survive. The whole stream. But one clip that I rewatch a lot is this one

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I got it done. Tried my best. I'll keep trying as much as I can.

All of Holostars in Lingerie part 4

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It hurts. It really really does. I'll push forward regardless, there's just no point in taking a break right now. I won't be able to finish in time for the one's who are leaving. I won't cut them out of the project. I may give them a little more care than the others and adjust the designs. It's just really hard right now. With this news, though, it settles a question that I'd had: I will be including ALL HOLOSTARS. Even those no longer with us. And I will continue to be respectful with their designs in this project. I wish I had more time...

I haven't been a Starmin for long, but I really mean it when I say that, in this short time, I've grown fond of every one of these talented individuals. The heartbreak I feel right now is not an overexaggeration. If you see this by chance, please check out the names in the tags.

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The click noise that my elbow just made is concerning, but I made good progress and may be able to finish tomorrow if my arm doesn't break.