TW : ED

victoire. 15 CW: 121 GW: 100

[douxhoneycake]

you may be thinking: hey u haven’t posted in a while! well yes, i actually recovered. if im being honest it was because i started smoking all the time so i got more comfortable eating. i still get really dark thoughts about my eating habits though, and i think i always will. i have made a goal though to eat a little less, considering i’ve been working out and maintained my weight instead of losing. anyways hey y’all 🥳

[douxhoneycake]

happy new year everyone!! i’ve been gone for a while bc of recovery… but i’m back in my starving era unfortunately.

[douxhoneycake]

this man is 24 years old as his bio says. i have in my bio that i am 15, a minor, yet he still messaged me and hit on me.. i’m so disgusted

[douxhoneycake]

being the mysterious pretty girl would be much easier if i was 20 lbs lighter

[douxhoneycake]

gonna go back to omad bc its much easier and then i can eat actual food and still be under my cal limit

[douxhoneycake]

if u are on edblr and u post ur puke… that shit is not only disgusting but triggering. pls keep it to yourself.

[douxhoneycake]

updating my stats:

CW: 118.8

GW1: 115 (paint room!)

GW2: 110 (dye hair orange!)

GW3: 105 (eyebrow piercing!)

GW4: 100 (belly button piercing!)

UGW: 90 (trip to bakery!)

[douxhoneycake]

ayo i’m done with recovery who wants to be moots

[douxhoneycake]

i took too many edibles and binged and now i would like to be buried alive s’il vous plaît 🙏🙏

[douxhoneycake]

im dying right now that was my first real binge and its all because i wanted to be happy for once UGH!!! can someone tell me how many calories the danish butter cookies are they’re so good but they taste too good to be low cal

[douxhoneycake]

smoking weed really punches ana in the face 😭😭 i hate all these cravings i keep buying food

[douxhoneycake]

im telling itself its just water weight and its natural to gain overnight when u eat later but im starting to feel myself freak out i gained 2 lbs overnight 😭😭😭

[douxhoneycake]

pretty sick and twisted that i can’t live without food 🙄 why won’t my body let me starve myself in peace

[douxhoneycake]

soo i made it to 84 hours, woke up, felt like i was dying. so i decided i need to eat something, and had a fruit & nut bar. i had basically no energy left, i was extremely dizzy, couldn’t walk. my body basically shut down. and i didn’t even lose that much. i’m so mad

[douxhoneycake]

im on hour 50 of my fast and honestly i feel great. i’m very drained because i worked out and studied as hard as i could, it’s hard to keep going when i’m running on empty. but i don’t feel very hungry, no cravings.

[douxhoneycake]

i’m gonna do a fun challenge called “not eating until i lose at least 2 lbs”

[douxhoneycake]

ahh screw it i’m going to fast until i pass out…

something about looking at my bmi (20.5) makes me want to decrease it by like 5 numbers