My dream journal

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I’m here again.

I had another nightmare last night. One of the worst I’ve had in years. I was in the car with my grand ma and my mom. I was in the middle-back seat looking out the windshield. We had just gotten done doing something at the High School, but we got done and wre driving somewhere down Whitebird hill at night. While she (my grandma) was driving, I was watching every curve of the road pass carefully. I just do that when I drive cause it gives me the feeling of control. Then, my grandma missed a curve and drove straight into the revine. I felt us go over and start to fall. I had enough time to acknowledge I was going to die and think “well, this is happening, so I guess we’ll see what happens.” I heard my mom say I love you as we grew closer and closer. I saw and felt the impact, then everyting went black. But after that, I felt my body be released from pain. I felt better than I ever had and it was euphoric. Suddenly, my vision was flooded with bright white and white noise filled my ears. As soon as it started, it ended and my vision was black again. But this time, I didn’t feel anything. No good, no bad. I could just feel myself fading into the black. I remeber my last thought was “help, I can’t feel”. After that, I don’t know how long I was there, but there was no thought, there was nothing to see hear or touch. It was just black. Then I woke up anf had an existential crisis.

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Best-friends

I had a nightmare last night that my bestfriend died inna horrible way. It started like this. The first part of my dream, the was a cafeteria. I don’t really remember what happened there, but the area somehow shifted to a stage set. While the crew was moving the peices, I was looking at instagram, like I do when I’m waiting. That’s when I saw a post by one of her relatives and a comment that said, “Sarina passed away last night. More details later.” My heart dropped. I thought maybe it was some sick joke, but then her mom posted with pictures of Sarina and ot said, “My baby girl has gone to heaven today.” I was devistated. I couldn’t breathe. I was looking to find more information, but I just found more pictures of her and a video where she taught people how to play Bon Jovi’s “It’s my life” with out friend Emily. She was so full of life in these pictures, how could she be dead? I then “woke up” in my dream. Thinking maybe it was all a dream, I began to walk home. As I got to my apartment, I checked instagram, and it was real. The relative had posted that she died of an illness that was very sudden, I don’t remember what it was called, but the description basically read like this: “An illness caused by bacterea, where it can lay dorment or with not many symptoms, and can suddenly appear. The illness eats through skin and bone, causes the afflicted to go blind, and causes major organs to fail without notice. Not treatable. Symptoms; Lack of sleep, caughing fits, and some others.” I broke down, bawling, thinking about how that must have been for her. How she died scared and blind with her body being eaten away by the second. She was dead and I couldn’t talk to her and have her in my life anymore. I felt empty. I woke up crying. I had to text her to make sure she was okay. Still waiting to hear back.

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coming soon: the duolingo owl will break into your home at night and beat the shit out of you if you don’t know the word for potato in french

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The treasure cave

This time, I was in a cave. The walls were wet and slimey. They had stalagtites and stalagmites that were a blue/black color but changed to a sickening green at the tip. I was with a group of people and I was leading them. I was going through a big tunnel at first, but then the tunnel got smaller and smaller until I could barely fit through. But, I managed to pull myself through, and on the other side, was a cave that dropped off onto another ledge. We slid down the slick rock to what looked like a river. The only way to cross was a knocked over tree. We all crossed safely, then went into a dark room with only a bright light coming through the only window. The room was grey and rotting, but on the side, among regular furnature, was a drawer with treasure in it. Then, I picked up a book and tapped a golden strawberry on the page. It then appeared in my hand. I skimmed through the book, tapping on the golden items. Then, the dream shifted, and I was playing a weird platformer-style game. It was black and white and the character I had was really odd to me. After playing this for a while, I decided I was done, then woke up.

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The computer

I was at the music building with my mom and dad for some reason. I was then driving down Mountain View road when I saw my friend Athena walking on the side walk. At first I passed her, but then I decided to pick her up and give her a ride. She thanked me and we were on our way. We then went to the Eastside Market where we walked around a bit. Then, for some reason, I was at a computer, looking throughsome websites when I decided to use a video chat program, but when I opened the program, the page just faded, pixel by pixel until there was nothing but a fluctuating blue screen. I didn’t understand what was happening, but I had a gut feeling that it was malicious. Then I woke up.

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All I remember....

All I remember form last night’s dream, was that I was in a hotel, or some sort of alrge building with lots of bedrooms. It had three stories and it had a golden overtone. I was looking for my boyfriend, because I had to wake him up for something. When I found him, he was in a small room, asleep in bed. I gently woke him and told him something, but I don’t remember what. Then something about the statue of liberty.