petty rant: I hate that I support others way more than any of them could ever support me. That's not like a quantitative measurement, but I take the time to get to know who people like being supported and try and give them that + what I do for my own support. To date so few people in my life have ever asked me how I would like to be supported and then stick to it. Maybe I'm narcissistic, maybe I'm delusional but it often feels like I put way more into others than I know I'll ever get back from them. It's like being constantly let down, but you really only have yourself to blame. God I'm such a dumb bitch.








