life goes on;

Milena,18. Macedonian, socially awkward, mild depression. Sarah Ma Nigggaaaa :*

[dreamsthattransform]

Hello

Ive noticed ive come to this place as a way to vent about my troubles. Especially with boys. Ive been with the same man for over two years and now is the time in really getting annoyed at everything he does. Always complaining about missing me but never does anything about it. But when i ask to see him theres always a problem. He does out with his friends from school to clubs and when i ask to join he gets defensive and says 'no, its a guys only thing' like hello. Dont say you miss me then. Dont act like you care about me or us for that matter. Im so done with his bullshit.

[dreamsthattransform]

Crying myself to sleep has become a nightly thng now.

[write20xx]

I’m sorry I gave you everything I had without making sure you wanted it.

Heavy (#418: April 21, 2014)

I’ve never read something that described every relationship I’ve had in such few words.

(via gracefully-found)

[winoforevr-deactivated20160222]

[melinaparkinson]

actually crying because of this

[silver-pearls]

oh my god 

[frockled]

this is beautiful 

[illwriteyournameonabullet]

I didn’t know how to put how I’m feeling into words but this person just did and holy shit I want to cry

[werunawayfromlife]

This Person Knows what Love is

[dreamsthattransform]

This makes no sense but ok

Im sorry but dont ever agree to me that you will come see me and tell me that you miss me and then when its time for you to come see me you tell me that your friend is in the area and that you wanna go meet up with her for a bit cuz you havent seen her for awhile and then come see me. Then you end up bringing her along thinking its okay. All i wanted was to just be alone with you. It pisses me off when you make plans with me to do something and you always do something before hand and it fucks everything over. I did not get one moment with you alone and on our way back to our area you pull me aside and tell me bullshit. I fully hear her saying that you told her to go to stc and then get to warden and make her way to eatons. And you wanna tell me she was already in our area? You made plans with her to come. If you had plans before DONT agree to join me. Then when i was about to leave you tell me you are going to chill with a different friend? Its like you didnt even wanna fucken see me at all. You make plans before and after… Our silent train ride was great, we should do that more often. I had a blast.

[dreamsthattransform]

Im just tired.

Im tired of always being put down by everyone.

It seems like whoever im with i either get ignored or told how im wrong and made as an idiot.

Im tired of feeling alone in areas filled with people.

Im tired of people saying one thing and doing anyother.

But most of all im tired of being the one to go out of ny way to do things for people when they wouldnt even open a damn door for me if i was struggling.

If you were close with someone and ever wanted to make something upt to then, you shouldnt have to ask them what you should do, the thing you do for them should always be a given. And little thing helps

[forty1daydream-deactivated20210]

every time my mood drops, it’s like i can hear everyone around me sigh a silent exasperated sigh of, “not again”

i promise that i am just as sick and tired of it as you are

[cannalligraphy-deactivated20240]

This is the realest shit I ever read.

[super-creep]

Someone said it

[theheartthatbeatsinthedarkness]

damn.

[anus]

people who sleep with one pillow make me sick

[thomasthetalkingengine]

people who sleep with more than one pillow are shown to be more lonely and depressed

[astranaut]

[looks to my abundance of pillows on my bed] oh

[dreamsthattransform]

I shouldve listened to my gut from the begining and didnt fall for all your lies. You being away for so long has made me think back on the year together and made me realize all the things youve never done for me. Ive put all my time and effort into you and not one moment from you. Everytime ive mentioned an issue or something you go out of your way to find a way to cover your tracks and hide everything. Im honestly so exhausted from my thoughts and worries and i dont want to have anything anymore. I drained myself out physically and emotionally. Before you i was happy and i couldve truely said i was out of my depression. But now ive hoped right back into it. Ive never truely happy anymore and it sucks so much not being able to go out and not worry about anything. These second guesses and thoughts are making me go crazy. I need out

[ssspeaks]

I hope my daughter never feels this way at night.

10 word story (s.s)

[illectura]

if you have someone in your life who genuinely cares about how your day went, and listens fully to the fucked up shit that goes on in your mind, and answers your texts or calls you back, and lets you know you’re important to them and/or generally makes you feel cared for, you’re really fucking lucky and i hope you tell this person you appreciate them and i hope if they treat you right and make you feel safe and loved, you hold onto them really tight.

[justbrosthings]

if i were to die tomorrow, i’d realize that i did not die happy and that scares me

[tullipsink]

I want someone who can actually love me a way no one else has ever before. I want someone who will see that I can be worth it and fight for me. I don’t want a person who’s just going to love me for a while and when something drastic happens they give up and walk away. I want someone who will stay, who will hold me at my weakest moments and still be able to love me even more. I want someone who will actually go out of there way for me just to make sure I’m okay, someone who will give me the lightest touches of affection and still have the power to drive me insane. I want someone who can love me even when I’m not myself at times.

waiting for that someone// (Cutting-our-way-til-suicide)

Tough part got me

(via 4everal0ne92)

[kushandwizdom]

[on-cloud-mine-deactivated201804]

I have these two neighbours and they’re married and they gotta be like in their late 30s and I’m making dinner and I look out the window and they’re running around outside in their pajamas and bare feet with water pistols soaking eachother and laughing so loud it made me realise I’m wasting so much time trying to make relationships perfect when all that’s really needed is someone who will laugh with me for the rest of my life

[dreamsthattransform]

Im tired. I give my all And you grained me out

[dreamsthattransform]

I dont get it. 8 months. 8 months and im still not close to you. 8 months and i still have doubts. Maybe im to blame. Maybe im the one holding back from letting someone in. I try my best to tell you everything but its still not enough. I dont know what to do I dont get it